I‘m a stealth trans man who got male socialized and I admit: I‘m jealous of clocky, non-passing trans men sometimes, because they get a lot of romantic attention if they‘re cute. Something that never happens to me because I‘m just seen as a random ugly bloke. Is this unreasonable? I never had a period in my life when I was sexually or romantically desired, so I missed out on life in easy mode.
>>41171955Go off t for a few years to estrogenize yourself further and live your dreams
>>41171955even this thread is stealth. i could swear cis incel hands typed this.
>>41171955>I never had a period in my life when I was sexually or romantically desiredMe neither. What's your point?t. cis f
>>41171970The thing is, I was an ugly androgynous thing even pre T and got bullied by boys the way they bullied other boys. They never acted out like that with girls.I‘m not going to larp and pretend I was treated as a cis male pre-T, I wasn‘t. It was more like an inferior third gender thing.These days, I‘m somewhat respected and more socially successful in general being seen as a cis man. If I went off T, I‘d only revert back to ugly-androgynous at best. My facial features are very pronouncedly male, changing facial fat back to female would make me look a tad more chubby and younger, nothing else. I also have a broad back and generally speaking, a male stature. I‘d never look like one of those trans „twinks“, even if I functionally detransitioned. No afab privilege for me.In all honesty, I feel like a cis man with a pussy. The transmasc experience is completely lost on me.
>>41171955I have never been sexually/romantically desired by a woman before. Do you mean attention from men or women? Guys having crushes on you when you just want to be able to make friends sucks for both partiest. frepper
>>41171975Not cis, but incel.>>41171997>You gave up your pass to live on hard mode. In a misguided attempt to change.What‘s that supposed to mean? What kinda freak wants to live on hard mode? Even successful cis men who embrace masculinity seek shortcuts and easy fixes. Nobody wants to waste energy and suffer for nothing.>>41172012Oi! You got a concealed PP carry license?
>>41172027>Do you mean attention from men or women?Both>Guys having crushes on you when you just want to be able to make friends sucks for both partiesI’m more likely to be that guy who has a crush on you than to be romantically desired by some guy Lol>women not interested in (You)That‘s fairly normal, they don‘t communicate attraction as openly. If you got male friends hitting on you, you‘re likely attractive enough to get a gf
bump because this board is dead and I miss my anons
>>41171955I’m biologically male (for the most part) and have a pussy and it’s really not what it’s cracked up to be. I’m not a chad so I don’t get tons of attention in the first place. When I do, it’s often because of my career. When people find out I have a pussy it just becomes super awkward. I don’t know how trans men end up getting so much game. It doesn’t matter now since I did find a gf who I am very happy with but it used to make me feel pretty sad
>>41172017You sound sweet desu
Nigga youd still be ugly as a lateshit
>>41173838>I’m biologically maleNo ur not
>>41173994I’m XY and have balls tf you mean
>>41174003You lying
>>41174011Why would I lie about something so specific anonymously online? I have a medical condition, that’s all there is to it
>>41173838The pussy is top secret. It‘s like a hidden weapon to confuse your enemies.>>41173859<_<>>41173899I know. I was a lateshit. Mid before and after, no difference.
>>41174011They are intersex or some shit probably
>>41174023For fun>>41174038I don't believe it though
>>41174037Yeah, I also feel like it’s not very attractive. I also have to dilate if I have sex with it, so I can’t really be spontaneous and there’s this awkward 15 minutes of me dilating and my partner just sitting there waiting. Half the time it still hurts anyway. But maybe you’re right I think it helped filter out people who are surface level personalities and helped me find a girl who loves me for who I am
>>41174043Alright believe what you wanna believe >>41174038I am yeah— I have to see a special clinic that specifically treats intersex people for all of my healthcare concerns. I can’t really show up to a gynaecologist or urologist and expect them to know how to examine me.
>>41174003fucking where? pussy with balls?? can I get a diagram of this setup
>>41174891Rough sketch and it’s hard to depict balls that are descended into labia because the labia just looks puffier than it normally would be and “heavier” on the bottom. If I push the testes further up you can see it, it appears more visible against taut skin
>>41174946wow. is it uncomfortable at all? have you ever had sex? if so how did that go?
