green apple editionPrevious thread: >>41318084QOTT: has anyone ever seen the real you once you let them in?
>>41327125>QOTTthere is no "real me"
there's no such thing as real, authentic self hidden awayyou can only be who you are at a given moment
>>41327113i hate passflation. i hate being a moid.
>>41327125no because i lie to everyone about everything especially myself
i told my wife that an offhanded comment she made to me a year ago when i first started trying to voice train demoralized me to the point of not training or trying until recently and she started crying and it made me feel really guilty so no i sequester my pain and discomfort so others may live more comfortably
>>41327125yea i cant hide it well even with strangers
mY WIFE?MY WIFE MY WIFE MY WIFE MY WIFE MY WIFE MY WIFE?YOUR WIFE?
>>41327222it hurts when the words of those you love turn into knivesit feels like i have no right to complain
>>41327232mah wife!
yep it's heroin(fent) time
>>41327232yes i'm a married moder>>41327239she wasn't even trying to be mean and what she had said basically amounted to a comment on how i sounded. its just that i was really trying you know like i knew it sounded bad and i knew i didn't want to sound like that but i couldn't change it. it made me so mad at how i let my body get to this point. it made me frustrated that i had to put in work to sound slightly less masculine and that i wasn't even doing a good job at that. voice training is just another thing i have to deal with because i'm a tranny and her comment when she said it was just too much at the time. i feel bad that i mad her feel bad. i'd rather have kept that to myself i think but i can't change the past so this life.
we can have a little fetty, as a treat
god I love weed I'm such a retarded stoner. is being a stoner malebrained?
its retardbrained
>>41327370hehe im a stupid retard
me too
weeds great because being sober is hell
i switched from een to ec and my face masculinized to how i looked prehrt if i dont look normal after switching back i will kill myself
i just want a fucking hug sometimes i don’t even need someone around all the time
best i can do is call you faggot
shawty gon let me suck
I want a boyfriend I want a boyfriend I want a boyfriend I want a boyfriend I want a boyfriend I want a boyfriend
behead those with better measurements than me
>>41327780i look like this
>>41327804no way I don't believe you
>>41327560i look like this
>>41327818estrogen cannot unmoid me, i'm too powerful
>>41327125>obligatory, still don't really know what a manmoder really is... I just like the pic, and now i'm going to go cook something smaller to curry. Looks like good food. ^_^
>>41327845please fuck me
>>41327873gay nigga
called myself female in a phone poll and gave my girl name when some rando outside the bar i saw a concert at asked me my name, neither thought i was anything but a stupid tranny i’m sure
>>41327125Imagine his disgusting tranny farts during anal sex after eating this LARPer slop
>>41327863PooF! Food!!!
fakemoders mocking actual hons
>>41328194mmm i'm imagining *sniiiifff*
i hate myself. every time j take prog i look worse and i keep trying to take it
i hate youngshitsi HATE passoidsi hate myselfi hate cissoidsi hate immigrantsi love stephen miller
>>41328207i can’t even call myself a hon, because hons actually attempt to present fem, i just look. like a man
>>41328259hons tend to mog me
i hate my life so much abd ffs will only make it worse bc i will go from masc-fem twink to ugly round face man
>>41327125>QOTT
being old kinda sucks
i dislike my life
If I start HRT realistically how long would it take for breast growth to be noticeable? How long could I realistically man/boymode for
>>41328338>6 months>forever
>>41328338if youre me then forever
>>41328338>man SLASH boykys
>>41328043yeah, I know. now lemme see that dick
what if FFS gets rid of my natural masc-spec androgyny and i end up looking like a blob without defining characteristics. what if im capable of aap maxxing and i just dont know it and then after ffs i go insane because i cant be a man or a woman
>>41328463I lowkey plan on aap androgynymaxxing and getting tight and toned post ffs so I can have an attractive twink (male) body with a pretty passing face to silence the dysphoria demons probably just my brickhon ass coping though
>>41328463youll be fine
>>41328513this will be me in five years i fear
>>41328534if youre afraid of it then stop posting here
>>41328540but where would i go to complain about being a man
>>41328554real life
the one person who replied to me in cipg said i’m not doomed. do i have to switch to boymoder general?
i have massive dad calves and have since i was like 12, do i kms?
nooo haha your so sexy
i spend all day on mmg, of course i’m not sexy
>>41328608yea
i ruined my life by not looking in a losing weight and starting hrt and now im too old and im mummified
do you think its worth getting into making your own alcohol for alcoholic reasons or do i just stick with buying it
if i was a youngshit i would undetectable HIV and a husband
>>41328648it can be fun, also can detract people away from your alcoholism. however i would recommend just sticking to store bought if your goal is to be the ultimate alcoholic.
