>be me, playing lol>my nick is "wingedtranny", in portuguese>someone says something ab me being a tranny and we should be friends>i sent her a friend request and we start talking ab being trans and stuff>we both started hrt at 17>she plays with fembrained champions>since we're going to play we add on discord>she has a normal pfp(which, i presume, its her selfie) and on the description theres something about a popstar>her voice is AT LEAST 70hz higher than mine, and mine isnt even that low, mine is around 180hz>i had to do dishes and later i cried bc of my voice, so we didnt talk anymoresomething similar happened some months ago and ill repost the greentext i made ab itbut why? she seems like a regular girl, even if shes lvl 400 on league shes still a normal girl. why i am malebrained and shes fembrained? im becoming more fembrained since i started hrt, but i know ill never be fembrained enough to like pop music or become a mono lux.i know that some autistic girls find being fembrained difficult too and it makes some of them feel bad, but am i one of those who happens to be trans? im giving much less fucks about this than some months ago, but i still care ab it and i feel like im faketrans sometimes.
>>41007014You ARE fembrained. The fact that you care about this at all says everything
>be me playing lol with some friends>he befriends a girl he knew in valo and she starts playing with us>she said shes a tranny>we start talking ab our lives>she had some bfs through the last years>her face is beautiful and pretty>her waist is small and her hips are big>she says 5'3, my friend says hes 5'4 and bully her for being shorter, and she replies "haha congrats your taller than a girl". im 6'0, ive never felt so much desire to kms>she says "but tall women are hot">this isn't a thing a tranny would say, she isnt a man pretending to be a girl like i am, she's a real girl>her voice is cute af while mine is just faggy and uncanny>her family sees her as a girl while mine see me as a failed male>no one in her life knows shes a tranny besides family, she uses the same kind of clothing as me but she's seen as a girl and I'm seen as a man>she had friends, while I was in middle school i had just incel friends and in high school i just had 1 friend who used me bc of my familys money>in my country boys are obligated to enlist in the army, and she didnt need to bc she changed her legal sex and name, while i had to(idk why it makes me wanna kms so bad)>i quit and started to cry>sleep>next day I try to join playing with my friends but i couldnt bear them deadnaming and ignoring me>i cry for hours, drink a lot and accidentally break my faucet>next day i called her to say that i cried over her>she says that she was sad too and time will fix my life>she says estrogen will fix my voice(she doesnt know shit ab hrt while i had to study for years to diy and almost kms injecting im wrong)>she says that she almost killed herself>I notice that shes almost crying >ó~ò i made her cry>my mom wakes up and we go out to buy the things to fix what i broke>she never talked to me againI think about her every fucking day and I know im a freak bc of it, but i cant stop remembering that i couldve been as happy as her if i wasnt the porn addict misogynist i am
>>41007067this is the other greentext i said about, that happened in january and it fucked my mental health for almost 8 months>>41007037no imma male pretending to be a girl
>>41007082your veil of self-hatred is tissue-thin. this is textbook fembrained "no i'm dumb but i'm pretty but i'm dumb don't look at me ok look at me. make me laugh now?" attention-seeking. my diagnosis is bpd
>>41007082Men don't go out of their way to take hrt and put in the effort to be feminine
