Prev: >>41107295>QOTT1: Whats your favorite music artist, song, or album?>QOTT2: are there any songs you relate to alot, for dysphoria reasons or just in general
>>41196466I can't believe I ever thought I'd actually have a chance of being a man
trying to make friends again was a mistake i cannot relate to anyone and everyone feels so stupid and annoying. i shouldve stayed a schizo hermit fuck.
>>41196671anyways i keep getting phantom cock pains like i feel as if i have a cock and i can feel it pressing against my thighs/clothes in an uncomfortable manner and it hurts. i cant alleviate it in any way because i dont actually have a dick and im just losing my mind. my only cope is convincing myself that my existence is karmic punishment because that gives my suffering meaning
>>41196817women are not real what is this LMFAO
I'm not a femrepper but I'm a cis male and my first gf and my second gf both ended up pooning out later on. Is there something about a man that attracts femreppers? My first gf was actually my introduction to what being trans even was (oldfag here). She (I'm saying she because she later depooned) told the entire class one day at random that she was now a boy and I had no clue what the fuck she meant. She was the girl I lost my virginity to and it was very confusing for my teenaged boy mind. This was after we had already broken up. I later decided to just cut out the middleman and dated a pooner. I miss him.
>>41196840if it was my way your kind wouldnt be considered human
>>41196671Sometimes you genuinely get lonely and think about having relationships again only to remember that social interaction fucking sucks
>>41196884i meanits not like the world is ran by sane people. maybe youll have a chance at making that true uwu
>>41196925real as fuck. im usually ok with being a solitary ascetic imageboard dweller but once in a blue moon i will get a craving for a genuine convo with someone, and then when i seek it out im just reminded of why i dont make friends or talk to people. retarded, vicious cycle.
>>41196852>Is there something about a man that attracts femreppers?You give off prey vibes.
>>41196580you have a chance of being a performative male if youre listening to mitski
>>41196466>qott1destroyed by hippie powers>qott2destroyed by tranny powers
>>41196671>>41197033real>>41197564kek, true. love prey vibes.
>>41196466>qotti'm gonna save my breath and just post the last 3x3 i made
>>41196466take your HRT, retards
>>41196817Watch male POV porn. If you’re in the right mind space you can masturbate it.
>>41196817This is bait, right?
>>41196466not even femrepper but i want to post milk
>>41198844why would it be bait whats baitable about my post. what even would be the goal of that bait. do you think that everything unusual is bait. fuck you
>>41196466Would femreppers date an mtf top?
KILLING MYSELF SISTERS the people have found my drawings and are reposting them on xitter and i am beyond embarrassed holy shit this actually fucking sucks so bad i hope She never sees it and realizes this was the one character i based off of one of hers to use in my lame ripoff story i was going to make in order to cope with repressing but then abandoned out of embarrassment. and now this is out there in the open with 300+ fucking likes i actually need to be permanently erased from existence dude i cant takethis
>>41200415There's no way someone is genuinely talking about PHANTOM COCK PAIN. I will not fall for bait I will not fall for bait
>>41201612Your foid bitching aside that drawing is alright
>>41201708no it looks like absolute ass this is so humiliating
>>41201612Damn you can't catch a break lol
>>41201830no its ok my existence attracts this type of occurrences so im kind of used to it. in fact constantly waiting for it most of the time
>>41201693>There's no way someone is genuinely talking about PHANTOM COCK PAINpeople discussed much weirder stuff in here are you serious. this is nothing. why is me having this problem so hard for you to comprehend. >>41201612didnt you want to be internet famous and a lolcow why are you shitting yourself over this
i can't believe i used to be somewhat productive with my time in the past... i just laid in bed and read porn doujins for 10 hourssomebody kill me
>>41202650>didnt you want to be internet famous and a lolcow why are you shitting yourself over thisLOL yea its just really embarrassing like this isnt even something meaningful to be known for...
>>41202650Nah this is the weirdest you need to touch grass bruh
>>41201816And who cares you got posted to a tiny twitter acc not fox news sybau
>>41204230>Nah this is the weirdest it genuinely isnt>you need to touch grass bruh what will touching grass do i hate all of you faggots who think that going outside helps anything >>41204235>sybaunvm youre a retarded newfag from tiktok why am i even talking to you
I hate vagina I hate pussy this shit is so fucked fuck my life I hate this thing so much I need to be put down like a dog fml
>>41204230phantom limb pain is a widely studied psycho-physiological phenomenonstay ignorant you brainless chud freak
Did anyone else think when they were younger they'd just start growing a penis/masculinizing in general at some point despite having a perfectly normal female development or was it solely a me problem
>>41196466>QOTT1Yura Yura Teikoku - Sweet surrender from the album Hollow me>QOTT2El gran varon . Willie Colon
>>41196466I’m not trans, but rather an intersex guy. I grew up as a girl, found out I had testes as a teen, and then underwent male puberty (from the testes). I always figured I needed to be a guy because I didn’t want to remove my balls. However, I always felt rather ambivalent— it’s just something that happened to me. I want to find some more enjoyment from this life I now have. In your opinion, as people who have a strong desire to be male, what are some reasons to enjoy this body/life? (Non misogynistic reasons)
>>41205997I thought (hoped) I would be the exception and never go through puberty. When it started, I had a multi-day mental breakdown that went totally unnoticed by my family because I was smart enough to hide my feelings.
