I want to detrans. I regret starting hrt and wish i had my flat chest. I started this as probably an escape from my actual life. It's easy to pathologize your past as a sign of what your future should be. I do love being feminine but as a male, taking drugs to achieve that is just futile. I survive my first twenty years being normal and not making any drastic decisions or mistakes until this one. Its more bitter sweet, getting exactly what you want since you were a child only to realize it's never going to be how you want. I wished upon a monkeys paw and now I'm left with the consequences.
>>41239291Finally one of you realized that all you needed was a few sessions of therapy or a slap of reality... Was it worth it?
>>41239291yeah
>>41239319>Was it worth it?Its bitter sweet. Not really worth it but it's what I wanted for a long time. I'm not totally distraught over it, just disappointed with myself. I should get therapy but probably never will.
>>41239291so youre a femboy?
>>41239369feminine male would be more accurate. I never socially transitioned
>>41239291I detransitioned. I miss being more feminine but finding a partner is important for me to be happy in life, and women are attracted to masculinity so I'm just doing that. I wish I could have been a real woman, but unfortunately that was never possible, and transition just wasn't good enough for me. It's not always easy but think it was right for me. Luckily I never really grew boobs so they are just kinda ugly gyno but not too bad, so probably wont need surgery.
>>41239291>take breast drug>sad with breastsWhy did you take it then?
>>41239469Because I did/do want boobs. Its just different when youre literally a male and hasve to take drugs to achieve it. Its just a trade off that makes other things in my life more difficult unfortunately. >>41239448>finding a partner is important for me to be happy in life, and women are attracted to masculinity so I'm just doing that.I relate to this. I hate being masculine and would never go that far but transitioning just made me feel far more insecure about myself while limited my options with people. Im 27 and getting older and just want peace.
>>41239368the fact that you never got therapy yet transed anyway is the whole problem. it needs to be made illegal in the harshest way.
>>41239576Idk what therapy would have done. I woulda just say there and lied until I could leave or get what I want.
>>41239613have you considered that you're a terrible person?
>>41239620Lol wait why. I don't understand
>>41239620Ur a jerk
>>41239319>few sessions of therapyI’ve been going to therapy for several years now. Still trans.>slap of realityI work, have a car, have a boyfriend I live with, have friends, supportive family, go to church, am involved in the community. I do and have more in my life than probably you do. I firmly live in reality. Still trans.
>>41239291The monkeys paw is a good analogy, but it's not your fault. You were tricked. Doctors, teachers, the media, they all speak of a world that doesn't exist. People can't change gender and nobody is in the wrong body. It's all a lie.
>>41239775i'm a slap of reality in your face
>>41239905>The monkeys paw is a good analogy, but it's not your fault. You were tricked. Doctors, teachers, the media, they all speak of a world that doesn't exist. People can't change gender and nobody is in the wrong body. It's all a lie.I think youre entirely wrong. It is my own fault and I even knew it at the time I started. No one tricked me besides myself. And yes you can change genders.
>>41239905>you have no responsibility for the choices you madePlease stop lying to detransitioners like this to get them into an ideological, anti-trans pipeline. The sooner they accept responsibility and stop blaming others for their misguided choices, the sooner they can heal and move forward. People like you just want to keep them stuck and use their pain and regret for your own abusive purposes.
>>41239291I'd bet 20 bucks you will retrans
>>41239291i have done the same thingmonkey pawed myselfi got everything i wanted, felt feminine had sex and relationshipbut sometimes im just like, wow im a man taking estrogen, i have tits, i literally look like a guy with titsgenuinely i cannot believe what ive done to myself but its too late
>>41239512Are you a twinkhon?Why would you detrans if you like the changes, just wear a binder/sports bra until you can afford shit to pass, i doubt they're particularly big.
>>41241322Idek if Im going to go through with detransing. I don't know how its going to go. I don't want acne or osteoporosis. >>41241507Yeah. I wear undersized bralettes which work. They arent big at all but enough for them to feel unavoidable and its hard for me to mentally parse with when Im not actually out. I just secretly have little boobs. its weird. I used to want ffs but i dont want to care about that sort of thing, I just want to be ok with me how I am.
>>41241600> its hard for me to mentally parse with when Im not actually out. I just secretly have little boobs. its weird. I used to want ffs but i dont want to care about that sort of thing, I just want to be ok with me how I am.hahaha i could have written this postyeah its weird i took hrt and now im still me but i have little boobs, why the fuck did i do that?am i gonna spend all my money on surgery as well? do i really care? why did i do this?
>>41241600>its weird. I used to want ffs but i dont want to care about that sort of thing, I just want to be ok with me how I am.Anhedonia? What are the things you enjoy? Do they give you a lot of happiness?
>>41241608Lol yeah. idk. insecure minds do crazy things ig. >>41241631Great question. I don't have an answer for you. I think part of me taking hrt was taking a risk and trying something new in search of something. I think I want to be in a relationship like that other anon said and hrt interferes with that.
>>41239291John50 glad you're back>>41239319>therapyBeen there done that, still enby>slap of reality I am a paramedic with a paid off apartment and rent out 5 apartments on the side Dafuq you on about?
>>41241679>Great question. I don't have an answer for you.red flag right out of the gateif legal hrt, ask for a through hormone blood testif diy, at least try getting money for a "complex womens health test" (thats what they call usually)90% of you faggots acting like this have fucked hormone levels, and solving this is way easier than either schizoing out after detransing (noah) or being stuck in this weird depressed slump.>I think I want to be in a relationship like that other anon said and hrt interferes with that.if you're gynephilic, t4t isn't horrible (as long as you avoid any terminally online or alternative tranny). It's a meme, but if you find a normal one, the relationships are really nice. The problem is in finding a normal one.
>>41241724Lol Ive never gotten my hormones levels checked but I don't think low levels are what's making me want to detrans. I like masculine people and was in a relationship with an ftm, but I still think hrt makes me feel insecure about my ability to get in another relationship.
>>41241785>Ive never gotten my hormones levels checkedand that's not a good thingjust bite the bullet and do it (unless you're broke then mb)
>>41239291Lol that’s how it be sometimes Had to have it to realize it ain’t worth itLife ain’t nothin’ but a funny funny riddle
>>41239319i started therapy at 13 and now i'm 18 and i still want to transition. when am i supposed to stop?
>>41239291you will never stop HRT
>>41241322I'm calling & also raising for>>41239512 and>>41239448
>>41241472I know that feel bro it’s like staring into the mirror seeing this dude with tits literally can’t recognize myself it’s like it feels almost psychedelic it like it demonstrates that the psyche is a community of different psychological entities and that the soul is not the body. Moments like those I have to go “welp some part of me wanted this and no one made this decision but me (shrug)”It’s like a free acid trip every time I take a shower! Hahaha
>>41242370Yup, it's kinda weird I agree, but then also I'm at a 17 BMI so they aren't hugely noticeable and I never wore clothing that emphasized my body.Sometimes, when I go out to gay clubs, I'll wear like a tight crop top under a super baggy t-shirt and when I inevitably get chatty with a bi guy, I'll just go>Hey, wanna know a secret, I actually have boobs.and then I take off the t-shirt and that usually seals the deal for the night haha.
>>41242266I know I just don't want to deal with people giving me weird looks. If I actually stopped hrt i would definitely get my levels checked cuz idk how good my natural hormones would be. >>41242338>>41242356I might idk.
>>41243281you won't.
