My body is so irreparably fucked. My bones are forever male, my fat never distributed to the breasts or hips well. I am so masculine and will never be able to comfortably see myself in the mirror naked. When do I pull the ripcord and just kill myself? I feel bad for my boyfriend
>>41153371You have boyfriend and a good body something half this board would kill for but instead of enjoying the life you have you keep obsessing over yourself in a fairly self destructive manner which is honestly pretty fembrained
>>41153417But I don‘t have a good body. My body is terrible. My bones are so male, my upper body is so muscular and masculine and my lower body doesn't pass because of my shitty male hips. What is supposed to be good about that?
>>41153371> feminine body with cute outfit and talks ab boyfriend> guys i wanna kmsboring get new material "bdd"passoid larpers don't even try these days lol. at least soph has funny picrel
>>41153371You have a very nice room. I think you did a really good job decorating it. Everything is pretty and clean while looking comfortably lived in. I can never manage to have a room like that! Everything always gets constantly rearranged, broken or misplaced. It's an embarassment to me because I feel like even if I look nice outside, I always go back home to a rat's nest. So for me looking at your room, I feel like you have a nice energy and you brought it into your living space. There's plenty of women you share your general body type. And there's more to every woman than our bodies. I know that saying this isn't the same as make any hurt go away and that's alright, we're all wounded here. But I don't see anyone I'd hate in your mirror.
>>41153446What do you mean feminine body?!??? My shoulders are my widest point, there is not a curve in sight and my arms are so masculine.Oh right, am I being baited with hugboxxing? My head hurts enough already
>>41153445>My bones are so maleSo? You could have been a gigarapehon. Now put some socks on your feet are gross.
>>41153456I absolutely hate what I see in the mirror and a woman with my body type.. that's just a woman with a man's body?
>>41153371get older, everything feels really intense when you're young and it gets better
>>41153371warum heute so viele deutsche transen
>>41153485I am not sure I am gonna make it there. I really want to end it soon rnWhat's the point? Nothing ever changed anything. HRT did fuckall. Exercise won't fix everything
>>41153371you have a boyfriend who loves you, you can't be that bad
>>41153493Massenpsychose
shiet nigga u dont look so good
>>41153513just look at the image
>>41153445I think you need to learn to be thankful for what you have instead of nitpicking everything constantly maybe spend your time in a productive way instead of spamming this board and r9k and god knows what other boards you post on multiple times a day, but then again you probably just want attention cause your boyfriend isnt giving you enough and dont give a fuck
Julie can we be t4t? I can be your cute brown gf and we can take pictures of our body and post together on 4chan for attention
>>41153483Couldn't be, women have that body so it's a woman's body. People are people. We're made out of meat and come out of other people, we aren't mass produced in mechanized factories. Everybodys on a spectrum of traits that we all share.
>>41153371male knees :(
>>41153552or maybe just maybe I am genuinely terrible and feeling immense pain and going through suicidal ideation currently>>41153557yeah and on that spectrum I am pretty decently on the male side and far from where I wish I were on the feminine side. It hurts so much, I just want to be a normal woman but have to live with an absolutely cursed body
>>41153371Should've taken hrt when you were 5 which I'm going to assume you had the total capacity to do. Now you're an enormous giga rape monster bone gorilla who makes children cry and you're going to have to live under a bridge forever. No refunds freakazoid.
>>41153371how did you manage to leave this space for months but still come back
>>41153589Extreme mental anguish and body image issues / dysphoria
>>41153505ya so being younger its rlly hard to even imagine a way out. A lot of times you just have to make it through any means possible to get to the next moment. You just don't have the tools right now to cope/deal with it, but you will. Just get there.
>>41153584All women have cursed bodies, it's called being a woman. Society is very patriarchal even as we move away from patriarchy those influences go deep. Being a woman always has some pain. Why add to your own? Again, you have a lovely room. Don't be so hard on yourself.
>>41153584>or maybe just maybe I am genuinely terrible and feeling immense pain and going through suicidal ideation currentlyI mean you've been doing this for so fucking long who knows. Learn how to be thankful for what you have that is all.
>>41153604I can cope for some time, my bf does everything he can to help me but I don‘t see a brighter future at all. Nothing ever changes
>>41153371julie you need to see a therapist or something this isn't healthy
Stop complaining you could always look worse. I could never go to the beach with how im built
>>41153371Your transition has come such a long way, don't-give-up!
