I want to detrans. Boobs make me feel weird and shots every week till I die is hard. But I am going to freak out if my hair starts falling out. I don't want to be a man or a genetic abomination. I wish I never started and just internalized the disphoria better. Anyone in a similar situation want to vent
>>41322708>shots every week till I die is hardyou're lucky you don't have diabeteslots of people have to take injections more often than you do, or they'll literally die
>>41325727>>41325736u guys are gonna bully me into continuing T_T
>>41326046Just do your injections, it takes less than 5 minutes
>>41326057Ive been doing it for 2 years and Im not socially transitioning, so Im kinda just growing boobs and taking shots every week to curb aging in a way I dont like?And what if the world ends and I run out of injections D:
>>41326102You can just choose to socially transition at any point. If the world ends you can still detransiton then rather than doing it now for no real reason. Or you can stockpile enough hrt for the rest of your life, its not that expensive with injections
>>41326102People have been saying the world is gonna end soon for 2000+ years and we're still here. I've lost count of how many raptures I've lived through. Also, you can drive yourself crazy whatif'ing over everything >what if grasshoppers had machine guns?!?
>>41322708>>41325736this and also you can just buy undecylate. i do my injections monthly. 12 injections per year is barely an inconvenience
>>41326433>undecylatewhere do u even get that ive never seen it for sale anywhere
>>41326514astrovials and voix celeste sell it in europe. pretty sure open gate makes it too in america
>>41326433>undecylatewtf do you get good levels with this? and at the end of the month? I went from Ev to Een just cause its longer halflife
>>41322708basedtho my fell out decades before this shit, i can newer ever pass unlike you retard intersex-looking freakit's dysphoria btw. internalize and tell the twinkloving "totally" cis chasers that want to rail you later.
>>41326525>do you get good levels with this?yeah, when i switched i started on 40mg/month which is on the high side just to be safe, because my previous EEn was giving me really poor levels for some reason. my bloodwork came back at 350pg/ml at trough, i lowered the dose since then.i do my injections on the last day of the month, easy to remember. at such a large interval you don't even really need to keep track of your injection spots to rotate them, i just pick a spot wherever on a random leg and check for any lumps and inject
>>41326123Its just vain at a certain point!! Im 27 anon! I shoulda just learned to deal with twinkdeath like an adult x_x>>41326368I overthink too much and thats definitely what makes me want to stop. I just think about, all the trash Im making with these shots, how I could be hurting my natural hormonal system, how the gov could literally prosecute me for being trans. Blehchchchhhh
>>41322708injection isn’t hard tho it’s literally fun
>>41326699i KNOW its not hard its just intense to have ur entire hormonal system rely on if you stab urself with drugs
>>41322708If you are having doubts then you should postpone transition. I paused transition a year ago, and still sporadically take hrt but I'm basically fully detransitioned at this point.
>>41326770>still sporadically take hrtWhy? Im in a similar situation and keep having mixed feelings
>>41326737yea but like ok?would u acc rather be a man?
>>41326824because I feel like it helps me mentally. at least, when I'm in a depressive episode it can sometimes get me out of a funk. Sometimes it makes things worse though, so it's not like its a miracle drug. Not sure if it actually does or it's placebo. Have one vial from when I detransed over a year ago.
but it's been awhile and I'm just trying to get through this depressive episode on my own and think I'm gonna try anti-depressants. up to you. you gotta choose your own path in life. only you know what you want
>>41326914>you gotta choose your own path in life. only you know what you wantreal
>>41322708im lowkey having the same feelings after 1 year and a few months, but then I remember how I felt under a man, and I don't know, it felt like a golden cage, now this is also weird because Im not out socially, so it feels like another type of cage. Im having constant doubts but I'm not able to stop which is very weird, then I remember when I look at myself in the mirror and all. I was also kinda culture shocked when I visited Japan and saw all these effeminate men, but then I realized I was just jealous of how small they are not their actual care free clothes. Idk if that makes any sense but yea
>>41327535>but then I remember how I felt under a man, and I don't know>it felt like a golden cage, now this is also weird because Im not out socially, so it feels like another type of cage.God yeah I relate. Its like deciding between my self esteem or feeling comfortable with my actions to achieve that. Neither of which Im truly comfortable with. I still get extremely jealous and bitter when I see other trans people and women in general.
>>41322708HRT OR DIE
>>41329220we die anyways nona
>>41326102This is why i have a compounded self supply of estrogen for 300y lolThank you Xi
>>41330052Does it expire or lose potency at some point?
>>41330052im too stupid for that. Also yeah does it go bad ever?
>>41322708gluteal intermuscular injection supremacy
>>41330801how do you sit
>>41322708I detrans then a few years later retransed, because society makes you feel like shit doesn’t mean you are shit. Can you see yourself happy as a man? Or do you just think you will be more comfortable if you repress?
>>41330987>Can you see yourself happy as a manNo. My mom gave me a lot of her trauma with men and that made me feel horrible/disgusted with myself as a male and doing anything seen under the light of being "male". Being put in a box where my behavior is seen as a product of my sex makes me want to swiftly kill myself. Not in a dramatic way, but in a way to just acknowledge that, yeah, I can't be anything other than a male and I can't change how that affects people's perception of me and my behavior. >Or do you just think you will be more comfortable if you repressI think it will make me feel less like a liar at the very least. Or less vain. But it comes with its own mental anguish of decaying like a man. And having a male libido always made me feel so insecure/gross with myself but I probably do have genuine trauma when it comes to sexuality. I shoulda went to a therapist yesrs ago but even now, I dont know where I'd even start to talk about my problems.
>>41331051I’d say you probably shouldn’t detrans, it sounds more like the reason you want to detrans is fear of bigotry deep down. If you detrans you will probably regret it a few years later and feel like you lost time.
enjoy your baldness and beard stubble retard lol
