>>41269425
you can work on most of those things. I'm ugly but I found a partner who loves me. being pretty is a cheat code that most people don't have access to, it's like being upset about not being born into wealth.

>>41269536
i cant. im tired of it. not everyone gets to be happy.

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>>41269425
nothing gets better.
there is no good ending for some people.

>>41269425
Suicidal ideation is a dangerous cope. Not only cause you might actually off yourself but perhaps as pernicious is that it's a means of avoiding both properly feeling your feelings, and properly dealing with the practicality of your issues.
I had daily ideation for years, curbed it down to now, maybe a passing thought a couple of times a year.
Every time it happened (and how I got it to this point) is realising that it's a cope. I'm feeling way too much, and I'm not letting myself feel those things cause it doesn't feel safe to feel it. I didn't let myself grieve things. I didn't let myself try (with the possibility of failure) to better my situation. The problem is that it is a solution. Every maladaptive coping mechanism is. People don't do drugs cause they feel bad, etc. But yeah. Unironically. Remind yourself every time this thought comes up that it's a coping mechanism and start trying to sit with your feelings. It's an unpleasant thing to learn to do to begin with but eventually it makes life so much better. Life properly starts when you learn how to self regulate and cope properly.
Good luck anon. It's a hard maladaptive cope to be saddled with and your struggles are real and your feelings are understandable. But you're not in a fail state. You can actually get to the other side of this and build a life.

>>41271951
Theres a lot of presumption in your comment.

>>41271951
lol why are men like this

>>41272326
men are NOT this emotionally intelligent, anon. what weird cope is this?