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live and let live

>>41054055
qott: nah i've heard that's bad for your neck

>>41054055
Can we just not do this question please

>>41054068
>live
not possible for me

im cursing all passers btw

>>41054055
what an odd question can we get another

>>41054055
qott: i really hope not
i suppose there are unspoken, unconscious biases to be aware of with these things but i try to be aware of them when i can
realistically that's probably more because of the fucking moral scrupulosity bullshit that i ended up stuck with

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>>41054099
>>41054200
Yeah it's shitty. I propose a new thread activity.
Post what you want to look like/dress like. Be as AGP as you want, I don't care. Just be honest.

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>>41054453
i literally just wish i was a normal woman

>>41054055
I used to be as a cope but I realized that wanting other people to suffer because I'm envious of them is gay

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>>41054453
im mega agp sorry

>>41054453
playing ttrpgs seems so fun
I wish I was a woman so that I could do that

>>41054453
Argh this is so annoying because I saw a youtube short a couple of months ago that made me dysphoric as fuck and I can't find it anymore. I can hear the background tune in my head too but i cant find the song. She wore baggy blue pants, a blue crop top, had wavy light hair and was just dancing down the street

>>41054453
Aoi Yuki. I've always despised being big and tall, so I want to be the exact opposite: tiny.

:^)

>>41054068
Difficult concept to some

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Thoughts on this movie?

>>41055141
Hey quit banging those drums !

>>41052338
do people not usually live for themselves, their partner, their children, their family, their friends, etc?

>>41055797
yes and what happens when they lose those things? they become totally destroyed, like ok, enjoy having those things if you are lucky enough to have them, but dont become neurotic over it. you're going to lose it all anyway.

I cured my dysphoria tn ama

if i had sex my dysphoria would be cured, thats probably why i hate myself

>>41056171
i wish it could be as simple as that

>>41056171
doesn't work

>>41056171
I also thought that when I was 20

>>41054520
those are not normal women but i get what you mean

The 'epper that broke through the matrix
https://youtu.be/KK9j0k77O2w

i wanna die

i wanna live (as a woman)

I'm most frequently dysphoric about my voice and what hurts is that I know I can have an agreeable one with training but you can't do that as a man

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how does this make you feel?

>>41058963
suicidal but im mef agp so its ok

>>41057193
literally repper fuel
i will never be as feminine and visceral as her
I will never be so connected
i will never exist
im old and rotting

>>41054453
cringe grungy punk fashion tbhon though obviously not now that I'm old

I hate ejaculating sperm so much, I might go on hrt again just to avoid it

>>41058963
They're beautiful and I wish I could be them, my life is a cruel joke lmao

>>41054453
Simply just a midriff exposing tank top, or a nice dress. Rather than wearing my standard man uniform of t shirt and jeans

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is there many women that would be happy to be with a guy who likes to crossdress?

>>41059510
cis? no
trans? probably

https://voca.ro/1hoWeve2Jk4v

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I can't be a woman, so I'll erase the concept of duality and annihilate my idea of a "self" instead.

:p

>>41054055
im just a boy that likes to be treated as a girl

>>41054453
>what you want to dress like
i would unironically switch between modern gender neutral garb like jeans and tees and dressing like a historical reenactor
victorian maid uniforms with their floor length skirts appeal to me, not in a sexual way though, i just feel like they would be extremely comfortable to wear around the house

annoying that it's called /regen/ this time and not /repgen/

>>41060845
nobody knows how to make threads since i made the last 5

>>41054055
tek ur HRT, reetards

>Think I'll gaym for half an hour after a long day of work before going to bed
>Spend that half hour playing dress up with my 3 characters (asian goth slut, blond white gal with runny makeup wearing a wedding dress, and a 2 metres tall dyke) instead of playing the game itself
Fuck

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>>41059938
Update: My idea of being a singular entity has been erased, and I have accepted my true nature as part of Brahman/God. My body is an animal in which my true nature resides, and my mind is the filtering of Brahman via the lens of time and singular existence, but neither are "me".
But now the problem is that I can't find a reason to not "ride the wave". Shouldn't I just enjoy the human experience without being attached to the emotions (shouldn't I troon out, knowing it is a desire as natural as breathing to me)? Is that not my nature as Brahman? I was expecting to have all the answers, but guess not...
wat do, oh wise reppers?

