When did you realize that you were a gay homosexual?
Everyone realizes they are gay often subconsciously before deciding to call themselves “trans”
>>41322312i watched gay porn at 9 yrs old
>>41322312high school. it took me a while to realize i liked dudes, and a little longer after that to realize i wasnt actually into women. i remember being quite early in my teens and being fascinated by a female POV video where you see the woman's perspective as a hot guy fucks her. its the first porn i went back and rewatched multiple times, probably should have known that meant something was up lol
>>41322312I don't think I'm gay but I always wanted my first kiss to be with a man and it was sooo. I felt like that since like 8 or 9
>>41322312When I got to that point of liking trannies but seriously disliking trannies that have the operation, and then in order to stop that from happening to me anymore I just started dating femfags that like crossdressing a lot and are flamers and then that evolved into me accepting I'm a top and just don't like masculine men.
I honestly forgot when exactly.I think I saw gay stuff at... ugh.. between 13-15 years of age, then I was about one or two years in denial.
Really complicated story full of denial and repression but when I was 25 I realized I had no romantic feelings for my then GF and no desire to have sex with her, and it had been the same with every GF and hookup with a girl i had-- it felt disgusting. I broke up with her and decided I would rather be celibate for life than date women. But I knew I liked men long before that, I could tell as early as ge 10-11 that I had sexual arousal toward male bodies that did not arise toward female bodies. I had very homophobic parents though so repression was a question of how, not if.Processing that I was an AGP tranny took several more years and did not happen easily. It's a little more complicated then that though because although I am primarily attracted to men I have some kind of meta attracted slight bisexual thing where I like looking at female bodies and I am interested in booking up with other trans women occasionally.
>>41323077I always like hearing stories like this! I am glad when cock loving chasers can own up to being gay and get to un-repress and come out and then stop like going apeshit about other trans women getting SRS.Now that you've realized you're gay would you only fuck non HRT cis twinks or would you still fuck a trans woman if she was some level of medically transitioned? Is there any difference? Which type would you say you physically prefer?
I was asexual because of trauma til i was 17 and it was literally revealed to me in a dream. Was cringy because i actually thought i kissed my best friend forreal but after telling him, I realized my schizo mind construed my dream as a memory
At the beginning of this year. I tried dating women, but found that my role in the relationships felt performative and led to disassociation. I tried dating men at the beginning of this year, and found it quite enjoyable. I've always preferred male company, but I suppose the big apprehension I had was around intimacy. I had no idea how I'd react to sex with men, turned out it was pretty cool. I find most women's moral character to be repugnant, so kinda glad that cock wasn't a turn-off for me. I fell hard for my ex-boyfriend and that's when I realized that I couldn't go back to dating women, kind of a shame I fucked that relationship up by coming out as trans, just to continue boymoding on hrt without any foreseeable plan to socially transition but hey, you learn from your mistakes.
>>41322312Going on walk with ex friend twinkButterfly lands on my noseFrom that moment on I was gayWas entirely straight prior sort of
in like kindergarten but i kept trying to convince myself i wasnt
>>41322312when i saw that tripfag wink at me and blow me a kiss with their big beautiful brown eye and the warm breeze kissed my face.
>>41325407pikachu and disco dork was their name
>>41324332I'm in a weird place where I heavily prefer males than have feminine mannerisms and features, so I don't mind if they're on hrt (which many twinks are on anyway these days to avoid twink death) and I still like breasts. I'd say i'm less of a cock loving chaser and more of vaginas are repulsive avoider.I've only got my personal experience to go on so I don't preach it like its a wider truth or anything but I've had long term relationship with three post op trannies and none of them were happy with their vaginas (and I really wasn't either). They looked like a crude copy of a real one, smelled worse than a real one (which is impressive in itself) and obviously lacked the functionality. It just seems like a lot of hassle and risk for something that doesn't really deliver. I know there are some really impressive surgeons out there now that can do amazing things but the reality is that most trannies are very poor, plus never have the ideal early transition to give the docs the right material to work with. At the end of the day if a chaser has a preference from trans women at all then how can he ever be straight? its just another kind of gay
>>41322312tranny here but i rmbr kissing my male classmate in the washroom during 2nd grade and another time during 6th when he pressed his lips against a sheet of laminated paper xdd.
