my only friend since high school blocked me three months ago, i haven't seen them irl in years, but i really liked them but they hated me.I don't have much money, i was almost homeless but i did 'favors' for an older man and he let me stay with him and i still do 'favors' so i can drive places so i can get my ged because i am rural. i hate the course of my life, it's painful, i ate 2 valiums, then i ingested 2600 mg of gabapentin, then injected hydromorphone yesterday and then i fell asleep for 19 hours. i'm now awake and i feel ill. i did another shot of hydromorphone into subcutaneous fat because i couldn't find a vein, then i snorted amphetamine, but i still feel sad i feel awful i just want to have friends and feel free, online friends are not real, i just want to be normal, i don't like the path life has forced me down and yet things have supposedly gotten better but all i can do is cry. my head hurts.
get a job and stop letting that old dude rape you
>>41004303stop taking drugs too
>>41004325i can't it costs me over 200 for a cab, that would cost most of my rent>>41006578it's the only thing that makes me functional, or else i just lay in bed all day
