>be me>boymoder, 19, hrt 2 years>boyfriend (femrepper) of 1 year who is really scared of hurting me even though im a massive masochist>we go buy some rum for my liquor cabinet>he makes me and himself drink with it>we go upstairs and i drink mine but its really strong>im sitting on my bed, he’s sitting at my desk, which faces my bed>drink my drink>he’s very clearly touching himself while staring at me but denies it when i ask>finish it and he immediately says that i should have another and goes and brings another back>we sort of idly chat about nothing while listening to aphex twin>after a bit and two drinks in probably less than 30 minutes he comes back with yet another drink>go to the bathroom but almost fall over>piss>come back into my room and collapse onto my bed>whyamisodrunk.jpg>he jumps on top of me and kisses me>tells me to get undressed>yessir.mp4>kisses my neck and tummy and inner thighs>he bites my neck super hard>scream a little>he tells me to shut up and calls me a bitch>shoves a pair of socks into my mouth and bites me even harder>he stops just before it become actually unbearable>he takes the socks out of my mouth and tells me i did a good job>licks the bitemark>he moves down and starts licking my tits>i feel so weak and can barely move>moan a bit>he stops, slaps my face and then punches me in the belly>it feels really good>he does it again>and again>fuck>and again>try to tell him to stop but my brain isn’t working well>he flips me onto my side and starts punching my ribs>wtf>just keeps fucking hitting me>start crying out and curling up trying to protect myself>he tells me to shut up and shoves the socks into my mouth again, hits me harder>hes panting, stops suddenly>tells me to get his bag>sort of whimper and take a second to process>get his bag>he pulls out a ugly ass yellow utility knife>whuh(1/3)
holy shit nigga not reading all that gay shit
>pushes me into the matress and presses the blade against my thigh>roll my head back and he tells me to be quiet>can barely tell if he’s cutting me>my whole body fills with pain but in a good way>can’t tell if my eyes are open or not>he stops>tells me i am doing a good job>feel a little rush of happiness and slightly dizzy>bleeding way more than i expected>tells me to sit, pats the mattress>kneel in front of him>he gets the drink from my desk and pours it into my mouth>way too quickly>almost choke on it>puts it down before i spill it all over myself>gets an alcohol wipe>presses it into my fresh cuts>wtfthathurts>he tells me to get on all fours>i do>he whispers something into my ear>i can barely tell what’s going on>have no idea what he said>feel him nibbling at the back of my neck and his hand on my crotch>oh my god>jesus christ>i can not really tell what’s happening but i think he starts pinching my nipples>start getting really close>try to tell him, like reaching out to tap him or making noises>he just puts a hand over my mouth>cum>vision goes white for like a minute>he pushes me onto my back>starts licking my thighs, where he cut me, with one hand up on my chest pinching my nipple>its way too much>protest but i can barely move my own body>he totally ignores me>grabs my genitalia and places it in his mouth>have no idea what’s going on>it’s too much>i try to push him off or even just express my discomfort but i can barely move>i can’t tell if my eyes are open or not>i can’t tell if this feels terrible or amazing>feel him stop or slow down>he puts his hand around my neck>squeezes really hard, i feel the blood in my neck>i grab his wrist and he stops>he looks at me >i pant and make some stupid fucking noises for a second>ask if i can have some water>he gives me more of the rum drink>i drink a sip of it and ask if i can have some water>he reluctantly hands me a glass of water>i drink some(2/3)
>>41182504Why is this what you get off to?
