I desire to be happy

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another day in my silly tranny life that I'm going to spend stroking my gock to ba girls

>>40964103
i had a dream that a cute boy was holding my hands and kissing me while plapping me in missionary, I woke up after he finished inside and told me he loved me. I hate being gay in a conservative state.

I have been thirsting for one of my friends for so long now, I want to make a move but I genuinely have no idea if he's a chaser or not, it goes further than just lust, we have such similar interests and the same sense of humor, I want to be his. I can't stop thinking about sucking his cock while he lays back and groans, or better yet, playfighting with him leading to him pinning me down and pressing my face against the pillow while he gives me hickies on my neck and rails me until he decides he's done.

>>40964103
I want a pseudo-intellectual chud dork to rape me if I'm really being honest

>site's dead since everyone's outside living life
I'm... happy for them

I’ve been dreaming of my ex again
Just the idea of rekindling anything at this point
Having her lean into consume me. My body quakes and my heart flutters at just the idea of her touch on my thigh, her soft lips on my neck. I was always a useless mess for her.

>>40964242
In desperate need of a gf like you tbdesu

>>40964103
>male, gay, suppose you would refer to me as straight acting
>most guys assume i top, at least after meeting me
>when i was in uni met this guy, mid 30s, finance bro
>standard Grindr hook up at first
>then would slowly test the waters with what i would do
>say he'd give me a hundred pounds if i sucked him off when we were just chilling
>already attracted to him so figure why not easy money
>from there he named a price for bottoming, and so on
>got to the point where I ended up in this BDSM type of relationship
>would wear these little jockstraps he would buy me
>dance/strip for him, he'd place a few quid in the straps
>little things to embarrass me, or try to I guess
>put me in a leash and have me bark
>beg him, tell him that he's made me his bitch
>more mundane stuff such as clean his flat or act as his footrest
>he'd normally just watch the news or work while i do this
>was boring af at the time but the actual sex was good
>outside of that, spanking, grabbing me by the throat, railing me
>while in uni, he'd tell me to text photos of myself in whatever faggy underwear he bought me, usually posing
>sometimes on my knees in a cubicle with my hands clenched together with a caption about how much i wanted to suck him off or whatever
Anyway, ended up saving enough for my tuition that year, and got a real job. Not sure if this made me a rentboy, but have never told anyone, and no one knows but him

>>40964103
I want to hold a boy on my lap, stroking his head and back while cuddling until he falls asleep in my arms.
And kiss his forehead

I've been fantasizing a lot lately about a big strong man grabbing my head by my hair and slamming my head into the wall until I'm a crying bloody mess where he could do whatever he wants to me with little to no resistance >///<

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>>40964103
I want to cut myself while jacking off.

>>40964103
i got sucked off while playing project diva the other day

>>40964832
hottttt waow ._.

can i get one of these but with a force fem thing pls

>>40964103
i wish my bf would show me he desires me by ferally railing my brains out while i cant do anything to stop him. i dream of sharing a moment of pure bliss with him where we can both forget all of our worries & woes of life & let go. just a moment of peace, just a moment of love & longing, pleasee

>>40965056
sorry anon, not something we ever did

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>>40964242
Samee omg

My biggest dildo is inside me right now ahhhhh
It's stretching me open so much

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Okay but why did he have to be kinda hot though..
Serious question is he actually sexy or am I experiencing some kinda danger-induced attraction to a basic thug?

>>40964333
are you into FUBs

>>40965310
Good girl, bounce on it for me

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>>40964103
My co-worker who's a really tall (my eye level is like the middle of his chest) really buff ex-military looking white guy in his 30's with a fiancee remembered my name after I worked with him very briefly once 6 months ago when I was new. Despite the way he looks he's extremely kind and gentle, and I daydream about him having a feral side and doing all sorts of stuff to me.

>Had first gay experience at 17, made a m4m Craigslist ad advertising giving my first blowjob (I lied and said I was 18)
>guy in his early 50s with a big cock responded, he seemed sane
>met up with him, had a great time, and became long-term FWB with him
>fast forward ~11 years later and he's older and survived a rough encounter with cancer, so his dick isn't what it used to be
>worried that if he gets much worse I'm going to have to find someone new when it was a miracle I found this guy as my first and so far only gay sex partner
trying to find new dick when this guy finally gets too far gone is gonna be a serious pain

>>40964242
>>40965282
I would like to send girls like these gooning material in exchange for gock

>be you
>walking on a desolate street late at night
>hear a muffled scream
>it comes from a dark alley
>go take a look
>find a chuddy hogtied and blindfolded
>you could do anything and nobody would ever find out

>>40965543
I got excited at dark alley thinking there would be thugs down there

>>40965394
fat and bastard is okay ugly depends how ugly I guess

>>40964103
I've been using my magic wand so often for so long that it's become a core part of my sexuality. I'm barely attracted to other people anymore.

>>40965394
>>40965614
>search tags I commonly used before
dark-skinned_male
>search tags I started using recently
dark-skinned_male fat_male

>>40964103
i want to be owned and ordered around! I want a man to treat me like an object that only exists for his amusement! I want him to hit me and bully me! I want him to make fun of my small penis that can't make cum anymore! I want him to run a train on me and call me a pathetic faggot after! I want him to make me beg to suck his cock!