>>41153635This nigga still balding lol
>>41153623looks like a normal black woman?
>>41153707>looks like a normal black woman Me when I lie
>>41153371just get surg if ur that upset. how many yrs on mones? u look feminine already but i see what you’re complaining about ok its not horrible at all. u look tense and stressed you should stretch ur body and relax bcs worrying will only make it worse. u have very good potential if you self destruct you’ll waste it.if you care that much.just get ribxcar and fat transfer. do hip abductions and loose a bit of arm muscle and stretch more for now to cope. also ur shoulders aren’t bad they look dainty alone and are proportionate.u need to take it easy so that u can continue towards happiness and peace. i have the same bdd dysphoria overlap thing going on with me and the only thing ive found that works is that: you can accept that there are things that u don’t like or want to change. not nessecarily “just accept urself theway u are”. (if u can then that’s great but trannies r often too insane for that) but accept what you feel and what you want. and keep yourself sane and healthy and at least somewhat happy so that you’re able to work towards your goals. and at least try to appreciate what you have now. it’s okay if u can’t tho but u should try to find some hope in it because there really is and it’s not anywhere as bad as u think. also u need to maintain a realistic framework and mindset tho and not crash out. anything you do should come from a place of love and self understanding and acceptance. don’t listen to me too much tho i’m too mentally ill for advice and also extremely bdd and idw accidentally push u into having more bdd and accidentally ruin ur life lmfao >>41153456true i get jealous every time i see her room it’s cute
>>41153445>"My bones are so male, my upper body is so muscular and masculine and my lower body doesn't pass because of my shitty male hips"I swear I said almost that exakt thing yesterday
>>41153456>>41153852that room would be cute if there wasn't a bald man standing in the middle of it
>>41153371Arch your back and stick that ass out for daddy
>>41153921that's the thing tho like before 25 your hips will widen i've seen tranners 28 who got wide hips it just takes time
>>41153371ur body is fine the problem is your face skull and hairline
we do not have much control of our feelings or thoughts but we do have control of how we act and behave. girl why are you using that control to do this to yourself? seriously just ask yourself why you are doing this. its like voting to continue feeling miserable. every time you make a thread like this you are voting with your actions to continue this spiraling. if you want to feel happier with yourself, cast your vote differently. the stuff we give our attention to feels the biggest, and you give all your attention always to hating yourself and letting everyone know it
>>41153966bones don’t change past teen years whenever trannies talk about hips widening 99% of the time it’s just pelvic tilt
>>41153371hii joulie, deine haare haben sich crazy improved...außerdem guck mal, ich hab auch grad ein thread mit meinem bild drin der online ist °~°t.ux
>>41153635BILBO BAGGINS
>>41153613Because my body torments me>>41153614what do I have? Everyzhing about my body is terrible>>41153622I know
>>41153371nobody cares, jules
>>411538523 years and idk what I am supposed to appreciate about my body, everything is terrible in some way>>41153984Because my body triggers it. I hate my body so much and it frustrates me to no end and kills me inside and I refuse to just ignore it and cope
how about you kill yourself, that would stop the feelings, and also the posts you keep shitting the board up with
Still don't have enough attention from your /soc/ and /r9k/ threads? I don't want to see your ugly body, create a trip so I can filter your ugly ass or just fuck off
>>41153371I'd want to die if I looked like that too
>>41153566fully disagree, after consulting google images, these are definitely more female looking knees than male knees. But desu both look very very similar imo
>>41154938see :)
>>41153371its weird in one of the other threads i saw your pic and thought you looked like venus and you actually have the painting that came to mind visible in the background, what the fuck? was it visible back then and thats why i thought that? what the hell
>>41153635looks like my uncle after a few pints on the left
>>41158941yes that one, thats fucking crazy. i didnt post it but you were complaining about your body and i thought you looked like venus in that painting. somehow my mind must have unconciously picked it up. wild.