>>41206147>In your opinion, as people who have a strong desire to be male, what are some reasons to enjoy this body/life?It's just neat. The voice, the flat chest, the general body shape, and so on. Strong, capable (unless you're fat). Don't have to get pregnant. Socially, men are fun to hang out with because they don't shy away from an interesting confrontation, unlike women, and usually discuss more interesting topics.
>>41206147A deeper voice, increased muscularity, and a masculine face are the things I envy the most. That and not having to deal with periods and female hormone cycles. It's weird because I prefer women's bodies in every other context but when it comes to my own I still want to be male.What I don't envy is that I have a lot of feminine interests that I know would be considered weird/gay for a straight man to have.
having body itself is torment everything feels so greasy and itchy for no reaso n and i hate feeling tired i hate haing to brush my teeth i hate having to pull out eye boogers out of my eyes i hate it when eyelashes get stuck in my fucking eyes i hate it when my hair gets greasy i hate clipping my nails and then feeling the raw skin brush against things. i hate shitting and having to clean up from it i hate pissing i hate feeling nauseous from eating and nauseous from starving i hate overheating i hate sweat i hate having to shower everyday as to not smell like shit. i hate having a physical body i hate knowing that i can get hit by a car or develop cancer and die randomly and its out of my control. barely anything in my body is in my control every fucking month my uterus produces an egg against my will and theres nothing i can do about it. having a body is a humiliating and degrading experience that tarnishes your soul, we were created by an evil god
>>41196466stop stealing our tranny swag
>>41206315no one gives a fuck about what a moid thinks
>>41206315Milk chan is just like me fr though
>>41206313so truesuffering is at the base of all human experience.
>>41206208I do think that it’s much easier to move around and do things with a lean frame and a flat chest. I wore silicon breast moulds a few times when I was still living as a girl (and deeply insecure about not having gone through puberty). It seems unwieldy— from what my gf has described, having breasts seems quite inconvenient/a pain. I also do think my autism is more accepted as a guy. >>41206264Yeah, I can see that! I do think that you’re right about the interests. I was considered a tomboy as a girl, but as a guy (especially a mostly straight one) I’m frequently teased for being a femboy. How openly and easily I jump in to help others out used to be taken for granted as a girl, but has been much more heavily appreciated as a guy. Sex with balls and a vagina is ass though. I never used to feel this way but post puberty, there’s a weird kind of body horror that has taken root. It feels a bit wrong to see myself ejaculate from what looks like a pussy. There’s something that still feels like it’s missing even from very loving and intimate sex with my partner. The wrongness is strangely enough, only linked to sex— on the day to day, I don’t have any issue with my genitals. I wonder if my brain developed a mental map that got confused by my body. If I try very hard to imagine that I have a woman’s body when stimulating my vagina, it feels less “off”, but then I hear my voice or see my chest and the illusion is shattered. Outside of sex though, the thought of removing my testicles makes me feel deeply ill, and creates a sense of abject horror. The human mind is a fascinating thing.
>>41206181>I thought (hoped) I would be the exception and never go through pubertyis this a common experience? ive gaslit myself into thinking that i was intersex and would never have periods
>>41206756I never even considered the possibility of being intersex until I was diagnosed, I think most people don’t even know it’s a thing as a teen.
>>41206756>is this a common experience?Very.
>>41206323thats so mean why would u say that :(>>41206330ok u can post her but only u
>>41207061>thats so mean why would u say that :(because men are subhumans
is it possible to make your ribcage bigger after puberty or not
>>41207287Gym
>>41207287You can't expand the ribcage itself but you can make it look bigger if you gain enough muscle. Go to the gym. If you end up taking roids, make sure you're not being retarded and destroying your heart and liver. If you don't, either way exercise will make you feel much better.
>>41206323>>41207061>>41207239I, for one, am of the opinion that all humans are subhuman.
>>41206313realest shit ever said on this damn board
i wish it were possible for me to have heterosexual piv sex (as a male), lesbian sex, and gay male sex (topping) all in one lifetime.
>>41208070too greedy. as punishment, you will get zero of them.
>>41206313type shit
it was over before it even begun
>>41207444that doesnt make any if all humans are subhuman then no one is. you are an illiterate troglodyte
Bump at night
>>41205997Omg when I was 11 I had used old psychology textbook that mentioned those kids in South America (all from the same family iirc) who were completely female on the outside but when they went through puberty they spontaneously became boys and ended up indistinguishable from cis men like they could have kids and everything. And I remember being like omg I bet that’s what’s going to happen to me! That must be why im like this! And then long story short it didn’t lmaooooo
>>41211515No, you are the retard here if you didn't realize I was referring to animalistic reality vs the ideal human whom we perceive as our true form.
anybody else here have autism? actually, anybody here not have autism?
