Why do I every so often, especially after having a more dysphoric day, have moments where my mind just does a full 180 and suddenly feels like transitioning would be a huge mistake, and that it would make me reverse dysphoric?I've been wanting to transition ever since I've found it was something you can do, and my dysphoria has been ever increasing during the time I was deliberating whether I really should or not, but every time I get close doing so, my mind latches onto the idea of being a man.I don't want to be a man, I really don't. Every time this happens, I am genuinely crippled by anxiety and feel like I could throw up every moment, but I also feel like I should completely stop thinking about transitioning. It makes me so confused. I would have been certain I was trans by now, where it not for these moments.Is this just anxiety because transitioning is fundamentally stressful? Is it a sign I'm making a mistake and that I'm actually cis? I just don't know, and I feel like I'm losing my mind.
Did any tranny feel like this pre-transition?
>>40997762Never had this, but it sounds like it's just anxiety
bump
You’re trans. Someone who has wanted to undergo transition ever since they learned about it, and has frequent bouts of anxiety about it, is not cis. Cis people don’t think about transitioning to this extent/at all.
>>41001672That's reasonable, if in those moments I wouldn't be mortally dreading transitioning itself, feeling like I'd hate each and every aspect of it. I could be fully convinced I want to transition, and it'll all crumble to dust when I have one of these episodes
I feel this but I have tried HRT and stopped so now I'm trapped between a hell of not wanting to be a normal man or a tranny
>>41003389For how long did you try hrt? Cause I did try it as well and have the same dilemma as you
It's happening again and I'm legit panicking over this
>>40997762last bump, sry
>>41003521I was on it for like a year and then like half a year later restarted for like a couple months and have tried messing with my dose to find some light feminization
I feel like i should quit HRT since i dont want to socially transition
>>41011002If you like it and nothing else is wrong then I wouldn't