>>41159034or maybe the vines idk. I don't think I compare to her
>>41158941I think you should listen to the person telling you to create a trip so we can filter you
>>41159500I think that is you talking to yourself
>>41153445Lots of cis women are ugly too
>>41159806It wasn't me who posted this >>41154675 I haven't been on soc for years but seeing this ugly faggot posting himself constantly on 2 boards I frequent is getting old
>>41153623because of black people having higher muscle retention (including the women) did you know their BMI healthy range is different to white people, actually most races it's not 18.5-25 other than white people. IIRC the studies show black BMI scale is 21.5-28. maybe get some fat on you
>>41159984I feel the same but I am white
>>41158941spread ur ass little bit for judge u ok
>>41153445us trannyfuckers need a nice lil brick like you
>>41153371The issue is that you are balding
>>41153371>Babe are you ready for your daily 5 PM Julie posts about her dysphoria over her mid body & how she wants to rope?See you tomorrow
>>41160085what an odd thing to say>>41160131I am not. It is previous hairloss from which I still haven't fully recovered. I am not balding as in still losing hair
>>41160208I know I am annoying and horrible but don't you feel the least bit of empathy or relate? I'm hurting and so lost
>>41160231Where’s it set in for you that maybe you’re just being a baby who also gets off on being self deprecating? You’ve had thread after thread of anons talking to you, kissing your ass & reassuring you’re not some alien creature freak? Just a freak that perpetually sob posts about herself. Would that not annoy you if it was anyone other than you doing it?
>>41160231You are just seeking verification of your negative self-views. Admit it to yourself, no matter how much people prostrate themselves and genuinely give you whatever compliment you'd want to hear you focus on the few negative comments by people who just want you gone already. Then as if it's what you wanted you call yourself "annoying and horrible" looking for some more pity. Just get over yourself already and get therapy why does this have to be everyone elses problem
>>41153371you're beautiful. i think you are just overthinking about your body
>>41160260Of course it would. That's why I said I know I am annoying. But what would annoy me about it is them not getting better, so I would try to help them, up to a certain point. I'm just so so frustrated and lost and sad, I am sorry>>41160300I should maybe get therapy, but I imagine they would only make me accept my body as is and give me tools to stop negative spirals early. I don't want to just give up and accept my body that I hate. >>41160322but why? Am I not masculine and a brick?
>>41153371gross
>>41160343>I’m just so frustrated & lostWell get a map then, cause you’ve used up the sympathytokens with me, and I’m someone who would fuck you at that.
>>41153371>I feel bad for my boyfriendsame, why does he ever date me..
>>41153371Yeah guys this is great. You should all keep encouraging more young people to do this. Two thumbs up
>>41160527If I had not transitioned in the first place I would long be dead
>>41160557No you wouldn’t be. Stop being ridiculous. Stop making up totally false alternate backstories about how “I always knew something was wrong, ever since I was a kid”. No you didn’t. You got heavily into anime and porn and then you got groomed into this radical belief system online. That’s it. Stop lying about it pathetically.
>>41160622you aren’t intelligent bro
>>41160630>doesn’t deny that anime was a primary factorI’m intelligent enough to map out your entire backstory without even knowing you
>>41160630>thinks he can become a girl>becomes suicidal trying and failing>“I’m actually the intelligent one”
if i had a boyfriend i would be happy and id bake bread for him every day>>41153371are you baking bread for you boyfriend?
>>41160702no but I cook for both of us almost daily and he says it’s better than his mom's
>>41160715why are you sad thenyou are literally doing better than 60% of cis women
>>41160715Yeah males tend to be better than women at most skills
>>41160622Im sorry it went like this for you
>>41160722>actually women would be jealous of YOU!nuclear cope
>>41160739>fake condescending pity Aren’t you the suicidal one? I think you should be more worried about yourself bro
>>41160722Because I understand he may like me for my personality, for "me" but I can only offer him an ugly masculine body that is far worse than a cis woman's>>41160731when you are so incel you horseshoe around to being gay
>>41153371>When do I pull the ripcord and just kill myself?Why not get back at those who wronged you instead? Has a pack of women ever made you feel like you were one of them? Have men ever accepted you as you are? No? Then maybe you should think about who deserves death, really.
>>41160753you are talking to someone else you genius
>>41160754>when you are so incel you horseshoe around to being gayI’m a dad
>>41160759I would never ever do anything like that. I want to help people and leave this earth having had a positive influence on people's lives. If only I weren’t so negative and miserable because of my body.Anyway revenge is pointless and violence is wrong
>>41160776Watch the vampires start hissing at this post in 3, 2, 1..
>>41160776just don't let your wife and children find your grindr account bro
>>41160754There are plenty of cis women in happy relationships with worse bodies than you Genuine question, what do you think you could hear that would actually be consolation for your feelings? You are clearly seeking some sort of answer or clarity. Is it a matter of who says it?
