I hope it’s not just drugsI’m tired of obsessing over this skit for hours on end it’s week 2 and I’m not stoppingI used to go on tangents for a bit but now it’s going abd goingI have had this for years, ever since I found this boardHelp
>>41004207The general approach to alleviating any OCD symptoms is to stop seeking reassurance of the desired outcome and embrace uncertainty.Remember that free will is an illusion and your thoughts are brought to life by your actions.
>>41004207Are you diagnosed with OCD?
>>41005140No but I “have signs”
>>41005372Only relating to tocd or ocd in general?
>>41005389Ocd
>>41005393Then just do anything you can in order to treat your ocd. Get a diagnosis, inform yourself on coping strategies, get ocd medication, do therapy if you can. If you truly have tocd, then the first thing you need to do is to stop visiting the tranny board
>>41005602Idk why but this is just sadYes I need to stop using this board
>>41005846You are sad you might have tocd?
>>41005929Yeah that is all just ocdOr maybe I’m just confusedI feel confusedI need to deal with my depression and ocd before dealing with done supposed dysphoria(if it exists)
>>41006012Yeah, nvm, you're telling me you would be disappointed if you were to find you it's all just tocd? Someone who certainly suffers from tocd would be overjoyed to find out it's just tocd
>>41006133Wdym? I’m mentally illEven if it’s tocd (very likely) why wouldn’t I be sad? I spend so much time and effort looking abd doing transition things. Obviously I’d be sad that I’m such a fucjed person that I did all that just due to sheer mental illness
>>41006133Idk I’m confusedIf I’m supposed to be happy then I’ll just get happy then.My life won’t significantly change. Ill still be alone and depressedI have a lot of work sorry for wasting your time
>>41006170>>41006198How would you feel if you were to find out you are trans, and that many of your issues are due to dysphoria? What do you feel at the thought of living as another gender?
>>41006229There is no definitive proof apparently it’s all self id and you can always lie Even Without dysphoria to get to the “answer”The second question means little to me. I don’t know. I genuinely don’t know what’s the answer
>>41006322What do you feel at the thought of living the rest of your life as your birth sex? Aging as it, becoming more sexually dimorphic with each year, always being forced in the social role of your birth sex
>>41006403Already doing or done all thatI guess I don’t wanna go bald but nobody wants that anywayI don’t feel anything else
I think you should try to confirm if you have dysphoria and if uve had it for a long time which means it wont go away. U can be trans and have ocd, thats pretty much what ppl with extreme brainworms are.. i would say go to therapy to sort it all out (find out if u have ocd, tocd, and or dysphoria) but i know from personal experience its extremely hard to go to a therapist bc u dont wanna help urself and/or u feel like it wont work (i feel the same). uve probably already done this but research what tocd really is, and find out if u really experience it. people with tocd are literally cis people with cis histories that get the idea they might be trans in their head and that rlly scares them bc its not true so they're ocd about it... the thing i personally have as a person with gender dysphoria and possibly ocd or at least ocd traits is being scared that i might NOT be trans, that i might have made all of this up. to my knowledge i think ppl with tocd are scared they might BE trans, so the opposite.. hope i helped a bit but i probably didnt mental illness is incredibly complex....
>>41006750I don’t think I ever felt sad or frightened for potentially being trans but that might just be my mental illness talking and not a real scenario or memory or feeling I think the worst I ever felt was after a group of trans people ignored me and called me names for being extremely creepy and ugly and etc and not fitting in, which made me feel awful for ever thinking I was like them. I felt so bad that I thought I’m like them that I must have been wrong about being transBut again I’m mentally so I’m making stuff up or might as well beMy therapist keeps insisting it’s my choice but that’s dumbMaybe I’m a confused cis person and going in reverseI just know I’m extra masculine and male and my dysphoria feels fake and I’m just trapped.I can’t really think about it rn.I’m mentally and my illness makes me think I’m trans. But I’m mentally I’ll not trans.I’m nothing like trans peopleI’m just mentally ill. Not dusphoric or trans or female in any way. I need to stop
>>41007018I'm sorry I can't offer any advice, but I heavily relate to this.Every time I look at a trans person, I'm reminded that I'm nothing like them, and only just a confused cis guy.It shouldn't hurt, but it does. Seeing trans people self actualize through the process of transition is very enviable, especially since I feel like self actualization is completely out of reach for me, even in my birth sex.Don't remember the last time I've felt human. With each day my grasp on reality loosens until I will be holding only onto the tatters of what once was
>>41008951im not human eitherdust
>>41009844I wish I could be dust. I want to be taken away by the wind. Have no weight, no significance, being a nobody and nothing and being completely forgotten
>>41009902I feel the sameExactly the sameim so tired
>>41010013Eternal sleep is all I ever wanted. My existence is a burden I wasn't designated for.I've grown weary of it