why do so many of you have like schizophrenia and psychosis and shit wtfi thought i had it bad with both parents not loving me but jesus christ i hear stories of girls in abusive relationships and having schizoaffectipolar conditions and being destitute just..... how come so many ppl here fell into such absolutely abysmal life conditions??....are you okay?
>>41095919>....are you okay?what do you fucking think? look around, dipshit
>>41095932WHY ARE THEY NOT OKAYDID THAT MANY TGIRLS REALLY HAVE HORRIFYING TRAUMA??
someone tell me pls i really need to know why this is
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>>41096067we lovin everyone up this joint
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>>41096091nononono keyword of my question is why WHY did so many trans girls experience trauma like i want the answer to be tied back to the transgender aspect
>>41095944Yeah kinda
>>41096159ok from what extent like 1- poverty and food insecurity to 10- horrible fucking rape and torture
I used to feel awful, I reached a point where existing was painful, I was full of fear and pain, lost everything and everyone, it seemed that there was no end to it then I collapsed, lost my grasp of reality but it all continued, nothing stopped for me.I had no choice but to face life and kept going, slowly I started regaining control of my mind and I realized everything had a reason even myself, I found my purpose and although I'm surrounded by terrible people my mind became solid, a diamond, I can feel happiness regardless of the actions of others, life is so beautiful and it's worth living.
>>41096209honey i'm so sorry ur with those pieces of shit. i'm so sorry i want to give you a hug so much..... no one should have to go through that especially not someone vulnerable like yourself. gosh i'm so sorry i'm so fucking sorry......... stay gold <33333
>>41096148yeyeyeyeye but and i keep saying to youlove everyone!
>>41096067because everyone abandons us so we fall in with abusers fuck you
>>41096227THEY DID THE SAME TO ME BUT I GOT OUT OF IT IT WAS LIKE THEY WERE TREATING ME LIKE A CHILD ALL THE FUCKING TIME IT WAS BADI SANK UNTIL I LEARNED HOW TO SWIM
>>41096188>"like 1- poverty and food insecurity"Thats more of a material kondition thing than a relationship thing ,but ya Iv also suffered a lot at the hands of kinda everyone around me when I was a kidAbusive parents ,abusive skool ,bullying ,the whole deal>>41096227>"because everyone abandons us"Ya :(
>>41096301i wasnt talking about relationships i was saying in the context of traumaso sorry about ur goddamn shithead parents i wish i could beat them up for u
>>41096148because we are often soft and nurturing from youth and invites ppl to abuse us >>41096259you mean you got lucky not learned to swim
>>41096386how do mean i got lucky, i would say i had it pretty shit too. i was just lucky enough to have friends/acquaintances who helped me get an emergecny place when my parents kicked me out im still kinda destitute day to day and afford the bare minimum of stuff from benefits and feet picswould also say i have that nurturing aspect but its hidden behind a tough outer shell so nasty fuckers dont take advantage. they have many times and i don't fuck with that anymore so they can go fuck off
>>41095919>why do so many of you have like schizophreniaidk i just came this way!! help!! help!!>are you okay?no :3
>>41095919I don't know, I had a pretty stable life, unlike you my parents loved me, but then bipolar just activated at age 21 and I had a couple terrible manic episodes complete with psychosis, I'm medicated now but man having those experiences really shaped me. Seeing the ways people treat a crazy person when you are that crazy person is really something. As much as my dad "loves" me he didn't treat me well during my episodes at all, I think he just saw me as not myself and a problem (which he did a terrible job at taking any responsibility or care of) and had very little empathy. Most of my friends on the other hand were just extremely concerned upon seeing me spout nonsense and a couple really close friends gave me their phone numbers for when I was in the ward which I really treasured (I also can't own a gun now, since I've been to the ward twice within the span of a year, sucks)as for why? idk comorbidities or something, maybe us trannies really are all mentally ill (this is a joke). Maybe having different or "wrong" things with your brain makes you more likely to question societal gender roles, being not normal in one way makes it more likely to not be normal in other ways I think
>>41096323Ya :(Akkording to your skale Im definitely above a 1 (parents beating you and skreaming at you to kill yourself) but I feel unkomfortable seeing myself as having worse trauma than someone who was poor bekause my family had money and I rarely had issues with food