>>41328640damn :( i really like you girls
>>41328625if the thought is even crossing your mind, you should do it now before it's too late and you look back in the future and wish you had done it sooner.
>>41328659no you don't
>>41328661why would anybody wish they killed themselves sooner what difference does it make
>>41328679if I would've killed myself during puberty like I wanted to I wouldn't have gone through it completely
>>41328687when youre dead it wont matter
>>41328694maybe one day I will lose 6 inches of height somehow :/
>>41328699maybe one day the growth plates in your pelvis will unfuse and you will wake up looking identical to a cis woman
>>41328679>why would anybody wish they killed themselves sooner what difference does it makeless net time living your miserable life.
im so ugly and masculine and my body is disgusting
>>41328701yeah :P I'm waiting for that
my body is so male
So long story short I went to the gay club and I had a few more drinks and then my first makout session with a RIPPED man. Holy fuck male muscles and skin feel amazing! Like fucking steel and you can just kiss it and mwah I'm so gay I love y'all goodnight
im so ugly
Why does male attention feel so incredibly good? I love men I love cock sorry not sorry I'm a faggot
why did I rep until 19
I started HRT at 23 and it's not okay sybau ur gonna get a bf and be happy cause all you need is one person that gets you nona
manmoders belong to girlmoders
>>41328988only a gay boyfriend because of my body
>>41328988starting hrt at 18 or at 50 makes no difference
>>41329103except hip growth and body hair and face structure and shoulder width and breast growth and hairline and skin texture and
>>41329153but you're wrong
>>41329169no but actually youre wrong
>>41329178growth plates are in most cases solidified by age 18
i will do nothingand i will be happy
i NEED ffs
I asked someone if I have broad or narrow shoulders and they refused to tell meis this a good or a bad thing
they said I have broad shoulders
>>41329153only thing you can save post puberty with hrt is the hairline, which is easily fixed by a wig anyways
>>41329391hot
>>41329399I knowI NEED a cis gay boyfriend to compliment my shoulders
>>41329421hey
>>41329428not dating a tranny
I can deal with having a male body without killing myself but having a male face is just too cruel
yall a bunch of bitch made niggas on god
>>41329736what does this mean
what's a video game that I could spend hundreds of hours on
>>41329736I can't say that cuz I'm white but yes you are right probably
>>41329744Snow Daze The Music of Winter
I don't remember june ever posting his face
>>41329849i posted alot pre-ffs but it's been like 2 years
what does it feel like to get ffs and still be posting in mmg. I'm getting ffs soon and I won't pass so I'm trying to prepare myself
>>41329857do you pass now?
>>41329881idk i cant feel anything
>>41329744soon
>>41329887same
mmg, why is life so lame and unenjoyable
has anyone heard from jaina as of friday
will I ever pass
watching gcs fight about whether its the evil controlling bitch wife transing her cucksband or whether the husband is skinwalking his wife trying to become her and eventually murder her. why is everyone so insane now?
it's so lonely being the only true manmoder in existence
back on the COYAs again
she just misses rubbing her brow bone like how all men would
is detrans midshit x manmoder lateshit the perfect pairing?