>>41326533First off, it seems like you're trying to have your cake and eat it too saying you prefer cock but also trans vagina is worse than cis vagina. But you don't date cis girls and find their vaginas disgusting too I assume so it doesn't sound like you're a completely reliable narrator, it sounds like part of you still has internalized the repression around being gay and is engaging in blame shifting e.g. "it's not that I don't like vaginas it was just the SRS vagina" because I also dated women when I was a repressing tranny and had vaginal disgust and I don't feel i was entirely honest with myself, i bet the trans women you dated would feel you misrepresented your sexuality just like the cis women I dated did.As for the SRS issues... I think a lot of standard issue PIV operations can have those problems. Thankfully I am going to a surgeon where most of the canal is peritoneal tissue and a depth of 5.5 inches is all but guaranteed, as well as a surgeon known for good aesthetics. so hopefully it goes well. My boyfriend is bisexual, all I can do is pray it's good enough for him.
30fuck my retarded chungus life
>>41322312future trunks’ introduction in dbz when I was 6 years old, I thought I’d eventually be attracted to women too at some point but thats been pretty rare maybe like 2 or 3 women have grabbed my eye
>>41322312No idea. I didn’t remember anything until I went back in my childhood journals in my mid 20s and found an entry that said more or less verbatim “I’m afraid I might be gay, but I’m just going to be one of those people that represses it and has a normal family and is normal” when I was 11.I made it to 25, and then I did not pass go and went directly to troon. So I guess by 11 even though I don’t remember it.
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>>41322312I suspected in my teens but reasoned that I was bi. It wasn't until I had gay sex that it was like "Holy shit, this is amazing"
>>41322312after googling "girls peeing" on my moms laptop at 6 years old
>>41326783Not really saying its worse, I'm more saying in my experience trans vagina doesn't really match up with a cis one. And from a self centred perspective the rewards aren't worth the costs of it. By that I mean the emotional trauma and physical side effects a surgery like that has on a partner. Only one of the women I was with was still happy to have had SRS done despite all the post op problems she had and it not in any way alleviating her mental health issues like she was told it would. I would say I misrepresented my sexuality with one partner. By saying trans women are women ( and I do believe this in a way in that I treat a transwomen whether I know them or not with respect and refer to them as they present) and that I'm still 100% straight being with a trannie. However its like a massive delusion to pretend that a guy that has an exclusive preference for trans women only is "straight". She was as deluded as I was. I wish you well with your SRS and I hope it delivers everything you want. It sounds like you've gone the right route and not gone with an NHS surgeon. They truly are butchers.
>>41322312When I first sucked a dick consensually and realized I enjoyed it even though I hated the person it was attached to. Same thing with anal. Don't get me wrong, I could be happy with a woman that liked pegging me and let me blow huge gocks on the side occasionally, but my ideal partner would be a cute mtf that was firmly a switch. I've already had multiple children and fulfilled the biological imperative my parents foisted upon me, and I do love all of them, but any more I'm just a huge faggot for the most part. It's not such a bad existence and frankly the suicidal depression is more a result of how I was raised and general society than me liking chicks with dicks.
>>41327336I really wish breeders we’re banned on sight from here like under 18s.
>>41324332NTA but I would absolutely still fuck a trans woman that was some level of medically transitioned as long as she still had her gock and preferably her balls, although I'm cool with the ladies that have had an orchi. I really don't have a problem with the chicks that have had their outies turned into innies but it's just not for me desu. I actually do still very much enjoy vag even if it belongs to a man, and really the overall most important factor during sex to me is that I'm more masc than whoever I'm fucking whether they're male or female trans or cis. If it's not overwhelmingly apparent that I could kill them at will I don't want them. Thankfully about 99% of humanity falls into that category. For what it's worth I'm a switch and that same rule applies for anyone topping me. If it's not something I'm allowing to happen, it's not going to happen. But I'm at a point where srs'sies don't squick me out anymore even if I don't understand or appreciate it sexually. And that's okay!
