My self hatred of being trans consumes so much of my energy to do anything. What's it like when you don't actually hate yourself? What's it like when you actually see yourself as human and are allowed to interact with other humans?
It's still hard because even when you finally sufficiently stop hating yourself to leave the house and meet people, it's still not quite enough to feel like you belong anywhere. I still try though but I think I can come across as smarmy because I'm faking relating to people. I'm hoping it'll get better after pretending for a while. One day, I will be in touch with humanity
>>41029628Are you telling me there's no hope.... ?
>>41029590Motivation isn’t something that’s given to you. You have to create it yourself.The best time to plant a tree was thirty years ago nona, the second best time is now.
>>41029590People don't give enough of a shit to hate you, or think anything about you really. Apathy is liberating.
>>41030598no i'm not. i'm doing way better than i was a year ago. there's just still challenges>>41030613listen to this anon. make yourself go outside and meet people and crucially, keep doing it even if you don't immediately fit in perfectly. getting over this much self hate takes time and effort
My self hate is justified thus I deserve it allIwabam because deep down that’s what I want and amEverything is fakeMe most of allOf it mattered to me why did I do nothing and enjoyed my miserable life for so many years? Transition liberated me from nothing. Cause there exists nothing at all.Anon. Flee. Leave and be one whole. Before it is too late.
