When i was 14 i became trans and did all the usual stuff and even tried DIY hrt, didnt work. it was mostly harmless and innocent but it rubbed my parents the wrong way so that along with my general mental issues put me in a psych ward. when i came back they expected it would “Fix” me. i went boymode, and it worked well enough to where i forgot about being trans. i fucked around for the next 4 and a half years. casual boring stuff mostly, though im comfortable. But now i am starting to have those thoughts again, the softest of dreams. and its scary. i dont wanna bother anyone, and i wanna meet expectations, and i have every since i went boymode. what now? i still have no drivers permit, job, or higher education. this would just ruin all my goodwill, with nothing to justify or rollback onto. i wonder if it will go away and come back another day, or im gonna be stuck with this looming feeling my whole life
get a driver's licence, get a job, start taking hrt, and move out when you can
boymode as in you took HRT but didn't socially transition or boymode as in you didn't transition at all?
>get a driver's licence, get a job, start taking hrt, and move out when you cani have been trying but so far i get ghosted by all job places and ive failed my permit test a total 7 times. havent given up yet>boymode as in you took HRT but didn't socially transition or boymode as in you didn't transition at all?at all
>>41033418i don't know what you're doing wrong to fail your permit test 7 times but goddamn, you need more practice before you start driving on the roads and potentially injure others or yourself.in response to >>41033080 no it always linger until you start with HRT; i thought i could escape it but here i am 10 years later.
>>41033418lol 7 times? Get your shit together.Anyways yeah this basically happened to me too except I never did anything to transition the first time around. Seems to me like our situation is pretty common, I have my permit but I need money and to turn it into a license.
>>41033080option 1: get on DIY as soon as possible; you've already lost a lot of time you can't get back and the late you transition the harder it becomes. get license, job, move out, etc as other anons said. you may lose a lot of people from your life, including your parents, but that is sometimes the price you have to pay to be your authentic self.option 2: push it all down, whenever it comes up, for the rest of your life. be a good son, a good man, everything the people around you want you to be, but possibly at the cost of your own happiness.you're the only one who can decide which of those options is more bearable. i wish you the best, and hope you figure out what is best for you. good luck.
>>41036299as far as I can tell, trooning out should probably cost around 300 dollars plus additional to keep up HRT after that if you go the legal route, about the same if you DIY (unless you go blind without blood testing). I don't plan on moving out since my parents wouldn't try to stop me and I need to take classes, idk what your situation is.
>>41033080You have made this post so many times.. bohoo, we all suffer
>>41036315I don't recommend delaying but if your already past puberty the clock isn't really as crazy as it was, testosterone already did much of the work.There's also informed consent
>get on DIY as soon as possible; you've already lost a lot of time you can't get back and the late you transition the harder it becomes.im half native american so im really short and dont have much hairs, so im sure maybe that could help me whenever i get to it>push it all down, whenever it comes up, for the rest of your life. be a good son, a good man, everything the people around you want you to be, but possibly at the cost of your own happiness.inherantly, i want to please people. but ive noticed it will never be enough, people will always want more. so when i decide to transition, it will be my life and my decision for myself>you're the only one who can decide which of those options is more bearable. i wish you the best, and hope you figure out what is best for you. good luckthank you anon, thank you