>>41330015cause you're a tranny. just a few abnormally wired/developed nerons seperate you from other males. they're out there having their best life and you're ruining yours.t. professional projector
>>41330452>>41330469mogs me
>>41329377if they think you are male they might be afraid hurting your feelings because having narrow shoulders as a heterosexual man is often deemed undesirableand the other way around if they deem you to be female>>41329421i am cis gay but on estrogen (and have a boyfriend) but i would still compliment your shoulders (homo)i doubt they are broader than mine though. i'm less tall than my bf but i still think my shoulders (if only considering the skeleton) are broader than his despite me being a bottom
>>41330511the men i see outside dont look like they are enjoying life unless they are teenagers
>>41330549>if they think you are malethey doidk my shoulders are average for a manbut if I lost weight (lost muscle around them) they could look better
how do i cope
how would A Pimp Named Slickback treat a manmoder?
i look really cute (as a guy) and for that reason im reluctant to get ffs
>>41330039yeah he died of obesity
>>41327125I'm not transgender but I know this OP photo is just taken from TKMIZ's twitter. Read shimeji simulation if you haven't basically.
i forgot to out on deodorant
>>41328661>everyone should immediately act on the first suicidal urge they feelare you fucking stupid?
>>41330039maybe there is no one here I'm just scared
she’s dead.
do you know that or are you just being cruel? I know this is an extremely cruel place
musky manmoder armpits
this is an evil gen
we are men and men are intrinsically evil
i NEED to kill myself
am i faketrans for never having watched tranny porn?
I NEED A BOYFRIEND
i would like a girlfriend i think
I would like to fellate a male genital and have it ejaculate semen into my bodily orifices at present
>>41331576you have such a way with words
I am autistic so stilted speech is part of my character build
accidentally detransitioned award
>>41331700well it's hot
had to stop talking to my friends because one of them kept talking about their romances
man up, two of my best friends are dating each other and i deal with it
cuck
>getting mogged by technology toob
im not a cuck
I'm taking a manmoder bubble bath tonight
>>41331342that was me earlier but now they smell like cucumber dove
I'm out of edibles now :(
>>41329744warframe (lol)
dubs and i go buy weed
rerolling for you
>>41332100best scent btw
I like rosemary ginger
weed is fakemoders manmoders smoke k2 and develop 5 mental illnesses
>>41332199does this count??? should i cop /b/ros
I was addicted to HHC for 1.5 years
>>41332238you must
weed general
just fuck my retard incel manmoding life
singles and i eat pringles
>>41332257I decided against it
>>41327125this looks disgustingt. autist
>>41332300you're supposed to burn a guess or two to find out which consonant goes first :(
>>41332410i let my arrogance best me...
>>41332420happens to the best of us
>>41332365sorry it's not dino nuggies
im soooo ugly
>>41332365enjoy your protein blocks
where could i post my measurements and get an honest review/opinion on if i can ever pass or not
>>41332595grayoasis or you can ask me
>>41332605
>>41332613uh, wow. lol.
it's bad...
>>41332637what does that mean
>>41332613GO ON A DIET YOU FAT BITCH
>>41332613how is 16.5 bideltoid and a 36.5 underbust even possible. are you sure you measured right?
If I get quads I'll wake up tomorrow and pass
>>41332613this you?
>>41332649i try..>>41332658circumference
interesting build...
>>41332660roll
>>41332676you musg have done something wrong
Here's mine>5'10.5>135 lbs>17 bideltoid>32 ub>27 waist>34 hips
>>41332676maybe your ribcage wouldnt be so disproportionately wide if you werent FAT
>>41332660>>41332689lmao the post numbers arent random you got like another hour for quads
>thank you autist
>>41332710real niggas dont look at the post numbers before they roll
>>41332702fuck off asshole
>>41332702fuck my asshole
these are actually my measurements... I posted a pic yesterday and was told it's overI'm not assuming this is good...
>>41332702mine is basically like that but im 5'6 :(i should lose weight maybe i will get better measurements then
>>41332702fuck my wife's asshole
>>41332739welcome to the coven brother
>>41332664thank you for confirming ingmi but why laugh at me>>41332692why which measurement makes no sense? i look ridiculous 42cm shoulders breath and 92cm circ underbust
i misread my blood tests and bought dutasteride because i thought my DHT was high bc i forgot to convert the units and turns out my DHT is actually cis women tier low. im a dumb retard. what i do with 90 pills of dutasteride now. should i take like one or two per week just bc i bought then and already lost 70 reais in that thing
>>41332756take all of them NOW
bake a cake with them and go around handing it out to bald men. Don't tell them what's inside just that they have to pay 10 bucks for any subsequent pieces. Profit?
