> be me, male to female looser> start relationship with other mtf abt a year ago> poly, relationship anarchy> gf has a friend who she likes and does stuff with> end up meeting this friend and he assaults me > tell gf> gf says its bad but wont end friendship or even sexual relationship with him> gaslight myself into thinking Im in over my head and I didnt get assaulted, I deserved it, ....> become insanely unstable> break up with her> all of the feelings abt being assaulted, my ex doing that, hit> become even more unstable> feel it affecting subsequent friendships and relationships> unable to go a day without breaking down, crying, throwing up (literally)> want to die> Is it over, am I ever gonna recover?
>>41247461> poly,was over as soon as that started
