ate like 300 kcals in th past 2 days im shaking and my heart area kind aches but at least im a real woman ^_^
>>41334614Now go 4 days with only water and black coffee to drink pussy
>>41334614at this point just do fasts and enter autophagy sheeshstay hydrated take ur electrolytes nona
>>41334614judging by the number of fat women i see daily eating disorders are malebrainedeat something and take care of yourself, hoe
Eating disorders aren't feminine
it doesn’t last diva ur face is gonna be sunken in and ur hair and eyebrows r gonna fall out and ur gonna be striped up and ur skin will be melting and you’ll look like 4 years older than u actually are and your boobs will go away and then you’ll be like “omg i’m such a man and i need to kms” all over again
>>41335715dried up *
>>41334614now you should have a feast :3 and go back to eating like a normal person :D
>>41335715happened to me should i kill myself
>>41334614You're not a real woman and will never be, but keep it up. Nobody likes a fatty.
every time i see ame chan in this board i prepare to read the peak of mental retardation
>>41336153shes so silly and retarded i love her
>>41335715ok but at least im fembrained and skinny??? id happily die like this than be a gluttonous moid </3
>>41335978don’t do it sisterit happened to me and it fucked my hormones up but in recovering now its slowly starting to get better now hope is not lost you just need to love yourself and focus on positive things ok no self hating or at least to an extent. recovery is possible and it’s a mental effort. in order to refeminize yourself and get your body and life back u need to change from within first u can do it fr>>41336705i could assure ur delusions desu cus im deluded in the same way but idw and i dont wanna see other trannies hurt themselves and it makes me very sad i don’t like it. having fat on your body doesn’t make u a moid. u need at least fat on ur body for ur health and for hormone sensitivity and emotional comfort and being ur browbone and filling in ur hips im sorry. iwn be anorexic in the way a cis woman can and it’s like whatever idk there’s only so much u can do when this is ur life u have to seize every positive thing that u can as tragic as it is to hear. trannies are more sensitive to self destruction because we don’t have as much room to fuck up. you’ll end up crying eventually that u lost so much. shaking and crying laying on the floor. it’s so common. the fact that you’ve deal with it is fembrained. in like the most fucked way. i’ve been dealing with it since i was 13 or 14. but in the end it only serve to de feminize you. you don’t have to shrink yourself that much. the world is just too mean to also be mean to urself. at least to me anorexia is something only viable pre transition. you have to develop into the women you were born to be. u can call me a gay retard hon if u want like i get it rlly if u dw feel confronted but like i just want u to know that u don’t have to do that to urself yk. but if that’s not what you want to hear right now i understand. <3
>>41336988affirm*
>>41336988i know its better to have more flesh but even if i do all that i know im never gonna be cis or anything other than a total disaster so id rather do this and delude myself into believing im pure and ethereal and clean or whatever and be a recluse and never talk to anyone irl so i can live in my delulu bubble in peace, kindamaybe ill die sad and alone at 25 but thats okay i think i dont rlly know what else i can do that doesnt hurt so much :(
>>41337156yeah relate. gonna be cliche asf ngl cus idk how else to put it but there’s a lot of good things in the world sometimes tho. it doesn’t have to be that way. when ur anorexic ur mind creates a whole new identity and sense of self around masochism and self harm and that’s all u know. u can get out of it tho. not erase who you were and forget why you did what you did. but just leave certain things behind. and relearn and release. u kinda rlly have to department urself. honestly one of the things that’s kept fucking me up. like just once you get so far into it all the self destruction. there’s nothing else left to destroy. the only thing left is your entire personhood and dignity. i spent so long just laying on the floor holding myself sobbing and shaking. shaking every day being catatonic. cus everything was gone
>>41337359>cus everything was gonewhat did you do then
>>41337156at least in my experience this is how it goes i stripped myself fully to the complete core of what i am. and what that is is complete traumatization. beneath it all i am sad im confused im traumatized im broken im lost. anorexia gives you a new sense of self. you control and identity something you never had and it feels beautiful until it’s not . what you’ve gained starts off as only a small part of you until it completely consumes you and you have no self left anymore and nowhere to turn. you try and go back but there’s nothing to go back to. you belive then. because there’s nothing to go back to. you have no choice without it you’re nothing. it seems terrifying having to rebuild everything and like it will take forever. like you have to make yourself vulnerable and scared and a helpless recovering fawning creature with an entirely blank slate in order to recover. but it’s not true. recovering can be powerful you can seize things that you want whenever want and literally just do whatever you want to do. like you can be and do so much more. you can start now u just have to lock in and just activate something else within you. neither of those things, the anorexia or the destroyed sense of self a blank slate based in nothing, do you have to accept. u can start now or start whenever u want whenever you feel safe to. u can lock the fuck in. >>41337386lollllll writing the answer as u posted that
>>41337386very strong emotions is what you need. ana takes away your emotions and leaves you emotionally so fucking numb. you can cry about it you can scream you can throw things you can do what fucking ever. think about before it started or right as it started. you felt energetic you felt like you could do whatever you wanted until you couldn’t. that’s because all of your emotions became suppressed in a persuiy for something more that ended up taking it all away instead. you forget what’s it’s like to feel.you just need to release something. cry over it and feel consciously and deeply what it is you’re feeling and express it entirely unrestrained somehow. with the unconscious framework built that there IS hope. there IS a future even if u don’t see it right now. That there’s something looking forwards even if you don’t know what it is. some type of hope some type of REAL UNADULTERATED UNRESTRAINED EMOTIONif you believe what you are at your core is broken. a horrible and disgusting male amab man creature thing than can never be fixed. then your only option is to build things outside of it. no other path will result in anything good at all. if hou want to it’s possible to build yourself internet woman you want it be even if its only partially
>>41334614You're a little sissy.
>>41337386it’s fucking simple and it’s so stupid its almost like fucking self help slop what i’m saying but it’s really fucking true it’s so fucking real no therapist ever helped me come up with all of this none of them understand it and i figured it all though how ever fucking many relapses and cycles of self destruction. since i was 14 it was like this. emotional and spiritual and energetic release. somatic experiencing. reparenting. rebuilding. re realizing. a newfound sense of love even if it’s only momentarily. despite everything your experienced. is the only way. your ability to self destruct will always be there waiting for you. you can experience intense catharsis in other ways and entirely redirect it. you can relapse and fuck it all up again for the sake of it. you can experience intense positive emotion you can do whatever the hell u want. as long as it’s genuine. and a real form of expression.
>>41337467why are you like this
btw my baddd if ur too brain fogged and fried to read it all u can always come back later just like life is always gonna be there waiting for you if you want to. it’s about what you want. and if you want to to destruct more it’s your decision. but u just gotta recognize that there’s more. not to attack u or anything like i understand if u dw try. but there’s always the option to
>>41334614whats ur bmi op
>>41337474It's just a fact. You're an adorable little sissy but that doesn't make you a woman