>>41061489
what are you playing and why do i know it's final fantasy xiv

>>41061559
>it's final fantasy xiv
WRONG
>what are you playing
The game is called "The Finals". It's an fps shooter with destructible environment. I really like the way everything on the maps can be absolutely destroyed and that casual matches take less than 15 mins before they are over. I just like being able to log in, play a match, then log out 15 mins later. If I had more free time I'd probably pay some singleplayer game rn, but if I can't spend at least 2 hours without having to pay attention to anything else, I rather not play those.

valerate vial or a 3-lp box set, questions, questions

>>41061624
>WRONG
it was worth a shot

>fps shooter
wish i could play those, honestly. every time i try i get incredibly stressed with the game in 10 minutes and ragequit lol

>>41061694
>every time i try i get incredibly stressed with the game in 10 minutes and ragequit lol
While I don't feel that way, yeah I can totally understand that.
I checked out how ffxiv characters look like and ngl, I see how reppers can spend hours playing dressup with their characters.

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>>41059938
>>41061521
shaktism is the most correct approach, we are one entity, future is past and past is future. you are me and me is you. you were me and will be again. ultimate bliss does necesarilly involve being a woman. mad goddess dreaming dreams. mkch love for all

fascists should be put down

:p

>>41062007
they should be shot (with estrogen)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SY1Js1KFt5w

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>>41054055
repping is so fucking evil the way I have to cope with every last change I notice in my body with
>oh well, at least you didn't do the thing that would 100% bring you closer to a semblance of happiness. imagine how THAT would have turned out
and it gets even worse when I see a troon irl and they pass somewhat well, only to find out they somehow had a worse starting point than I did.
so now I play a game of sunk cost fallacy where I juggle continuing as the productive, loving son, brother, and coworker with john 50ing (no chance) or straight up suicide (basically guaranteed)
I'm not even AGP I just want to pass and fucking live a normal life vghhh
I have a vial of E in my room and every day I spend at least 30 minutes contemplating taking a dose.
I'm such a fucking loser holy shit.

>>41062140
If you have access to hrt right now and aren't taking it you kinda deserve to be miserable.
Just take it, can always rope later if it doesn't work out

>>41054068
extremely difficult concept here

very annoying how alcohol makes my insides feel like shit the next day

Regen

>are you a nazi
asking real questions

:^)

>>41058963
I feel like I'm a prisoner who's been living in a shitty isolation ward for 20 years, and there are significant portions of my brain dedicated to counting the scratches on the wall, and someone just told me that iPhones were invented. I don't know what an iPhone is. I tell myself such a thing isn't a luxury, but a normality, but I can't stop myself from feeling a little bit of indignation, but I burry it with numbness and force my gaze back onto the scratches on the wall. Feeling emotions will do little for me, I can't forget the time I got so upset I banged my head on the door and gave myself brain damage.

>>41062140
I'm so sorry, I know exactly what you mean. Feels similar anyway. Just stuck with some sunken cost fallacy where it's simultaneously too late to do anything (I feel way too old and male now) on top of all my other hurdles that make it seem impossible, combined with the knowledge that I'll see myself become more disgustingly male as time goes on as it has for some time now as I've fallen deeper into denial / repping.
It's hard, don't beat yourself up, we're all doing the best we can with what we've been given. Maybe just try therapy? You can always stop HRT if you want in the future? Anyway you're not alone, and I hope you find some measure of peace with whatever you choose <3

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>slop

:p

my roommate said it's creepy I watch a girl's show (Wednesday s2)
it's so over

>>41063715
kill them
hide the body
cut the carpet
sink it all deep

and thank me later :D

>>41063715
and watching some super violent power fantasy action slop would not be creepy? jfc

>>41063715
Normalfags have brain rot.

