> be me> boymoder faggot on hrt for a year> my therapist knows im trans and knows im scared of dressing fem> she brings up the women's jeans i bought two weeks ago and how i still hadn't worn them and asks why> say im just scared of how my parents would react and people in public would react if they saw me> she asks why> i dont say angthing> she says that my shoulders visibly shrunk down and my body was being more reserved> "we both know actually why"> i ask to change the subjecti wish i could just be a normal trans woman. pass, look okay, not be perpetually horrified of even looking slightly feminine in my presentation. I even malefailed directly after the appointment what the fuck. why am i not able to just be normal and not anxious.
>>41009600ygmi
>>41009600I can’t imagine admitting to a therapist I’m a boymoder. crazy stuff
>>41009600told my therapist i was a boymoder and she said it was because i got touched as a kid
>>41010795I havent. I just say i dress masculine because im in an unsupportive environment and have anxiety. Which is true.
>>41010808what..??
>>41009600im like u but scared of even starting hrt. how do i get myeslf to do it? :(
>>41012713i repped until a few suicide attempts then booked an informed consent clinic visit. i'd recommend you do the latter before getting suicidal. if you don't have one near you then try diy
>>41012773i actually tried getting diy the legal way when i was 17 because i was naive but it wasnt successful... and that left me very disappointed and made me start repping
>>41012793try to get it again then