>after he puts it down he kisses me a bit>he puts his hand back around my neck>something in me breaks and i suddenly beg him to choke me until i pass out>his eyes widen a little and he squeezes really hard>jesus christ>i put my hands around his wrist>my brain melts into a homogeneous soup>feel weird feelings i haven’t felt before>vision gets kind of dark>tap his arm twice as a sort of reflex>he immediately stops>feel the blood rush to my head>alongside a tinge of disappointment>he suddenly collapses next to me and cuddles into me like he’s exhausted>he puts his hands down his pants>feel him touching himself against my leg>kind of lie there uncertain what to do>he cums after maybe 30 seconds>he says i love you>he cuddles into me and falls asleep almost immediately >he really is a mani love my boyfriend(3/3)
hot and cute
>>41182506you’re in >>/lgbt/ what did u expect>>41182514idk, brain damage maybe? self worth issues, internalised ideas about sex and desire? why do you ask
>>41182504okay thanks any other aspects of your amazing life us dregs of society should be aware of
>>41182541>you’re in >>/lgbt/ what did u expectsuccinct smut and self loathing
>>41182535thanks>>41182586dw my boyfriend’s down there with the rest of you. he’s an unemployed (sorry, “part time”) femrepper with no friends and a rape fetish who refuses to get on ti must acquiesce though my life is pretty amazing and i am a wonderful contribution to society>>41182589okay thanks for your advice next time i’ll make sure to be more sober and consequently succinct and i’ll try to hate myself more
>>41182504fuck you for being happy. i am going to jerk off to this though
god damn that's so fucking hot I'm so jealous. I wish I had a femrepper bf to abuse me >///<
Hot. Good post OP
>>41182504>tfw no femrepper boyfriend to abuse meWhy even live..
>>41182504>boyfriend>it's a femrepperSigh
>>41183581Just say you have no taste
NEED NEED NEED NEED NEEDhow do you find someone who'll do this to you anyways? T. 'Moder who's been told she's cute
>>41182504tldr nigga
>>41182504>>41182512>>41182518Yeah that's hot as shit, I don't even know which perspective I find the best in this. I want to do this to someone and for someone to do this to me.Drunk sex in general is so hot to me, it really sublimates everything here... :3
>>41182504NEEDNEEDNEEDif this doesn't happen to me son im ngmisomething almost sorta happened to me when my mtf boyfriend in hs expressed his anger at me leaving sort of like this but this is so much cooleri need a cute trans boy to cut me
>>41183953i think i was more than drunk desuhe still hasn’t woken up but i think he put something in my drink, i’ve never felt like that while just drunk>>41183732i really did just get very lucky, he’s my first relationshipi do think it was more that he found me. he told me that part of why he was attracted to me was because i looked like a pathetic pushover who wanted to be hurt
>>41186269>mtf boyfriendelaborate >>41183344>>41183376is it abuse if i asked for it? it feels kind of unfair to him to call it abuse>>41183355thankk youuu>>41182956you’re welcome
>>41188794>is it abuse if i asked for it?I don't think so but I find it more hot when I pretend it is.
>>41188334update: he confirmed it. he put some of his anti anxiety medication in (diazepam)im happy cus he’s always threatened to do this but afaik never has
>>41192270that's so hot , congrats nona
>>41182504waow that is so hot does your boyfriend perhaps want to cheat on you with me
>>41182504nice larpstill hot though
>>41182504I wish my girlfriend was into this, maybe I should just do it anyway...Happy for you nona
>>41193341terrible ideanever do this without consent if you don't wanna end up in jail
>>41192270Don't mix alcohol and benzos in actual quantities that's what kills soundcloud rappers (besides fent sometimes too)God damned zoomers need to use Erowid
>>41192270damn girl you're going to end up dead in 2-3 monthsnevertheless, giwtwm
>>41193341>>41193407yeah seriously don’t do this without consent and discussing beforehand. i’d been discussing my boyfriend doing things like this to me for a long time, even though it was pretty unexpected in the moment and he did actually give me some opportunities to back out>>41193433that’s what i told him. it was a really small amount though, 2mg, but i told him not to mix them in future>>41193465i doubt it. despite appearances we have a mostly healthy and loving relationshipbut, then again, who knows...>>41193217he said no, but he liked your drawing
>>41182504why doesn't anyone love me T^T>>41193217i love this drawing, so real
>>41193684yknow what fairwith this information I am significantly less concerned for your safetybut it kinda sounded from the greentext like he just sprang this on you with minimal warningin which case the drugging + choking was a red flag the size of the eiffel towereven with the context it's still a bit risky, but at least it's consensual
>>41183344i volunteer
>>41182518 …Wow that’s hot.
>>41182504Praying that I can find a man to do this to me.