>>41160785Don’t let your parents find you hanging
How many of you transitioned because of anime
>>41160715What a horrible thing for him to say about his own mother. “My fetish cross dresser boyfriend is a better cook than the woman who fed me and raised me as a child” So sick and depraved. I mean obviously his mother abused and neglected him for him to even be saying that but still. So, so fucking dark.
>>41160778Oh, so you're still deludedYou will wake up eventually
>>41160805>How many of you transitioned because of animeNot me
>>41160754>Because I understand he may like me for my personalityAnd that's a good thing; genuine love
>>41160876Sounds like hate to me
>>41160795I would like to hear that, yes, my upper body is masculine but not "manly" and that my body overall may not be super feminine but is overall still somewhat passing and attractive. That exercise will help with my lower body and uncomfort about my hips and that my boyfriend isn't gay for liking me. I don’t know if any of that is realistic though
>>41160876But I still want him to find me attractive and desire me and not make him look gay next to me
>>41160947NTA but telling it to you straight. you don't have a female looking body, it's still better than most trannies. it's why your replies are so split between people saying you pass and people saying you don't, it doesn't pass as female but it's closer than most other trans people.
>>41160975That is kind of a shitty cope. I just want to look like a woman, not be clocked easily. What can I do for that?
>>41153371cute
>>41160952you ever asked him if he finds you attractive? He most likely wouldn't be your bf if he thinks you're ugly>make him look gay next to mei don't see a problem there:3
>>41161147Of course he says so, but it’s hard to believe when you hate yourself.>I don’t see a problem thereI do. I live asa woman not a gay man
>>41160805I transitioned for men, and am basically as far away from actual GD one could possibly have
>>41161231>pick me! pick me!
>>41159984Everyone always telling me to gain weight like im anorexic im like 138 and 5'7 lol
>>41153445its kind of like you are a male wow
>>41161344>"a male/female"yikes go back
>>41160952Well he is. If he wasn’t gay he would be with a girl instead of sucking a dick. I don’t know what else to tell you
>>41153371Girl you look completely fine.Your body is completely woman. Fully and wholly.I'm sure your boyfriend thinks the same. Maybe it would be worth having a conversation about your dysphoria with him. If he loves you he will understand.
>>41161353my boyfriend has never sucked my dick and doesn’t want to, because he isn’t gay
>>41161005you can't really, bones are male shaped
>>41161392What? But if you’re a girl how could it be gay for him to perform oral sex on you?
>>41161428she met him on grindr btw
>>41161463>she
>>41161385>Girl you look completely fine.Your body is completely woman. Fully and wholly.>Well, except for the penis Do you really think you’re belong anyone with this delusional fantasy shit? You can’t just simply say words and have them become true. That’s magical thinking
>>41161463And?
>>41161463yowch
>>41161463bi and bicurious men use grindr
>>41153371Good lord. You see this shit? This shit is why you be a faggot with your full chest. Ten toes down, no cringe mimicry, straight up gay.
Dude, shut up.
>>41153623I'd love to have you as a gf, I think Ur sexy
>>41153553I'd goon so hard to this
>>41153553you should both get your backs blown out on video by julies bf
>>41153371when the fuck did julian get actual titsalso lmao at all the people still taking this baitjust detransition already so you can free yourself of this reverse dysphoria lmaooo
>>41162741Im lowkey pissed because she went from completely flat to suddenly round and well developed. Meanwhile my ass is stuck with puffy nipples that look like a second mound aka cone tits
>>41162870sameI even went and gained a bunch of weight and it went to my thighs instead of titsand it's so wasted on a bddtard like julieI live and love and am mostly happy, just flatlife's not fair
>>41162870jules here, take prog. That helped me go from flat to the perky ones I have
>>41162459Nigga i look worse than Julie
>>41162904Can I shill prog to you too? And you gotta boof it diligently
>>41162913Boof or oral ?
>>41162954boof 100%I do 200 mg every night
>>41162961Really? It sounds like such a chore
>>41162940I did take it for a while but didn't notice much of an effect, might give it another try ig idk
>>41153371did you really thing you body structure is gonna change??!!!hahahahahaa, you fell for the estrogen meme
>>41153371>I only wanna die anymoreWhat? Is this new trans lingo
>>41163169she's esl and just translated what's in her head word for word into english
>>41163335>Ich nur möchte sterben nochnah that ain't it chief
>>41163401ok, so she switched a couple of words around... the phrase is still unmistakably german
>>41163435my man my dude my broski, literally one out of five words is in the correct spot