>my mother used to be extremely abusive and still won't give us a proper apology>I'm into women who are old enough that they could be my mother and treat me kindly and make me feel safe>it went from just being a plus to a non-negotionable requisite in my standards, shortly after the most traumatic stuff that my mother did to me happenedThis is totally unrelated right it'd be really gross if my sexuality was a cope for the abuse
sexuality and childhood experience are very much linked. there's a reason master freud talked about it so much. but at the end of the day you shouldn't be ashamed it's a very common "coping mechanism", trying to own your trauma in the creative act of sex.
>>40986444It wasn't really childhood I was 17 when the worst stuff happened and my preference for older women increased, though even before then I was into that just wasn't as extreme as now where I wouldn't even consider dating a woman that isn't much older than me...I'm 20 now and still no older gf, closest thing is my friend in her 40s that knows I like her and basically told me that she has too many trust issues to date anyone rn and that I need to love myself first if I want to have a chance of her liking me back. Is it joever?
>>40986500"you need to love yourself first" is the 21st century version of "it's not you, it's me." move on. it's not like older women are swimming in a dating pool of 20 y/os
>>40985655I'm your compete opposite. I also got abused by my mom but instead of being into mommy women I'm disgusted by that kind of stuff and go into a panic attack whenever someone does something that even somewhat closely reminds what my mom does
>>40986563She didn't say that when I told her how I feel, she just said that like months later as a response to me saying some self hate stuff, it was kind of out of nowhere because I didn't even ask her out so idk why she'd think I want her to like me back
>>40985655all sexuality and kinks are a cope anon. let mommy take care of you, okay sweetie?
>>40986500>It wasn't really childhood I was 17 when the worst stuff happenedOk so you didn't get abused and just didn't get a gift or sth cuz you're a privileged cunt
>>40986712She took my hrt away and then made up some story to emergency services to get me tortured and drugged in a psych ward
>>40986738Not very nice but still that's pretty small idk
>>40986738that's pretty fucked, you should wait until she's senile and rape her
>>40986755Idk she was bad before it's just being forced to be permanently mutilated by T and then tortured and drugged by the state for complaining kinda made me finally give up on everything. I guess it's not much worse than previous things idk maybe it was just finding out how helpless I am against anyone like her that decides to simply call a psych and tell them I'm trans
>>40986801ig it also doesn't help that my whole body and face are now reminders of it by being very deformed by the moid chemical
>>40986801Nah I'm being mean because I'm traumatised af and was forbidden from transing as a teen and had to wait until I was in another country to troon outDw I'm just an asshole I'm sorry for you
>>40986858Eh it's kinda my fault if you think of it for not managing to hide being on hrt until being able to escape her, also maybe I should have found some old chaser to buy me another vial and keep it at his place or smth and have me move in with him the moment I turned 18, it was a skill issue really only those who will do anything for it deserve to pass
>>40986889None of it was your fault. You deserve good things and to be treated nice.
>>40987211Nah those who lose deserve the loser's fate I think
>>40987219You're not a loser, you're just a good person who had bad things happen to you.
>>40987220There were ways I could have won against her though, if I was wiser, so ultimately it was a skill issue
>>40987228You're wiser now. You were a kid back then.
>>40987278I doubt there's that much difference between a 17yo and 20yo brain I'm simply retarded there are people on this board that managed to pull off hiding being on hrt for years
>>40986444>sexuality and childhood experience are very much linked. there's a reason master freudyou lost me idc anymore. Enjoy gooning to your cokehead queen
>>40987305>I doubt there's that much difference between a 17yo and 20yo brainthere's 3 years of experience as difference, that's a lot
>>40987664Hmm idk I dated a 20yo girl when I was 17 and she didn't seem that much wiser
>>40987690I should have tried to date an even older woman back then to get hrt and a place to hide from my parents ngl, getting groomed is best strat why didn't I do that...
>>40985655fuck you fuck you FUCK YOU>t. poon
>>40987722You poons and I are nothing alike, I want to be loved by a kind and sweet older woman which is not incestuous at all since that's the opposite of how my mother is, meanwhile you poons want to fuck your actual mother because you are total degens
>>40987909>which is not incestuous at allnta but it's still oedipus even if you wish iocasta were a better mom
>>40988101If it's literally the opposite of how my mother was how is it oedipus