>>41206313peak female autism
>>41215335>anybody here not have autism?you cant be truly dysphoric as a woman if youre not autistic
>>41196580I don’t get this, like on all levels you can look like a real man easily, just take test maybe get top surgery and grow a beard. It’s never been easier to be a man
>>41197033i watch jacob jones too desu maybe we can try being friends?
>>41198705Yes ma’am
Threadly reminder that the following are the best ways to manage your dysphoria (the more you do at once the better!):1) Butchmax2) HRT-rep3) Get a short, mtf femme gf4) -optional- get bottom and/or top surgery>>41196466I have never been more happy since I got a femrepper partner. They are so amazing.
>>41214018Oh, I heard of that too and too naively thought that it would be me someday...
>>41215474Glad to see you again here lol>1) ButchmaxWhat if you're a very fem person despite being a female repper? I remember someone on here mentioning that they don't have any male essence or whatever, what would they need to do then?
>>41215515>Glad to see you again here lolI was thinking about not posting again, since I did find an amazing femrepper partner.But I guess that I just like trying to help femreppers too much.>What if you're a very fem person despite being a female repper?I would argue that presenting more masc is 95% personality. Aesthetics help, but being able to get into the right mindset seems the most important from a dysphoria management perspective.>what would they need to do then?I can get a femrepper looking very fem. That is understandable and can be worked around.But I reject the idea of a femrepper not having any male essence even just on a mental level.
>>41215528>But I reject the idea of a femrepper not having any male essence even just on a mental level.Makes sense, I'd think one can't exactly be dysphoric at all if they don't have something in their brain that tells them that they're better off as male. So I guess whatever that thing is might be considered male essence
>>41215459i gotta recover from my last abysmal social experience first. it was terrible some bitch wouldnt shut up about her supposed depression and like was trying to impress me with how fucked up and mentally ill she is. i hate these people i hate them, nothing that they say is real its all a ploy to seem unique and interesting
I am a cis male, I can save you all
>>41215746cis f femrepper chaser/mtf femrepper chaser = amazing and biblicalcis m femrepper chaser/ftm femrepper chaser = an abomination and an insult to gods design. you will begin to cough in three days
>>41215746How?
I probably have OCD/something adjacent to it but I don't trust therapists what do I do
>>41215746>save youWhat a mood killer. Now, if you were stuck in a washing machine...
>>41215454please kill yourself please kill yourself please kill yourself please kill yourself>>41215474i missed you. congrats on your new relationship. i promise to not be bitter about it
>>41216143>i missed youI missed everyone here anon.>congrats on your new relationshipThanks! They are amazing and honestly have just reinforced my belief that the very best possible relationships are between mtfs and femreppers.They are just everything I could have ever dreamed to have in a partner. I'm shocked that I found someone so perfect, and on 4chan of all places.>i promise to not be bitter about itI'm sure there is a mtf gf out there for you anon. Just waiting to make you happy.I think your take away from this should be more that it is possible to meet the perfect partner. Even on this site.I'm still rooting for you anon :3
As a cis male i can save femreppers, by getting stuck in a washing machine with my ass sticking out suspiciously in a breedable position
>>41216041dont do anything about it and pretend it doesnt exist thats what i did
>>41216290Now we're talking!
>>41216185>I missed everyone here anondo you genuinely have a quasisocial attachment to frequenters on here or are you just saying stuff that makes you sound nice
As a ftm, you can only get with women that see you as a man if you are genuinely masculine. Too many ftms act like women then get mad that their girlfriends then see them as women. It's not even a matter of passing, some butches/studs who have never been on T get more straight pussy than fully transitioned ftms. "Ftm lesbians" are a cope from those incapable of breaking their feminine behaviors, and I would fall into that category. I am too feminine for a woman to ever see me as a real man and that's why I'm going to remain celibate regardless of whether I transition.
>>41215515AGPmax, imagine yourself as a male transmaxxer who magically woke up in a female body
>>41196466How do I know if I have bottom dysphoria? I have never experienced dysphoria in general, and I was pretty much alright with my male puberty. It is a bit weird having a vagina and balls, but on the day to day I have no issue. It was because I had no dysphoria that I felt it was fine to keep my balls after I was diagnosed and masculinize. The problem is that after puberty, during sex, no matter how nice it is, I always feel like it’s wrong. Being penetrated feels unnatural, even though I can feel the pleasure. Ejaculating from my vagina feels like it reminds me that something is missing. Post orgasm, I feel like somehow, I didn’t manage to experience what I wanted to. I often cry after sex even though it was good sex with someone I love. I thought I’d ask everyone here for an opinion
>>41219029>How do I know if I have bottom dysphoria?If the thought of using your genitals the 'default' way fills you with existential dread, you have bottom dysphoria. If you actively want a different set of plumbing, you have bottom dysphoria.>I have never experienced dysphoria in general>on the day to day I have no issue>during sex [...] I always feel like it's wrongThe question is, do you have 'no issue' only as long as you forget about your junk?
