I'm too male brained to be a women and I've made peace with that I'm just going to embrace being a crossdressing agp post FFS post BA post SRS 10 year HRT eunuch who calls themself "a woman" out of convenience. problem?
>>41293246not really have fun anon
>>41293246you again
>>41293246While “Malebrained” versus “Fembrained” is a pointless conversation (people have interests seperate from the stereotype of interests that their gender holds), I will tell you that posting any Sanrio character makes you immediately gigafembrained.
>>41293634>she hasnt met a my melody poster
>>41293634false. i have my phone and laptop covered in sanrio stickers, and hundreds of dollars worth of sanrio merchandise and i'm still malebrained as hell.
>>41293634>people have interests separate from the gender they holdyeah but at some point if you are sufficiently removed from typical female experiences, then you are not being socialised in the same way as them and thus you have nothing in common with the gender you claim to have transitioned to other than how you look.I'm scared of real women because I know I'm not truly one of them, I feel like an American spy living is soviet Russia, no matter how hard I study their language or emulate their fashion, I'll never be in the same headspace as a true woman because I simply dont engage with the same material they do.because of this women will ALWAYS be able to sniff me out as an imposter.In the past I tried to hurry this process along, I made female friends, I watched female content creators, I watched romcoms that were popular when I was kid. I listened to Lana Del Ray and Taylor Swift. None of it appealed to me and I eventually drifted away from all of my friends.The only way I can cope with the pain of failing at this goal is renounce my identity altogether.
>>41293634(I had to take a break to go cry) Anyway, I think I didn't really go far enough with my attempts to force myself to become fembrained, idk, but it's just impossible when you're specially transitioning in you mid 20s. (I boymode for 7 years). By the time I started socially transitioning I already had a masters in maths and had started my career as a software engineer which I only bothered going into to pay for FFS.Now I'll never be fembrained because I'm surrounded by literal techbros each and every day. Even the cis women around me are moidbrained and admit they have a hard time relating to women. And Im too moidbrained to even relate to these women.I'm so fucking alone, I can't relate to anyone or anything. I'm crying again, I hate myself so fucking much
>no responsesI win, IWNBAW
>>41294055enjoy little bro
>>41294055how does that count as a win?>Even the cis women around me are moidbrainedwill they ever be women? not every woman is a stereotypical swiftie or a romcom enjoyer. if they do count as women, what is it that these women have and you don't?but i must admit, kind of malebrained of you to think that there is only 1 way to be a woman
>>41293246>post SRSI'm sorry for your loss
>>41294073omg I wrote a massive essay and then accidentally deleted it:_:AnywayThe trannies on this board psychologically torture each other by telling everyone that they're trans if they medically transition, but that they're a vile sissy fetishist if they don't behave the part. Now these trannies are quite reasonable, nobody here thinks you have to be a trad wife to be a real woman, but you do have to show some signs of being in the female intersubjective consciousness. I, whether through shame, autism or sheer disinterest, cannot partake in this shared heads pace and have thus been subject to intense self loathing and loneliness for over a decade. I have won by accepting my place as a sick, aberrant creature, an evil subhuman, as interloper to human society. Now it doesn't matter if I can't conform. I was never meant to be anything else anyway >other moidbrained women they're still way more fembrained than me, additionally they have had female upbringing that shaped their psyches during their formative years. My core is male, theirs is female. I failed to change my core.
list of moidbrained things about me>I have a masters in math>I work as a programmer>I like PDX and fighting games>I was raised in a single father household with no sisters and no female role model>I enjoy listening to heavy metal and VGM>I struggle to pick out nice feminine outfits for myself so I just copy whatever I see mannequins or models wearing without understanding why it looks good>my favourite authors are all men>I like reading about geopolitics >I am a literal incel (same insecurities and mental fallacies as a typical "mentalcel") >I feel uncomfortable around flamers and women despite wishing I could get along. Blah blah blah wiring all of this out just makes me hate myself even more which is a. sign that I need to work harder to change how i view myself and what I aspire to be. (Ie accepting my place an evil non-human creature)
>>41294139and yet you speak like a woman
>>41294166this is literally just u ocd postingwhat if you just top pondering if you're malebrained or fembrained if you're post-everything it really doesnt matter at all, you are a woman because you look like one
>>41294166you're almost the same as me minus the geopolitics and the feminine outfits. No wonder I always got bullied. But yeah women are very hostile to any perceived NLOG behavior. You can get away with an unusual interest or two. The moment you start piling those up and there's no connection between you and the circle of women in your entourage they're going to other you even if they're going to pretend that's not the case. Learned this the hard way. But if it makes you feel better, it's something that can be faked to a degree and not something exclusive to transwomen.
>>41294178Everytime I have another empty interaction with a cis woman, I can't help but to think about this.The root of the issue is that every so often I'll start thinking of myself as a women, then I'll notice all the ways in which I'm not like any women beyond my surgically sculpted body (usually after talking to a woman and failing to connect) and then feel like I'm failing to meet the standards Ive set myself, and the standards other people expect of me.Besides even if my body fools people, I'm sure that people are suspicious, just liitle things like the way I laugh or how I move my eyes is bound to give me away on an intuitive level.Really the only way I'll ever be able to accept myself as a women is if I go full hikki or something, which I literally did for the last year and that was the only relief I had from this self loathing. But now I need to go back into the real world and it's horrible.
waaaaah my life is a fucking joke IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW!!!!!!! JUST A MENTALLY ILL THIRD GENDER FAGGOT
I'm a worthless subhuman I should kms
almost nobody here can relate because I'm one of the few unlucky giga moid brained agp eunuchs. who failed to change their inner world to a feminine one