>>41174959I can tuck them back in pretty easily so if it gets uncomfortable to sit I put them up. But they’re way more comfortable down than up in general because when they’re up around my groin, bending over hurts, squatting hurts, walking is uncomfortable etc. I have had sex, the testes aren’t really bothersome imo, it’s more just that I don’t have a phallus big enough to penetrate (it’s more like big clitoris) but my vagina is so small I have to dilate for 20 minutes before sex and use a lot of lube so I don’t tear for any insertion. Other than the inconvenience, sex is pretty much normal. I can ejaculate just fine. The problem has always been finding people accepting and open minded enough, so I feel very lucky to be with my girlfriend now
>>41175002would it be wrong of me to say you should consider making at least one porn video, simply because you are a wonder of nature and most of humankind will never get the chance to witness something like you cumming out of your pussy?
>>41175018I would if I didn’t have a lot to lose professionally from doing so. I am trying to get an artist to draw some portraits of intersex bodies during sexual intimacy though, for a friend who is writing a book about how intersex people can and do have sex. I think ejaculating from my vaginal area is not really all that special. It’s indistinguishable from how things look if someone with a penis ejaculated inside of a vagina, it just dribbles out like that after orgasm. There’s not really any special mechanism— my seminal vesicles just terminate into the vaginal canal because my prostate is too underdeveloped. My gf is also intersex so there’s no feeling of being othered which is very nice.
>>41171955You didn't get male socialized.You're just weird, hideous, and Gen Z chungus.
>>41175056that's awesome, i'm happy for you. one more thing, i'm assuming in public restrooms you sit in a stall? does your urethra go through your dick/clit or is it underneath it like in afabs?
>>41175089My urethra is underneath like in an AFAB setup, but it’s so close to the vaginal opening that it’s basically almost inside the vagina. It’s a common occurrence in ambiguous genitalia though— if my genitals got a bit more virilized the two openings would fuse into one external opening. I do sit in a stall, and as a result I dislike public restrooms. The stall is often occupied and it smells bad. Occasionally if I really have to piss and the women’s looks empty, I go in and take a 30 second piss and run out. I try not to do this though— one time, someone came in while I was in the stall, and then people kept coming into the bathroom. I waited in the stall for half an hour so I could sneak out after. Since then I’ve tried to use disabled toilets when/if possible— I personally think it’s justified. If anyone has a genital “disability” it might be me. I just try to piss before I leave home these days.
>>41175056Are you saying you creampie yourself every time you get off?
>>41175158Pretty much yeah, although it doesn’t really feel like anything other than well, a bunch of cum around my genitals
>>41175180Hot
>>41175056You could make a solo vid of just your genitals, no one would need to know it was you, just saying
>>41175192I get paranoid about it honestly. I work in a field where professional reputation is very important and I’ve put in a lot of effort to get to where I am today. Plus, I do save videos for my gf— we are long distance right now. I think maybe some day, years down the line when I feel less like I have something to lose, I could consider it. But there are honestly hundreds of thousands of people with my specific condition— I’m sure someone somewhere has already made a video. I did commission some art of me and my gf having sex, since she’s female (she has ovaries) but has a small penis.
>>41175232does she have a vagina and uterus? is having children something that would be possible for you two?
>>41175246She does have a vagina internally and a small uterus, but her vagina is fused into her urethra so there’s no external opening. She has CAH. I think you can find case studies depicting what I mean online. It’s unlikely she can have a safe pregnancy, so we will probably see if both of us can bank gametes, do IVF and have a child via surrogacy. If that fails, we are both open to adopting. It’s not something I’m super stressed about right now, we are both young and just getting started with our careers
>>41175277of course, i was just curious. thank you for sharing so much! really interesting to learn about.
>>41175383I’m pretty open about this stuff as long as questions aren’t rude or passive aggressive! Talking about things help people learn about different bodies and experiences