>>41219104I think when I’m not being sexual, I don’t seem to feel anything negative about using my genitalia. I feel more or less ambivalent. As long as I’m not horny, I don’t really think about having a penis. Hm, I think when I’m not horny, my junk is just a body part. It feels no different than looking at a finger. The only thing I dislike is discomfort from dryness, or chafing— that’s not really psychological though. When I’m horny though, my balls really ache. I’ll reach down, and sometimes expect to grasp a dick, and when my hand feels there’s nothing there to grab, I feel frustrated. It also feels weird after I orgasm— I’ll feel my cum trickling out and staining my underwear after masturbating, and then I feel a sense of wrongness. It goes away if I stop thinking about it. The worst that it gets is when I’m having sex. I remember that there was always a sense of wrongness around the pleasure I experienced from penetration, and a feeling that I wanted to buck my hips into something. Sometimes, I just try to focus on the sensation and forget about it, I lock in on how much I love my partner. But sometimes I’ll catch sight of myself in the mirror and see a man’s body with a vagina, and it’ll feel a little upsetting.
>>41219186If you looked like a woman with a vagina instead, do you think the feeling of wrongness would go away? A lot of intersex people have a feeling of wrongness from mismatching body parts/hormones in a sexual context but are neutral about gender otherwise. Hormones affect what your instinctive sexual role feels like it should be so it feels wrong to not have the matching parts.
>>41219371Hm, I don’t know because I’ve never experienced having a woman’s body. I’d imagine it wouldn’t feel as wrong, but then I feel like I would be a totally different person mentally. Because my sexual attraction solidified with puberty, I don’t know if I’d be attracted to women still if I had an estrogenic puberty. Prior to my diagnosis, I never really thought about gender identity. Looking back, I was certainly more masculine than most girls in terms of interests, and maybe a bit of a tomboy. But I never felt uncomfortable with how I lived and who I was. I do wonder if it’s because of the physical mismatch. My balls feel like they’re a part of me, so removing them makes me wince as an idea. But I don’t feel like my vagina isn’t a part of me— I don’t think removing it would improve how I feel. I moreso feel that I should have a penis, when I’m having sex, and it feels distressing when I don’t have one.
>>41219371>Hormones affect what your instinctive sexual role feels like it should beNta and if this were completely, 100% true, then there would be no trannies. There are plenty of reppers and trans people whose hormone levels are (or used to be) perfectly normal for their birth sex. You could also argue there would be no gay bottoms. It must be more complicated.
>>41219447I think there are a lot of factors and most of them are mysteries to us. It’s part of why I don’t really think just keeping my balls made me experience distress during sex, or at least I don’t want to bet on it. Back in the day doctors used to think removing the mismatched organs would change things but that’s also proven to be false
>>41219447That was a simplification meant to point out that intersex dysphoria may be different from endosex dysphoria, since intersex people never had typical hormones throughout development. There are obviously other factors involved complicating things for both groups. Even with males raised female due to cloacal exstrophy, only a subset experience dysphoria and transition to male. Some fully embrace the female role and a lot are just neutral about it, but researchers traditionally haven’t cared to investigate the internal experience of intersex kids after “fixing” them so they just assumed everything is okay.>>41219421For what it’s worth, I had a partial mixed puberty and experience this too, though E does help ignore it. Based on the cloacal exstrophy studies, it does seem that gynephilia is already set at birth though, since most of them are gynephilic regardless of gender identity and subsequent hormone use. There needs to be a lot more research since a lot of people don’t quite fit into any of the standard narratives but still have an atypical experience of gender.
>>41220278I have seen the neutral feeling cited most frequently across studies. Most conform to the gender their body passes the most as. However, many who have been modified without their consent do experience phantom sensations of the removed organs and feel distress by it. So modification is not very welcome, but gender dysphoria is not a common experience among intersex people. Well, at least from what I’ve seen as a clinical researcher myself. Ah, what condition do you have may I ask? I have 5ARD, one of the “girl turns into man” ones. I don’t really want to take E, because if I did 1) I don’t want to dump money and mental energy into passing as female and 2) I also don’t want to mess with body I don’t have issues with. I also imagine if I took E, I’d begin to dislike the male appearing parts of my body too. Funnily enough, almost everyone with 5ARD identify as girls (if AFAB) until their mid to late teens. It seems after a certain milestone of masculinization gets passed, they unanimously decide it’s easier to live as men. By age 22, 95% (in one study) identified as male. Whereas at age 6, 88% identified as female. This also led many doctors to believe it would be possible to retain female identity by castrating these kids before puberty— while female gender identity was retained, most still went on to identify as lesbian, and experienced ptsd and mental health consequences of early (and unnecessary) gonadectomy. So now we get to keep our balls as default :)
>>41220540>“girl turns into man”literally living the dream, wtf
>>41220819It wasn’t really my dream— I had never questioned my gender before my diagnosis. It was actually a nightmare, because everything I thought I was got shattered overnight, my parents lost their minds over it, and I lost a lot of friends who became disgusted by the idea that they’d been friends with a “male masquerading as a female”. Ironically it may have been easier if I had actually had gender dysphoria before the diagnosis
>>41220946well, living my dream. i think i've read your story: parents hell-bent on marrying you off to a man, right? that must have been a doozy.
