>khhv until 20 >spend a year dating a trans guy >break up >no sex for 2 years after >bad sex with trans girl >a year has passed since then >the thought of sex now makes me sick to my stomach, convinced all potential partners are unfaithful or that they'd find me disgusting, worst mental health in years >now in intensive therapy I can't see a world where I find someone who would want me
>>41034280Possibly. though it does sound more like you're dealing with trauma in an unhealthy way.
>>41034902how do I make it better. I think you're right
>>41034904I found Ai therapists to be really good at helping to process trauma. They're not everything, but they are that.
>>41035258Holy shit, did you just suggest AI therapy? Unironically consider throwing your PC out of the window and then spending the rest of your life in solitude thinking about that. Fucking retard.
>>41034280Was sex with the trans girl traumatic? Was breakup with trans guy traumatic?
>>41035307took the words out of my mouth>>41035672hesitant to call things that but I have a tendency to hide my own suffering. I think both could be considered traumatic but I guess I've always thought I should just be able to get over that stuff
>>41034280probably not, you're just having sex with the wrong people.most sex is with the wrong people.and its very difficult to find the right person.look at most the people here, they dont know what they want in someone.i want to find a dominant girl or trans person.and that's insanely difficult.to find one that isnt batshit crazy.i can find them.. but they flip on a dime all the time and its like love/hate relationship and i cant stand that shit.i dont need bitches fucking with my head or heart.
some guys in the right environment and can treat me good are nice too. i just cant get romantically involved or they cant. and thats bothers me also.cause theres a guy i like, but he only wants me for sex. and if it was more, i'd definitely just live with him. but most guys just want us for sex.and idk. its hard to find people for good relationships honestly.its easy to get laid. its just hard to find the right person outside of that.every night girls and guys are talking with me or want me to go with them.but its always cheap thrills, and never anything lasting. its hard to find real relationships in this world these days.everyones fast and short term.and the people that do string along, there's plenty but they all have their own shit going on or alterior motive and theyre just long gaming.so its kind of tough.. i've found real love, twice. in people.and the rest is just.. idk. fun for a short time period.its kind of nice cause i dont get my heart broken by anyone.but i do miss having a person where we know eachother 100% and compliment eachother almost perfectly like soulmate. its rare. i might be able to find 1 more in my life. maybe.