I don't wanna take hrt is there a third option besides killing myself or transitioning

>look at legs
>hairy and ugly
>shave legs, nice for a day
>wake up with intense razor burns that will last for 3 days
>try again some time later
>exfoliate and moisturize, do everything perfectly
>still get horrible razor burns
it's not fair. i swear i can shave my face with a razor from 100 years ago that was buried near a swamp and i wouldn't get razor burns, but my legs? a sneeze turns them into strawberries.
i use a hair trimmer now, and it does it's job very well, but it's just not the same. i guess it's better to have the body hair equivalent of a 3 day stubble over the beard of a wizard, but still...

>>41064227
use shaver. its best

it's so sad and lonely being a submissive male repper. i wish i was a happy submissive female wife

Why do I voluntary rep and make myself suffer
why can't I just accept myself :(

>>41064114
Ive been trying to figure that out for the last 6 years ill let you know

any repper wanna shove their hairy arms up the agenda of another repper on hrt?
for a limited time only there will be special effects and stuff, maybe even cake

>>41058963
stop being mean to me

i'm a fake repper because i don't shave every day

>>41061369
Lol

>>41064390
yea

the op misspelling /repgen/ too, worst thread
>>41064227
i just use nair on my legs. saw someone post about an epilator in the last thread which i might grab
>>41064390
only if there's cake

>>41058963
Intense jelly

it hurts

>>41064491
i sometimes go 2-3 days without shaving

it's basically sh because during that time i'm constantly aware of the fact that there's hair on my face. i idly rub my hand over it, not in contemplation, but as a sort of disgusted self-awareness

i'm a man

i went through male puberty

for long stretches of time, i had opportunities to both be a productive member of society and start hrt, all behind my parents' backs and on their dime

but i buried my head in the sand. i let the retarded, selfish, internalized transphobic, and lazy thoughts win. i'm 22 now. there's no hope left. i've heard stories of people running away from home when they were in their teens when rejected by their parents because of being trans, and every time i hear about it i get jealous. why didn't i come out to my parents at 16? why didn't i start hrt at 18? what the fuck happened in the last 4 years?

it doesn't really matter. i just have to die.

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>>41054453

>>41062140
Basically in the same boat as you, except I have a devoted and loving gf who has in no uncertain terms told me that she can't accept me transitioning and that we'd have to break up if I did. So I keep the vial hidden away and torture myself for hours every day endlessly debating the pros and cons, the likeliness that I'll be a passoid or a turbohon, the merits of meditating the issue away or maybe going to a men's outdoor retreat to try to realign with the sacred masculine, the best ways to effectuate a swift and painless suicide, and what I'm going to name my future kids with said gf. And then vascillating back to self hatred and a resolve to never have kids.

It's all incredibly traumatic and it's a hell I've somehow built for myself. Anyone who's been repressing well into their senior years, I desperately need some kind of help.

>>41064468
I'm sorry. ily anon

>>41064491
it doesn't affect me because I dissociate from my body most days

>>41064739
>22
Come on man.

>>41064739
>i'm 22 now
transition you stupid fucking infant retard

I'm sick on top of being dysphoric asf
help me

I've never been more ashamed than admitting to med/psych professionals that I'm trans
I dropped out of the whole gd diagnosis over that

>>41064571
>>41064575
cake is guaranteed

i started at 22 and it was too late

>>41064945
shame is a weakness!
men aren't weak, admit to your weakness now!

>>41064963
i started at 40+ and same

>>41064968
I'm a dumb tranny puppy that's too dumb to figure out how crypto works

>>41064990
same, i'm a stupid boomer just using normie kracken app for my cryptonian actions
fwiw it works

>>41064945
thats why i didnt transition at 15 like i wanted to
everyone around me wanted me to know how disgusting i was and i already hated myself
i still do

kill myself