>>41332710chances of waking up and passing were 0% to begin with
>>41327125A couple times. Only one ever actually stuck with me, and that was after fighting for months and nearly dying. I will not make that mistake again.
>people take a picture of me>top heavy, big skull, shapeless lumpy hair, no hips, weird shirt fit from breasts and fat tummy, dry skin, beard shadow despite 12 sessions of laserkms
I could've written this reply myself
my body is unbelievably masculine
I am oozing masculinity out of every pore of my body
>>41332765wouldnt that kill me....>>41332768LMAO good one. i was thinking of selling it to someone who needs for a smaller price just to try get a few bucks back buuuuut i dont know how. i should send a message on the ~boys group chat to see if someone would be interested in that
>212 replies and not a single interesting thing said
kill yourself
>>41332888what do you mean you don't care about measurements or some tripshit's dht levels
i need to stop being impulsive. i saw my blood tests and spent the whole day yesterday on subreddits about hair loss and etc. then i made a order to buy duta. then i start to cry a lot because i thought i was going to become bald. then just hours later i took a second look on the blood tests and saw my mistake. but it was too late to cancel the order p.p
I am bald
>>41332930Take some Tylenol to increase your autism then you will notice these details better
holy shit i look SO diagusting it’s over. SO DISGUSTING and somehow i looked better on 1 year of hondosing than i after two years of injections kms
I should start injecting research chemicals I bought too many syringes
i hate myself so much i ruined my own life by repping i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself
Love yourself in a hateful way
>>41332987No it’s over. im legitimately worthless. im a worthless human
Me too
>>41332945hey ive been to many many doctors and no one suggested me i was autistic even tho i suffer a bit from toewalking p.p
yes that was obvious from your reply. I am merely suggesting that you start being more autistic at will
>>41333001toewalker solidarity!! i’ve also never had a doctor suggest i might have autism, but i have had a bunch of random people ask if i was, so who knows
it’s over im done trying
cypionate doesn't work on me so i've basically been detransitioning for five months might kill myself
>>41333074like desu i wont be surprised if somehow im a bit autistic, yeah people joke about that about me too, but like really ive been through MANY therapists psychologists and psychiatrists and no one asked me about that so who knows lmao maybe im just a bit weird and thats ok!!!
ffs and lose 30 pounds, if im not happy with how i look well then
I haven't taken a picture of myself in months it's just too painful. I don't care about logging my "progress" anymore
>>41333148i’ve had very little experience with therapists and the like actually. my brother and i had to go to a therapist for a bit when my parents divorced, but other than that i’ve kinda just stayed away. i feel like i could probably use some sort of mental health professional, but the thought of seeking it out is just not for me. especially since i’m unemployed so i’d have to ask my mom to pay for therapy, which is kinda humiliating
I got a pooner therapist wrongly thinking that he would actually relate to my trans experience but he was literally retarded
good morning, i hate Jewish people
racist
THEY'RE the ones who are racist.
>>41333250i think therapists are very good when you're not feeling well but dont know why or how to solve it. or if you're stressed and etc. if you know whats messing with your head and you know how to solve it i think you just need to start acting on that issue
I've never seen a therapist
yelled at the only people who love me and called them horrible names because i felt a little ugly award
>i think therapists are very goodretard alert
gooned the day away award
>>41333806imagine being able to do thatt. have a long refractory period and low sex drive
>>41333821its mostly about edging so you dont nut and can extend it out. although i might goon some more because eh i dont really wanna do anything else today now.
sometimes I take pictures of myself and then use microsoft paint to "shave" off my ugly ass chin and jaw with a black marker
manmoders must be sex negative
im sex neutral do what you want just dont post pictures of it
I GOT FACIAL BONE GROWTH BECAUSE I INJECTED FROM A BAD VIAL FOR SIX MONTHS AND NOW I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF
?
The other day I posted myself in a passgen and one of the responses I got was "foh foid". What does this mean? Ive been stuck thinking about this for days now
>>41333870Im sorry what?
