just be cool, your cursed with being ugly but your still a trans woman and everyone has the ugly chill friend

>>41188780
ik lookism makes that harder, but its just that, lookism.

>>41188780
I suppose but like idk i can't help but freak the fuck out about trans stuff. It's a matter of time before i ask them to call me a disgusting rapehon agp fetishist when i feel like i deserve to be called that. I wish i knew how to stop cuz idk i just get so jealous. I do try be cool, i think people find me funny at least but idk

>>41188748
>>41189025
stop being ugly bro its that simple

>>41189025
being a HON is something you may be cursed to, but as long as you don't choose to be a creep you will be fine.

Think about it, would you have any problem being friends with a gigahon who has a good personality?

>>41189146
True
>>41189234
I'm not a creep but i just freak out a lot about how ugly i am and generally let being mogged get to me. Which then trannies don't want to be friends with such a miserable hon. Idk i have non tranny friends but trying to make tranny friends online idk I can't help but annoy them with my dooming.

Bump i need to be less bitter about how ugly i am versus other troons plz

Bump

>>41188748
ahahahahhaha literally me

>>41188748
why do they have a google pixel

>>41193636
Hon phone

>>41193641
why

>>41193694
Idk it just is, lot of trannies have them, it's just like a joke really

>>41188748
You have not seen Hell until youve made a trans friend who passes after 6 months of hrt and mogs you in evers way WHILE also complaining and crying how ugly and unpassing she is WHILE seeking your emotional support for it (while giving almost none of it back) WHILE also posting selfies all the time that get a ton of interaction and praise WHILE you yourself know how it is to post a selfie of your own that no one gives a fuck about.

Allah help you if you are in any way unstable or even addicted to alcohol or drugs because you WILL eventually lash out on her. Youre going to be very mean, but you'll also going to be honest for the first time, and its gonna feel awesome in the moment. But then, her many friends will learn about it and turn against you. She *is* a pretty girl, remember? Just for a fucking moment, you forgot what your value was. You forgot your place.
In truth, your little meltdown did as much damage as a drunk homeless person yelling at a rich lady passing by in a limo. She'll be fine. But you'll get your teeth curbstomped.

Best part? Her pain, her dysphoria was actually genuine the entire time. She actually, truly was your friend for a little while. But the friendship was doomed from the start because you carry so much pain and unlike her, you never had an easy way out. Unlike her, you will never experience a life of a passing woman. Best you can ever be is a tranny.

>>41188748
> it leads to me going schizo on everyone with brainworms
You cant leave out the most crucial part. How have you gone schizo on ppl? What have you said or done?

>>41194630
this is what ultimately makes me really sad

i want to go back to being babytrans when i actually had hope hrt would just work and sort everything out but it doesnt. im just a guy with boobs.

and my nice passoid friends just get to live their lives as women and are nice to me and everything but the undercurrent of everything is just that, i know they wont be there for me, i probably make them uncomfortable, ill always just be something to be pitied and cared for maybe but never actually wanted, never an equal. how you look is everything in life.

>>41194630
Biggest trukepill ive read in a while
I deeply felt every line in your post

>>41194630
Yeah more or less. I'm not very unstable and I'm sober so hopefully I don't lash out but I won't lie, trying to be friendly to the person who pretty much keeps running into the exact same challenges i have, acceesing hrt, coming out, dealing with gps, coming out to parents, and seeing her get far luckier than me every time even though it's more or less the exact same scenario, idk how i haven't exploded yet. I don't want to but i probably will eventually
>>41194813
I basically just harass them, pour my guts out telling the most embarrassing things of my life begging them to call me a faketrans agp rapehon who will never pass. I'll go on and on for hours making it their problem because i want them to tell me because being told I'm an ugly permahon by a passoid hurts so good.

>>41195672
That’s it? I thought you were like legitimately harassing them or trying to sabotage them

>>41195672
> begging them to call me a faketrans agp rapehon who will never pass

i wish my passoid friends would do this to me i need them to tell me to kms i want them to hurt me so bad but we just keep pretending im just like them

>>41188748
Its not an unusual thing to enjoy making other people feel bad, figuring out their insecurities and driving a hammer into it. It's an intoxicating feeling. But it's even moreso when you only do it to bad people. That is the answer; project your anger onto the people who deserve it, not other trannies

>>41194630
I'm gonna rip my own head off

>>41195688
No but it is still harassing and annoying asf and has probably ruined my chances at making friends so many times cuz I can't contain my brainworms. I wish i could just be calm and normal and friendly instead of insane and miserable
>>41195759
Real asf
>>41195801
I don't try make them feel bad I'm just extremely annoying and want them to hurt me cuz i feel like i deserve it and being told mean things by passoids hurts the best