Anonymous
09/28/25(Sun)04:38:46 No.41193255

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Anonymous 09/28/25(Sun)04:38:46 No.41193255

>be me
>autistic, ADHD, any disorder you can imagine
>had like less than 10 friends ever
>new Russian guy shows up, become friends
>he's a leftoid and I'm libertarian
>COVID hits, realize I’m trans and pan
>I become a leftist
>come out to him in the most autistic way possible
>he’s chill about it
>mom finds out
>gets mad, I gaslight her into thinking it was just a joke
>cold war with mom begins
>she suspects I did “something” with my only friend
>obviously deny
>I move to France, he moves to Canada
>still talk on Discord like nothing changed
>every other friend disappears, he’s the only one left
>desperate for attention, start ironic flirting
>assume I’m aromantic because I’ve never fallen in love
>also assume I’m just some unpassable hon
>lifesucks.jpg
>one night dysphoria hits like a truck going 160km/h
>vent to him
>it’s 2AM, I'm tired
>start flirting more
>he flirts back
>suddenly heart going 140bpm, feel high on oxytocin
>realize I’m in love with this mf
>panic, confess, immediately ask him to reject me
>he doesn’t
>???
>says something gay like “you need to accept your feelings”
>we ERP for like an hour
>didn't sleep at all
>morning arrives
>all hormones are at a high
>blood pressure and heart rate are high
>feel like I'm gonna have a heart attack the entire day, keep thinking about him and talking to him
what happened to lead me to this