>>41096420no according to my scale that would be pretty fucking bad. fucking pieces of shit assholes motherfuckers I HATE WHENF UCKING PARENTS SEE THEIR KIDS AS SOME KIND POF PIECE OF PROPERTY TO GAIN ACHIEVEMENTS AND HAVE NO LOVE AT ALL AND IF U GET NONE OF THAT THEY TREAT U EVEN FUCKING WORSE AND MAKE U FEEL GUILTY and i was saying poverty with the assumptiuon that otherwise u had decent emotional support from parents. love is all u need really fuck food ik theres people who were food insecure and they still appreciate their loved ones.....>>41096413girlie im sorry do you think your father might have had a hand contributing to ur trauma?? if he treated u like that it seems he might not have been nice to u at all.... maybe gave u food and stuff and wanted u to do well of course but jesus christ this sounds familiar. im so sorry honey jesus fucking christ
i spent a lot of my youth doing drugs to distract myself from tranny thoughts, then at 20 bipolar in full swing. i’m not even sure how many of my poor decisions in the past year or so were due to mania (i’ve had at least 2 manic episodes since 2024) i’ve lived 10 lifetimes and set myself back by a loooooooooot. >....are you okay?i’m okay, some days can be really hard. but each day is an opportunity to start new :D
>>41096473>"I HATE WHENF UCKING PARENTS SEE THEIR KIDS AS SOME KIND POF PIECE OF PROPERTY"I do too ,but unfortunately thats also how the law sees kidsThe kurrent system of cild law is a largely unreformed holdover of the system of cild ownership and labor from feudalizm and the Industrial Revolution ,and the large blok of abusive parents who kan vote ,mixed with the fakt that kids kant ,and would have a hard time wielding it even if they kould ,means its hard to fix
>>41096550smash everything fucjing smash it this system ENABLES kids being abused. the fact if in the case of a kid realising whats up and calling the cops on their parents, the cop is likely to be such a pos to his kids to himself lliterally enables this cycle of trauma to run naturally. THERE IS NOTHINGGGGGGGGGGGGBUT IF WE LOVEWE CAN BE FUCKING :3
>>41096473um, maybe? I seemed to have had a lot of unresolved anger directed towards him that manifested during my episodes which definitely scared him, he even called the police on me one time. Definitely "the only emotion a man can show is anger" kinda guy. I don't really remember how often he would yell growing up but he did yell. I've been coming to terms lately with him being kind of shitty, idk if I'd say I was traumatized though, I don't think from childhood stuff at least, maybe from my manic experiences, though I'd say my manic episodes were overall traumatizing though at the same time that feels weird to say cause most of that was shit that I did so it feels like my faultif you want to dislike him more I'll tell this story: I decided to come out as trans (ftm) during my first manic episode because you get all these grand ideas when you're manic and you're not thinking straight, a day or two later my dad ends up taking me to the hospital and I'm freaked out at being in the hospital setting so I start spouting out and even yelling things that I want and will, including wanting a hysterectomy, my dad doesn't seem to like this, I mean probably part of this is that I am literally insane at the moment, but it is also actually a thing that I legitimately want even when sane but I guess he doesn't know this, anyways he seemed appalled and made some comment on that being "mutilation" (and here I am thinking he has improved on his transphobia over the years)
>>41096779shit first off i'm sorry i assumed u were a girl it's just i mostly talk to tgirls on here so i forget there's trans men tooughhhhhhh yeah i don't blame you, if your first instinct during a manic episode was to go for him then that's deffo a sign he was the main culprit in not giving u a great upbringing. also what the fuck with that hysterectomy thing. but the important thing is IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT.your chose to bring you into this world and it was their duty to give you the best upbringing they possibly could. if you ended up having manic episodes it doesn't sound like they did a great job with that. i get it he was raised in a different time and environment and all but that's a separate issue entirely. the thing with parents like this is, they never change. never. you can try showing them how much you love them (which is what we're hard wired to do as humans) but at his age? unlikely he'll ever change beyond saying he's sorry when you've left him only to switch up his behaviour when he's got you again. the best thing for you to do in an environment like this is to stay away from them, because they will only bring you stress.to reiterate, it's not your fault, dude <3
>>41096588CPS does not give a shitThe people responsible for getting the kids out of abusive households would rather not go through the effort of aktually doing their job ,and would rather take the muc easier route of just saying "Don't be a dick" to the parents and then leaving the kid to get abusedThe state would rather have kids stukk with their abusive parents then have to pay to deal with them
All these "why are so many trannies x" (when x = schizo, violent, suicidal, mentally unhealthy) latley seems like someone trying to scrape together damning evidence for some sort of damning report. If u gotta ask u aint meant to know
>>41097109im doing it for my mental database.
