I'm a 20 year old boymoder, a year and a half on HRT. I'm apparently quite androgynous, as people mistake me for a girl a lot at work and I recently got asked what gender I was "because I look androgynous". Anyway, I live with my parents, who don't know I'm a tranny, and in general I don't like telling other people about it or making it known. I want to be more feminine, though. I feel like there's just a mental block that keeps me from really acting feminine with other people. I've tried before, like to change the way I speak, but I think it comes off as creepy. Apparently my mannerisms, like how I stand and walk and stuff, are very gay looking / effeminate, but I wasn't aware of that until several unrelated friends of mine told me about it. Anyway, how do I get over this mental block? I'm too worried about people thinking I'm a fag or that I'm weird or creepy. I really want to be more feminine, though. Keeping myself from being feminine honestly makes me feel really bad.
