Im just too weak to put the work in to start girlmoding. Defying my parents, embarrassing myself with voice training, buying new clothes, finding a name that fits me, learning make up, female socializing, dealing with actual transphobia, affording surgeries, learning how to actually live as myself instead of how others expect me. Its all too fucking hard so I'll just call myself a freak, a mentally ill man and just boynode until I die
>not wanting to pretend crossdressing men are women is "transphobia"you are inventing your own persecution for self validation since you know you mean nothing otherwise
>>41273099Just one step at a time, okay?It takes years, and it's something you take to the grave with yourself.You don't have to tell people online you're trans, and they have no right to force you into revealing your current voice or appearance.You don't have to exaggerate anything with let's say makeup or clothesBesides, your parents don't have to know.Surgeries is the more of a future problem the earlier you startI'll give you an example. Zipped hoodie, some baggy cargo pants (darker than hoodie prefferably) both with some patterns on them, carabiner on your left or right hip depending on if u top or bottom, maybe a chain or a ring, or an earring. Pick the right hairstyle you pass a lot in, and you can just start from something as basic as eyeliner.Sometimes entirety of transitioning is also overwhelming for me, but we pull through.
Anon, I’m the same.For my whole transition, I’ve been too scared to take any steps, and now I’m at the point where I know I’m going to kill myself. I have a will, a date, and all my things packed up. I know this feeling all too well, and if I can give you any advice, it’s to take the jump.If you do not try, you will grow to hate yourself, and if that happens, suicide is your only out. Do not let that become your choice.
>>41273099lock in hoe u can do it
>>41273099dumb woman, don't you that only make things worse?stop that
>>41273099I'm like this and only take the steps that require the least effort. Even still, I find myself not bothering. I have a few supportive friends, others not so much, and one supportive friend who knows asked my pronouns, and all I could say is that it's just whatever and I don't care because it feels too shameful to call someone who looks like me a woman. Honestly, the only reason I've even gotten as far as I have is because I won't stop estrogen like my parents want since I might as well just kill myself if that happens.
forever grateful my parents are actually helping me w my transition after reading this post desu
>>41273099same. I struggle to shower and get 1 meal a day in-between all my courses work let alone trying to figure out who and what I wanna be. I'm honestly just already so burnt out by life. I'll just take my fucking pills and cope until I can't take it anymore then just kms one day or hopefully pass in my sleep from neglecting myself. manmoding suck.
>>41273478And that's where it hurts the most. I have no one in my corner to support me. When im crying myself to sleep because I think im a monster for being what I am I have ni one to tell me otherwise. I deserve all the pain I feel because im weak, im not good enough to be loved as a trans woman. I can only have value if I accept im a mentally ill man and can never be a woman
