Late night editionQott:have you gotten out of boymode then regressed back in?
>>41328824>QOTT; no, never. i will boymode untill i die
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>>41328824I haven't started transitioning yet but my plan is to manmode professionally forever. Unless I'm forced to stop by growing giant boobs or something.
>>41328824hey 'modersI have never left boymode and never will. But one time I wore women's jeans out.
>>41330415Ooh yeah, I forgot to say in>>41330385that luckily I work in a field where being a bit faggy is accepted if not a bit of a boon. So I will be incorporating a lot more feminine touches into my manmode and let people assume I'm just transitioning to faggot.
>>41330464What kind of field is that?
>>41330468libraries. It's like 80% woman, 30% gay
>>41330484Ohhhh I see. Do you work at a regular public library, or a university one? Or purrhaps a specialist one like a law library?
>>41330490Behind the scenes at a public library system in a US city.
>>41328824I honmoded the other day but I felt like a freak, so I'll prob keep boymoding for a little while longer
>>41328824>qottI'm too scared to ever try presenting fem so boymode forever it is :c
I have girlmoded when out with a few close friends, but it's been nerve wracking. And I'm at my least passable for now; I think I can pass but only with enough effort, I couldn't if I just wore a T-shirt and jeans or whatever.I hear a fair amount of hateful jokes at my job so I probably won't come out there ever, just change jobs. But at my university, people leave you alone and they also just seem more liberal. But I don't want to come out there until I have a better wardrobe and hopefully my body is more visibly feminine and my voice is more natural to me and more passable, so the whole thing is less nerve-wracking and takes less effort hopefully.So in a way, I'm kind of dipping my toes in the water but overwhelmingly still a boymoder.
boymoding otday
>>41328824gf forced me to girlmode fulltimeand now i'm legally a woman, so it would be kinda weird if i boymoded again ...it would still be doable though. just put baggy clothes on and grow out or cut my hair, cuz my current bangs are too femi'd probably still look like a really fem guy, but people go off voice if they can't see obvious tits>>41330385get on hrt anon, it helps your mental health a lot>>41330639just boymode until you start seeing a girl in the mirrorand pls for the love of god don't be like me and voicetrain, having a good girlvoice is like 60% of passing>>41330680good job <3 ^-^how long are you on hrt?it gets a lot easier with time, i felt like i reached peaked when i was 10 months on hrt but it really just keeps slowly getting betternow 15 months on hrt and i'm starting to like my body and face much more again_________________________________do you girls have any hobbies or projects you've been working on? with the help of my gf i've been toying with a cute obscure tiny 2002 laptop (screen is only 6.4", but high res 1024x768)i'm upgrading/repairing it and trying to make it somewhat usable in modern daycustom battery replacement, new paint job, cpu repaste, hdd currently replaced with a microsd, planned custom power source for an ssd, custom-made usb-c power source
>>41331827>just boymode until you start seeing a girl in the mirror it's just really hard to convince myself I don't look like a total creep. I've worn a crop like one time and I was hammered and still nervous as fuck.>and pls for the love of god don't be like me and voicetrainIve only ever tried a few times but I really should more. finding motivation is hard :(
>>41328824>qottnope, i’ve just stuck to boymode this whole time.