i need to be a man fucking another man in the ass itd fix everything
>>41220991Yeah, I posted about it a day or two ago in a different thread. I think they felt that was a good fit for me because I was very attractive as a child. It is very weird that they were thinking about this when I was so young too. But they’ve given up on it a bit now, since I’ve found career success. Still the realization that your parents want your balls gone so you can be traded off as a fleshlight puts a chill on the family dynamic
>>41221087i wonder if there is a pattern of us femreppers having more dominant sexual fantasies as opposed to pooners. i'm the same way in that the vast majority of my sexual fantasies involve me dominating the other man/woman in some way, including sadistically, whereas most pooners seem to be exclusively submissive.
>>41221136you dont transition if youre malebrained
>>41221136>whereas most pooners seem to be exclusively submissive.I don't understand why this is the case even here I read gaydens talking about having PIV with their cis boyfriends and I can't wrap my head around it. I'm androphilic but I'd blow my brains out before considering PIV. I can only assume transitioning has lessened their dysphoria so such acts aren't distressing to them but I don't know.
>>41221163This is literally what I decided when I was 12/13 to cope with not being allowed to go on blockers before the effects of female puberty started and became permanent. I decided that it was more manly/stoic to just accept my place in society and be who I wanted to be despite that and that if I could conquer my dysphoria or at least not “give in” to it by admitting it deeply upset me via transitioning then that was proof I was not emotional and therefore was the logical malebrained chad I so desperately wanted to be. It was/is so weird. Not sure if I was actually wrong or not though.
>>41221087>>41221136Number three, I'm also wondering about this pattern.>whereas most pooners seem to be exclusively submissiveI cringe just thinking about the average Reddit pooner and their 'fuck my boypussy uwu' kinky shit. The way they post about relationships with men. Pure embarrassment. Most of time it's very obvious they are female.
>>41216593I have genuine feelings of attachment for the regulars who post here. It is hard not to have that sort of attachment when I have been here long enough to recognize ~6 regulars just by post style alone.I think my posts are nice just due to me trying to be a nice person :3>>41221136I think this is actually a really interesting question.Every ftm I have ever met has been incredibly submissive. Yet basically every femrepper I have ever met (including my current partner) is pretty damn dominant.I wonder if there is a link between this distribution.
>>41221332>'fuck my boypussy uwu' kinky shit. The way they post about relationships with men. Pure embarrassment.how do they manage to get into relationships pre T and not feel mortified and raped by it? i dont take pictures of myself or post my voice/face anywhere because im so repulsed by the lack of testosterone in it, but average 20 pre T y/o pooner is out there making mitski lipsyncs and talking about their tits and pussy and dating some retard with no personality who towers them and makes them look like a really petite child
>>41221339I think it’s the Fujo thing of being both angry/hating of your own femininity so suddenly once you pretend you’re a boy it’s now allowed. Like nooooo I’m not like all those other cringy submissive boy-obsessed girls I’m exactly like that except a BOY so it makes it okay and different!!
>>41221346It can be this type of mindset,>>41221332>be who I wanted to be despite that and that if I could conquer my dysphoria or at least not “give in” to it by admitting it deeply upset me via transitioningI have it for sure. Transitioning is seen as a type of twofold surrender. First, choosing transgenderism instead of the biologically male body I feel entitled to. Second, revealing my weakness to others and allowing discomfort dictate my life. Death before dishonor, also the reason why I shill for women whenever possible and say I love being a woman. It's a fucking competition and I'm fucking winning.
>ftms trying so hard to be menvs>the actual girls (femreppers) casually displaying unfathomable levels of malebrain
>>41221136The normal FTMs go stealth and you don't hear their fantasies because they are posted by what appears to be a regular cis dude.
>>41221679desu i think those are a minority.
>>41221679they have vaginas and they have the same erotic fantasies as other women with vaginas
>>41221679eh. i don't know, i always thought this premise was kind of disingenous. this would presume that these elusive stealth ftms who never ever talk about being trans got on hrt early enough to fully resemble regular cis men, are straight, and have cis male typical fetishes/kinks. how common could this possibly be taking into account every variable? if you think logically about it for more than a second this is a very rare scenario because it requires such a perfect combination of circumstances, i.e. very early onset dysphoria, accepting parents, access puberty blockers and hrt which means youre probably a very well off person from a 1st world country. no matter how you spin it those types of pooners are probably like 1% of all pooners.
