What can I do to fix this I am trying so so hard guys I’m fucked in the head :(My friends don’t want to hear it anymore nobody can help me I talk in circles with the shrink I’m reading on the road by kerouac it’s alright I play instruments I ride my bike I go running I have a cool job I like to cook and I eat healthy so what the hell do I have to do to feel at peace for any amount of time???
>>41278300wah wah my life is perfect but i wanna dieSTFU I WISH I HAD A COOL JOB AND FRIENDS
>>41278300Idk this book helped me get better by redirecting all of the hatred I had for myself at rich people instead.
>>41278309I have some kind of perverted fucked up AGP backwards ass inverted sexuality that I can’t stop ruminating on trying to escape or integrate or forgive myself for or anything. Cannot adjust to live with this. On hrt for four years gave up just look like a dude again but with a fucked up chest and a ransacked endocrine system. I have no route forward and no identity. Just falling further off the rails every day since I was a kid. I want to be a person. Lonely beyond belief. At least I have friends ok but barely and I haven’t touched another person in three years. No game no charisma no fashion sense just 100% pure inhibition and arrested development.
>>41278300Here's 4 suggestions>Journal>Cry down the phone to a crisis line a few times>Meditate/do grounding exercises to get into the moment>Self love practice (when you're having a bad feeling, comfort yourself like you wish someone would have when you were in your darkest moment. Bring yourself the softness and care you bring others when they're hurting and approach your emotions without judgement, and listen to the feelings even if they seem out of line with what you're experiencing)That will all help you a tonne. There's other interventions too and you can explore those (psych stuff and medical interventions) but yeah, try this.