>>41333876why are you posting in my thread foh you dumb fucking passoid
>>41333876surely you’re posting from a phone or computer or some such internet connected device? it’s not that hard to do your own research
>>41333884Because I'm a manmoder?
>>41333888Yeah ive found what foid means, but I cant figure out what foh means
i dont have sex never will
>>41333890i literally fucking hate you histrionic bitch
>>41333897teach a man to fish ect. not doing the research for you
>>41333890post your large boobs
>>41333903Im literally just trying to get clarification on internet lingo that I dont understand.
>>41333897"fuck outta here" = leave
I'm a balding middle-aged man with A-cup breasts.
>>41333963kys
>>41333959nobody cares because the first piece of lingo makes it obvious you don't belong here, now leave
>>41333964same
also it wasn't a passgen it was cipgcan you read btw?
my brother almost purple nurpled me while i’m wearing a fucking sports bra and baggy shirt >,< manmoding is hell
>>41333975why :(
apparently he can’t or use critical thinking either
iwmbaw
saw some crazy fatspo at the corner store and to think I almost bought snacks, God truly is looking out for her most devout trvemoders
>mever
i need to lose weight
its mover
slenderman
mi mill mever me ma moman fuck you
I am so fucking tired of fakemoders GET OUTTT GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT GET IUT GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT
>>41334111this
>every picture someone posts is themme when i am a toddler
>>41334095bitch get your emaciated ass a cookie
>>41334001I can read but for all purposes it was the same thing and I thought I didnt pass so I posted a picture there wondering if I could
>>41334111I am God's most delusional fakemoder >say goodbye to coworker and to have a good night >thanks you too hon :)
i hate my body so much
going back to gooning night /mmg/
>>41334140whatcha gooning to anon?
>see a candid photo of myself>year ruined
>>41334145Skill issue lol
>>41334154i hate you so much
>>41334143see >>41330326
>>41334163hate you too worstie <3
I NEED A RHINOPLASTY AAAAAAA
>>41334208Post face. Im sure its not that bad nona :)
>>41334208a trans woman without her original nose is like an angel without her wings
>>41334132i used to only get called sweetie and hon in public and then estrogen stopped working :/
>>41334145every fucking time. i’ve always hated every picture of myself, but the last few years i swear i look even worse
>>41334287here's a (not so secret) secret I'm gonna share with you: it's not gender dysphoria, as much as it's just you aging, you are going to look worse as the years go on, such is life, stop comparing yourself to youngshits.
>>41334276are you a big strong man now?
>>41334320all the fat left my face and my chin grew and im bricked now
>>41334324post chin
>>41334276why does estrogen stop working? is it the masculinity shining through? cortisol?
>>41334333my facial hair is growing back thicker too i love having to shave every day againunsee cc/album#lx4Z6zkz7Ljgit is beyond over
boymoder
>>41334366picrel is from a writeup by dr will powersif youre retarded estrogen just doesnt work for you
cogs me
tfw crying again
>>41334504never mailfailed btw
>>41334492You look beautiful anon
>>41334492mogs me to death
hugboxed once again
>>41334698oh shut up and accept the compliment
my new gloss makes me want kiss myself :(
do i keep taking hrt
injection time! i’ve gotta find/buy a new sharps container, thanks to switching to pods years ago there’s no bottle of detergent for me to use once it’s empty :/
>>41334829yes ygmi :3
i just throw my needles and shit on the floor in the corner desu
>>41334841no one here is gmi
>>41334866i’ll probably throw them in my drawer where the rest of my injection shit is in the meantime, but i’d like a more permanent, less messy solution sooner rather than later. thankfully, they’re capped individual needles so there shouldn’t be any poking risk
>>41334895stop being so bitter
bittermoder general
/bmg/
if you aren't bitter you don't belong here
rubbed my shit raw again award
anyone else rly enjoy mens fashion faggotry
nope
kmsing myself
>>41335196baka my head
>half of my camera roll are selfiesoh uh
bump
i have like 3 selfies of myself and they only exist so that i can document what i look like for dooming purposes
>>41335624So you look good?