Hmmm. Submissive cute fembrained pooner with dominant male brained femrepper gf. Is this anything
>>41221798>access puberty blockers and hrt which means youre probably a very well off person from a 1st world countryI will never get over the fact that my parents knew about my tranny thoughts since I was a child and are okay with me being gender noncomforming and default to using male pronouns for me when in private, but since I was born in a country that doesnt allow children to get on blockers or hormones I got fucked over big time and now im a 5'3 foid. It feels worse than having unaccepting parents because I know that if I was born in a first world country they'd be chill with me being on blockers and literally the only reason I'm not gonna make it is because I got unlucky with where I was born. How cucked is that
>>41221921Damn that’s rough anon. Sometimes the ghosts of the people we could have been haunt us but I feel that it gets worse when it was a choice we made or something we did. Whereas for you there was no other option, there was no life you could have lived except the one you did and have, none of it/what happened was ever in your power. And in the same way people with survivor’s guilt are actually clinging to the illusion of control by pretending there was something different they should have done or that they are responsible for the outcome, maybe you will also feel better by acknowledging that there was nothing anyone could have done. This all always ended up one way
Does anyone in here talk about their femrepping to their therapist? I am afraid to do so but sometimes I wonder if it could help with coping (not that I’m not in the max dosage of copium hugging every day) I feel like responses from a therapist could vary so wildly and it’s hard to tell how they would react unless you actually told them but then you would have to commit.
I feel a little hypocritical ranting about fembrained pooners because I would fuck the shit out of those FtFemboys.
>>41222050I feel like the average therapist would just try to convince you to poon out
>>41222063I don’t think wanting to fuck someone is the same thing as agreeing with them. Most straight people think the opposite sex are a completely different species whom they could never hope to understand and are wrong abt everything yet they don’t consider themselves hypocritical for still wanting to fuck them.
>>41217593do you wanna finger each other
therapy is a scam for gullible upper middle class women who post about astrology and being an empath on instagram. you gotta keep quiet about your mental issues and have mysterious chimp outs and never explain anything to others, thats the warriors way. how can you trust a therapist knowing that they would benefit from keeping you hooked they get paid for that shit
>>41222203>who post about astrologyBeing a schizo into esoteric stuff is malebrained tho
>>41222213>Being a schizo into esoteric stuff is malebrained thoonly if its stuff like european/arabic paganism or hermetic alchemy. astrology is notoriously fembrained, women love categorizing people into different subclasses, thats why they love mbti
>>41222213I read a thing that hippie dippy alternative spirituality bullshit isn’t actually schizo/malebrained, bc it’s still a form of conventional spirituality just a little more woo-woo and out-there but not truly unique. To be REAL schizo/malebrained you have to be making up your own dumb weird culty pseudo spiritual bs instead of just schlurping up other’s horseshit, like how Jung and Freud did. The horseshit must be homemade not store bought
>>41221163TRVKE
>>41222238>astrology is notoriously fembrainedDepends on how autistic one is about it
>>4122220399% of therapy is just telling a bored woman your issues and then her going "have you tried taking deep breaths? Have you tried journaling?" repeatedly. Admittedly I didn't tell them everything when I had therapists as a teenager but if I did I probably would've gotten even more unnecessary diagnosis or involuntarily committed or some shit. If you don't want to be prescribed 500 medications it's a total waste of time.
>>41222296>Depends on how autistic one is about itthe more autistic you are about astrology the more fembarined it gets. when men want to categorize people they become racists, when women want to categorize people they get crazy about zodiac signs or socionics. i havent met a single moid who genuinely liked astrology, they pretend to like it to fuck women.>>41222325>If you don't want to be prescribed 500 medications it's a total waste of timei know a person whos in their thirties and they still go to therapy, mind you theyve been at this since they were 14. such a waste of money. how do you respect yourself knowing that youre a shill for an ontologically evil, deeply pointless industry that sees you as a diagnostic unit?
>>41222497>the more autistic you are about astrology the more fembarined it gets.>when women want to categorize people they get crazy about zodiac signsI thought more about those people who try to read out everything out of their naral charts but maybe you're right
>>41222573>naralNatal
>>41221452>>41221346That’s kinda an interesting perspective. As an intersex person when I was diagnosed, part of why I didn’t want to remove my balls was also because I refused to lose. I didn’t have dysphoria, but there was a lot of pressure to “pick an easy way out” and get surgeries for a conforming body. I felt there was a lot of pity for me, as this “poor little girl who could not possibly handle the consequences of male biology”. I really hated feeling pitied. It doesn’t make a lot of sense but a quiet “fuck you” was a part of my decision making process. I’ve never backed down from a challenge and always sought to prove I was more capable than people thought I was.
>>41222573>I thought more about those people who try to read out everything out of their natal chartsnatal charts are peak fembrain ive never seen a man read a natal chart, they dont give a shit
>>41223542I had a cis male coworker who was very into astrology. It was fascinating to me bc it was like he was a new type of person that I hadn’t previously known could exist it really opened my eyes to the diversity of human experience
>>41221136>>41221346tfw you're submissive and exclusively attracted to women, feels like an anomaly among both ftms and femreppers
>>41223659Yes. But that means if you are attracted to any of the above (I find most ftms/femreppers are attracted to at least one or the other also) then it’s like you are the only person at the jelly convention who showed up with peanut butter and bread. Like bon appetit bitch enjoy your smorgasbord you are the belle of the ball
Milk game milk game
How do you feel about the fact that most MTFs see being a woman as humiliating and get off on that?