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>>40964103
started prog, im not sure if it actually made me hornier because it got rid of my urge to actually get off so now i just lay in bed grinding my thighs together and leaking a ton

it's not fucking fair i need to be a good dog for someone please please pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease

>>40965350
he looks p decent? i mean, not for me personally, but i defs see how somebody would really like the sleepy eyes

>>40964103
on the streets.
umm.. i dont really have any.
i dont even think im going to make it to 2026.


a girl likes me right now.
that's like the only +

and the state is trying to help me. but i stopped caring a long time ago.
and i do fuckton better just going on the streets at night.

so i dont have faith in them either.


i dont care anymore.

sometimes when i get hard drugs, i lowkey wish theres fent in it somehwere so when i put it in me, i can russian roullete if im gonna die in the next few seconds or minute or not.

and im happy about that.

I want to be raped. I'm old now and have zero self-esteem and it's the only way I feel I deserve any sort of intimacy. I want to be raped

there are alot of feelings inside me i can never say

>>40966161
I can't stop thinking about how much my heart would be pounding if he had me cornered face to face

>>40966310
i got raped twice this summer.
it was aaaaaaaaaaight.
but its still rape.
so whatever.

its better if they drug you.

>>40966698
As long as I'm not so drugged that I'm unaware. I also strength to struggle. Despite every single horny thought of mine involving me being used and degraded, I'm incapable to submitting irl so it needs to be against my wishes.

>>40964876
Let's get married

>>40966763
similar, i dont have a sex drive, but if i get fucked up, i'll turn into a slut.
i didnt even mind it for the 1st few hours, it was after and later into the next day it started bothering me.

also the people that did that to me disappeared and no ones seen them, so i think the law got them cause i am monitored by the state. and they can piece everything together as long as my phones on me.

no one has seen them, and they were out there all the time, they disaappered the same time i did so i think they got bopped.

>>40965501
It's extremely hard to move on once you've gotten comfortable, take notes about what really stands out as what you value about your interactions that you can coherently describe to the next guy as what you want

>>40966335
I'd tell you to open up but I never will so cheers

>>40966819
you like that prospect too?

another pathetic day in my autistic chaser life where I wish I had a tranner gf who bullied me with her feet

>>40966886
I want to be a demandingly affectionate presence in your life that monopolizes your affection. Pet me kiss me hug me touch me hold hands with me let's cuddle. Sit near me, walk near me, rest your hand on my shoulder or lower back or thigh. Stare at me when I'm talking or eating or sleeping. Importantly, let me do all the same to you.

>>40966185
don't think about abandoning the horses you coward

>>40967044
too late. i'm going until im dead bitch.

>>40967044
its your turn now.
you have to carry the hoof now.
surely you can save more than 12 by yourself.
you have to be stronger than me.

i need to fuck a twink, now.

>>40967044
oh also, i helped 5 of them in june and july.
im just retired from 7 days a week every day all day staying with a horse.
but i still help them sometimes for free.
but i cant widdle myself down doing that.
i have to take care of myself now.

and this month is pretty important i have alot lined up with the state and healthcare people that are trying very hard to help me.


so i cant do that right now.

and besides i'm fucked up from helping the horses. i miss all of them and my bodys broken, my foot is still broken and fucked up.
and i just need to heal and focus on myself for a little bit.

i'll get back to to it sometime.
its still what im passionate about and it makes me sad not being around them. but i have to do this to save myself.

probably tomorrow 2 care and case managers are calling me and setting things up.

i have a dedicated team helping me now.
because im wild.

i dont know whats stopping you from going to your local animal sanctuary and living there.

any one of you can do that.
and highly recommend it.
cause when a horse bonds with you, its fucking amazing.
you have 1200lbs animal friend that understand you on a spiritual and physical level.
its dope.
definitely worth checking out.

and to save 1.. you'll see.
is one of the most bitter sweet experiences life offers.

im going on the streets tonight.
bye.

>>40967289
heyy uwu

>>40967322
yeah yeah
be safe out there

>>40965783
why dark skinned

>>40964103
Saw so many cute trannies in swimsuits at CCE and it's making want to be one of them so bad. I will be a cute girl twink in a swimsuit too we could've frotted and kissed

>>40965612
so, you gonna abandon the chuddy?

>>40966956
yes pls
europe?

>>40965543
Tickle torture

>>40967847
Fuuuuck, no. Usa. So sorry we coulda had it all

My horniness kinda died out, sisters
Am I cured, or am I cursed?

need a tranner that is into extreme degeneracy

>>40967875
... well what are you gonna do all day now if you're not gooning??

>>40967666
I just really like black guys, so when it comes to porn it's always gotta be with them

>>40967859
awh, star-crossed
Hope you find someone that's willing to give you all that and more...<3

>>40967910
I DON'T KNOW
I NEED HELP AND IDEAS

>>40967935
My best wishes to you too, hope he nuzzles and squeezes you the way I never will

ONS and first date hook up make me feel disgusting and like I've been raped but lately I've been so lonely I've been romanticising those feelings anyway and it's also probably a "better" SH than like, everything else I'm doing. so wish me luck I guess. or my standards are p low rn in Dublin

>>40967958
Guitar

>>40967958
have you tried watching p- wait...
reading hen... manga?
taking cute lew-... selfies?
hanging out with friends and fu-... being platonic?

>>40967983
I play bass, but same difference
>>40967991
Get your mind out of the gutter! Seek help!

>>40968006
Are you a lesbian?

>>40968006
>but same difference
no guitar has more strings so it's better u stupid bassist

i AM seeking help. in this general. with my horny :3

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>>40964103
I just actually need a man who will keep me in his basement and use me for sex. I need to be drugged, beaten, scared and whored out to his friends for fun.

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