>>41328824>qottnope, been a boymoder for what is approaching way too long but i don’t see it ending till ffs. maybe that makes me a manmoder but people say it takes up to 2 years to start passing so let me cope till then>>41330680progress is progress! >>41331827>shoelace is girlmodingtruly we live in a fair and just world
>>41331872desu i never really wear very feminine clothes so idki stick to women's jeans and t-shirts, mostly oversized, cause i only have a few nice female cutsso i end up with an andro-fem looki'd be nervous to wear anything too feminine too, it's difficult to style it in a way that looks nice and not babytranny>finding motivation is hardyeah i know u-u, it's why i'm stuck girlmoding with a fag voicesoo i usually either try to avoid talking or talk quietly ...just try to force yourself, you'll thank yourself later .. <3>>41332172> >shoelace is girlmoding > truly we live in a fair and just worldwhat does this mean >w<>maybe that makes me a manmoderi don't think not passing makes you a manmoderit's mostly about how old you look while boymodinghow are you doing otherwise?>>41331910why? :c
>>41331827never responded to your project but it’s really cool that you’re trying to restore and modernize an outdated laptop. even if it doesn’t work it’s good to have something to work towards and (probably) isn’t too expensive given its age>>41332553>what does this meani’m just happy you’re girlmoding. over the last few months we’ve slowly gotten updates from most of the others who used bmg and they generally are girlmoding or at least doing better. you were the only one i really wasn’t certain about so it’s nice to know you’re getting closer to being seen how you want to be seen>how are you doing otherwise pretty much the same as always for better or (mostly) worse. but i’m not losing hope till the 2 year mark and till i really put effort into girlmoding once to see how it goes. outside of this i’ve taken up one or two hobbies to make life more enjoyable and it has made life more enjoyable
>>41332553>whybecause i don’t pass and also live with a transphobic mom so i kinda can’t girlmode. i have a pair of short shorts that i’ve worn a few times, but only when she’s not around. i was wearing them with my friends who know i’m a tranny, and as soon as i heard her coming in (thankfully my dipshit friend locked the door which gave me time to react) i sprinted up to my room to put basketball shorts over them
>>41328824me on the right (effortmaxed girlmoder)vs you on the left (no effort boymoder)
>>41333253then why are you here?
>>41333260girlmoders like to make fun of us :(
ugh its been tooooo fucking long!!!!!!!!!!!! soon i need to present soon or ill go mad i still feel that secure feeling when i ask myself am i still trans and its been months im never getting off this ride even with the any/all cope. i would present every day if i had a way to move around. i have a car an no license
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not even close
>>41328824yeah, sometimes i doll up, usually for guys and when i know they want that experience. otherwise i'm gender neutral? even when im not wearing guys clothes. like all my girl clothes could plausibly be boy clothes.
>>41328824God gives his biggest boymoder the biggest tits I genuinely don't think anyone thinks I'm a boy anymore
>>41333253could you maybe give relevant effortmaxxing advice?>>41333326is that cause you want to exist in an androgynous zone or because you don’t think you pass enough to go full girlmode?>>41333366giwtwm
Someone shouldn't transition because they fear going bald or fear aging.>>41333366breasts are just the "are you sure"/ready checkbecause if you're not willing to grow knockers (or live as an embarrassing flattie) then you're not willing much to transition.
just looked back at some pics my mom had of me when i was still 14 and i first told her about my trans feelings and my shoulders were still so narrow. now im a 21 year old grown ass man starting hrt and i unironically got a BIACROMIAL of 43cm. it's looking grim, at least i'm not tall.
>>41333407You need to girlmode as much as possible to develop your style and skills. It is something that takes practice and time and can’t be done well overnight. That‘s why boymoding is a trap. You need to be doing as much as you can and leave your comfort zone a little. Wear at least 1 girly piece, apply make up, try on clothing in stores, ALWAYS use your girl voice to practice speaking with it etc.
>>41332956>project>picrel :3it is very expensive because of it's rarity and age q_qbut yeah i am having a lot of fun with it>girlmoding updatesi was kinda pushed into it by my gf and doctor, but yeah .. it does makes me a lot happier so i guess it was worth it, thank youi posted my transition timeline something like two months back i think i've missed updates from other girls and even noticed that some girlmoders went back to boymoding :c>i’m not losing hopei'm glad>life more enjoyable<3>>41333096>transphobic momunderstandable, i'm sorry :ci escaped my mum by moving into dorms and later eventually moving in w gfi hope you can figure out something too <3>>41333366>boobsgiwtwmmine are still pretty small, so i have to wear small fem cut shirts if i want them to be visible :ci just wanna go back to my big hoodies>>41333441thinking about old self is really ropefuel, so i try to just forget ...