>>41223819What is milk game anon
>>41223966Op image op image!! Yay yay!!!!
>>41223861>MTFs see being a woman as humiliatingtheyre right. they should be executed by a firing squad for finding it erotic tho
>>41196466>qott1twice>qott2in general, they make sweet music about loving yourself and persevering against all odds because they care me so it helps
>>41196466>1DECO27>2As of right now, monitoring :)
>>41222203>>41222325TRUTH NUKE
>>41219029>Ejaculating from my vagina feels like it reminds me that something is missinglike you actually shoot semen out of your pussy?
>>41224320Why is everyone so bloodthirsty and hyperbolic :/
>>41225926incel rage
Does anyone else have "anti-AAP" where you have really bad dysphoria when not horny but it's barely there when you are? I don't really know what else to call it. It's not so much that it makes me actively want to be a woman, it's more like my desire to get off overrides the dysphoria to the point I can ignore it
>>41227503I can partially ignore mine when I'm masturbating. So yeah, I have experienced this too.
>>41225107It moreso dribbles out— my seminal vesicles terminate into the vaginal canal. The mechanism appears more like how semen comes out of a vagina after someone else had ejaculated there. Depends on the day, sometimes it doesn’t and I just get very cloudy urine after
>>41227957Dude you should embrace omegaverse.
>>41228081Why? Isn’t the omega male someone who can get pregnant? Unfortunately that is not the case for me. I did feel that in omegaverse posts I’ve read on tumblr back in the day, there’s this over focus on alpha and omega roles. And not enough on beta roles. Kinda similar to how intersex people get forgotten all the time.
i desperately wish that the whole "women abuse men all of the time" schtick incel moids are obsessed with was true. i wish i was the abuser gender and not the gender thats infamous for being beaten and raped i hate being seen as the victim or weak in any way
>>41228198>And not enough on beta rolesi have embarassing amounts of wordbuilding related to this. i was never a fan of omegaverse, but whenever i saw anything related to it i always thought to myself that theres a very transparent lack of effort put into social issues and how theyd be affected the whole second gender thing. naturally i am better than everybody at everything so i chose to rewrite it. basically in my rewrite betas (specifically beta men desu) rule the majority of the world because theyre seen as the most 'normal' and levelheaded of the bunch, alphas dominated ancient socities, but nowadays theyre seen as 'too agressive' and are stereotyped as low IQ ticking time bombs that are too volatile to be given any actual power, male omegas and female alphas are largerly silenced and seen as inherently disgraceful due to the conflicting expectations society has for them, a lot of times theyre left out of any sexism related discussions because male omegas are rarer than female omegas and female alphas are much rarer than male alphas, so people have a tendency to write them off as contextually insignificant and ignore their presence altogether (i was going for an intersex allegory with this, youve probably arleady caught onto it). theres more, but i have enough decorum to not shit up the thread with this shit
>>41229782I’d actually read that, that seems a lot more interesting as a social commentary than alpha/omega basically giving an excuse to write a man as a woman or a woman as a man. I feel it would be an intersex allegory if society developed an interest in surgically normalizing omega males or alpha females. My family wanted to remove my balls for example, and for a many intersex women, phallic removal of clitoral reduction is done without their consent, often in the same procedure as more medically necessary vaginoplasties
>>41229843yeah i saw a lot of potential in omegaverse dynamics for discussing social issues, its like hyperreality.>I feel it would be an intersex allegory if society developed an interest in surgically normalizing omega males or alpha femalesthats actually a huge point in my worldbuilding. theres a culture for essentially castrating alpha women and turning them into infertile versions of beta women, same goes for omega men. omega men are viewed as an embarrasing blotch on the face of the manhood and are expected to either stay celibate forever or be hyperfeminized in their relationships and take on a 'female' role.
>>41229934Oh that’s very interesting actually, yeah and it would also be accurate if historically they were either revered or persecuted, and modern day they’re overly medicalized. I’d love to hear more— what’s your discord? I’ll add you
>>41229958>I’d love to hear more— what’s your discord? I’ll add youfuck i usually dont give it out im sorry dude. im really wary of people nowadays
>>41230097No worries, that’s fine! There are lots of weirdos on here, so I totally understand being cautious. But I think you’ve got really good world building ideas, especially making fictional constructs into social commentary
>>41220540CAH, pretty sure I didn’t have any modification (and wouldn’t want to since none seem truly nerve-sparing) but I’ve experienced a similar sort of thing to what you described. More so around puberty than now which is why I think hormones play a role, but who knows. Apart from that one context I’m neutral about gender and my body though so I’m not really a femrepper but it’s interesting to see the overlap with some experiences here.I’ve looked at some papers on gender identity in XX CAH by degree of genital virilization and most with stronger virilization who are raised as boys stay that way, so I imagine it’s a matter of convenience after a certain point if you have no particular strong feelings either way. There was a survey by an intersex organization looking at gender identity in younger intersex people and around half had some sort of non-binary identity so I think it just depends on cultural attitudes and awareness. There are all these older papers talking about successfully assigning gender and making kids turn out “normal” but I think a lot of them had more neutral or ambivalent feelings that no one bothered to ask about or that they kept to themselves due to cultural shame. Hopefully we can learn more soon.