>>41095919bad brains and bad experiences
>>41095919I am a diagnosed autist but this year I started believing I might have another mental illness too, not sure which one though. I can't afford a psychiatrist and I'd never go talk to a therapist.My quality of life is not bad besides a few minor health issues which will only be a problem once I start getting old.My mental delusions can be resumed in 2 or maybe 3 premises:>Nothing I ever do is better than being dead. Nothing I achieve means something because I am supposed to be dead, not here. >I want to be left alone, I want to be in complete solitude but at the same time I like people. When I spend more than a day being lonely (like rn) I get really unstable and start having delusions about killing myself or others. When I am with people I can be normal.My other mental issue is that I moved cities last year and I am a stealthoid here. Problem is, maintaining stealthoid status is hard and it's taking a mental toll on me. I quickly switch between being 100% sure I will never ever tell anyone else I am a tranny and then wanting to just tell everybody and have a breakdown and hopefully they'll be grossed enough to leave me alone. I get really paranoid about this topic and I speculate a lot. Ok the other problem with my gender identity is that when I read yaoi I get angry that I am not a boy, that I missed out on gay romance and it makes me really sad that I cannot be a boy. Then I stop reading yaoi and I no longer feel that way but I read yaoi too frequently. Besides the gay romance aspect I am generally really scared of the idea of maleness so I'd never try detransing.
>>41095944Wow! Who would've thought that the minority with the debilitating medical condition doesn't live happily? Shocker!
>>41097200but i want to know WHY! the exact why! i want a neatly packaged answer saying exactly why! even, it ties into this site having a lot of neurodivergent people around, and we are more likely to be abused because we do not fit into this world's version of normal! that's what it is!
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>>41096947thank you, nona. I mean you don't know me so I don't know if you can really say it's not my fault but whatever I still appreciate it. I don't interact with my dad much anymore since he divorced my mom a couple years ago but I still rely on him for some things, would love to become completely financially independent but of course that's gonna take a while, and even then I doubt I'm ever gonna completely cut him out of my life for a few reasonsthanks for listening to me, have this art I drew in jspaint with a wii remote
Anyone else see lights that aren't there?
>>41095919no. i stopped going outside years upon years ago. i take my hormones & get high, these are the only two things that matter anymore. i have no friends, little family, no job or prospects, burnt through my savings smoking (dabbing more specifically) quarter to a half gram of semi synthetic thc analogs every day. i have given up any hope of ever having a real life a while ago. just gonna do drugs until I get sick & die (they messed my liver up once, I stopped for a little but restarted) or until i kms. at least i have my stuffie, jelly bean, a big 5ft pink unicorn. she is my only friend and the kids thought of leaving her behind is the biggest thing keeping me alive rn, it breaks my fucking heart like nothing else to think of her all alone, forgotten, uncared for and unloved. It is a fate worse than death
>>41095944Le quirk chungus
teenage drug abuse
>>41103697fuck off, I never touched any drugs except for weed and I didn't even do that until I was 20
>>41097246this PLUS it's often genetic, and you can have fucked up repper parents
>>41096148Dysphoria is basically losing your entire body and identity as a human and never getting it back no matter how much you try. Even when you do claw back a few percent of what should feel like your biological home, the world will fight you at every step of it and dehumanize you for trying to at all. Imagine being physically paralyzed and numb from puberty onwards as your body morphs into an unrecognizable beast and what that lack of agency as you're ceaselessly tortured for potentially decades does to a human mind, and what the lack of any kind of sympathy or understanding for what you've been through does to their human identity. We are human because of our human bodies, and feel human because of our human connections, and trans people are robbed of both and spat on for it.
>>41103744 (Dubs)well i did and it amplified my sensitivity to having psychosis episodes and made my irritability towards pretty much everything so thin i get cray cray at just about everything
im not a troon but sometimes you got to just push it to 11 imagine living one single life and not having an acute psychotic episode very sad
>>41104403ah, I thought you were just a troll blaming us for shit, not an actual person talking about your experiences, sorry
>>41103744>>41103697it did make my brain a bit more schizo ngl, especially when I'd use it often enough. glad I haven't used in a while but I can feel the siren call of butt stuff on weed