>>41230162Oh yeah I’ve heard of that being common in CAH folks during puberty. Are you taking corticosteroids? That usually blocks most of the androgens so that probably would also change how you feel about your body. Interesting, if you’re neutral, why hang out on this board/thread? I’m just curious is all— I mean I’m here because it’s interesting seeing some crazy takes and sometimes unfiltered opinions are interesting. For most it is the convenience of it— many do feel neutral and just want to have an easy life more or less. I think people are inclined to stay however they pass, and then are also inclined to modify less of their body where they can. A lot also have NB identity that they don’t visibly or physically embody. A lot of it is an internal neutrality, and people “live” as male or female for job and social convenience. Regarding the older papers, a lot of the time those kids don’t push back because they internally feel neutral. But many disliked the side effects of the surgery like poorer sexual function and genital pain. Btw my discord is yamtaro_tea if you want to add me
Mid depressive freakout I looked down at my female body and realized that it was over before it began and that things would only get worse and I calmed down instantly
>>41227957you should record a video of this
i cant stand being short i genuinely feel subhuman. its not even dysphoria related anymore i feel like id feel the same way if i wasnt dysphoric. i hate it when i put on clothes meant for adults and they sag on me and the sleeves are too long the pants drag on the floor. i feel like im a child permamently, i see 14 year olds taller than me. i am stuck as a child i will never grow up this is bodyhorror. i will never look like an adult i will never be treated like an adult. subhuman. if i was at least 5'5 id be fine with myself but no i have the height of a 12 year old
anyone have any movie recommendations
>>41232749It looks no different from a small vagina with a big clit that got creampied. Just go check out the hundreds of other vids like that
>>41234982No particular order just stuff I’ve watched/rewarched recently. Heretic, August Osage County, Citizen X, Devil Wears Prada (2 is coming), kings speech, Rabbit Proof Fence.
>>41234982wicker man. amazing music and atmosphere that borders on being terrifying and oddly comforting
>>41196852Prey energy, straggots
>>41232649real as fuckkkk. actually i think this is what radical acceptance is
>>41234982elf bowling. trust mehttps://youtu.be/byKlQtDUV1s
>>41235052i wanna fuck your mussy and mix our cum together
women without autism or schizophrenia are impossible to talk to. literal NPC's
>>41238371>women without schizophrenia are impossible to talk tohot take ngl bro
>>41238544you hate me because im right
>>41238371You're just an autistic male (female)
>>41237985I have a gf I’m happily in love with, but thanks for the compliment
>>41196817I will never not think abt this xd
>>41238556>You're just an autistic male (female)im too male to be a woman and too female to be a man and one day i will change the world (i dont actually believe this i just like to hype myself up with megalomanical delusions)>>41238663its still there by the way, but i have to pretend like it doesnt matter because im trying to hold down a job for once and i dont want irl people to know that im nuts
how do I bulk if everything makes me feel like vomitingI wish human kibble was real and I could eat it for every meal
>>41238916>everythingDefine everything. What are you trying to eat?
>>41234935Just do what Tom Cruise does and build everything to scale.
I'm a fucking overly emotional retard that just ruined my relationship and totally fucked things with the only person who ever actually got me.I was so goddamn stupid to think that I could ever maintain a relationship. I was so stupid to think that she would settle for some weirdo freak like me.I really just want to crawl into some hole somewhere and die. I'm never going to get another shot like this again.
>>41238975Are you the HRT "repper" anon?
>>41238949Plenty of things that never made me sick before, essentially everything from pizza to broccoli and protein bars have all made me feel nauseous. Basically the only things that haven't are rice, bananas, and unflavored onions milkI tried taking SSRIs again and I'm blaming that
>>41238987No. I'm nowhere near as cool as her.I'm just some idiot weirdo that was stupid enough to believe that someone like me could find happiness.
>>41238988SSRIs do like fucking with your gi lining
>>41238975did you have a BPD meltdown
>>41239087Close!It was more of an DPD meltdown combined with my own abandonment trauma and dysphoria issues.Either way, I totally fucked up the one good thing in my life. It's my fault for thinking that someone like me could be in a relationship and that anyone would ever settle for me.
>>41239159No way you just started dating someone and fucked it up a month in
>>41239191I'm an idiot and a serial fuck up. The fact that I did not ruin things sooner is shocking to me.She deserves someone much better than me anyway. It was selfish of me to think that she would settle for me.
>>41221485nta but this is exactly the mindset I needed to hear right now. Thank you for sharing anon.
all transitioning is inherently feminine which is why it makes sense for mtfs to do it but if you're dysphoric and female you have to thug it out
>>41221485>>41239568>>41240317Retarded male mindset. You brainpass.
is this board worse than usual or what
>>41241287>is this board worse than usual or whatYes, I've started posting here (you're welcome)
>>41241287Everyday it gets a little worse
