sometimes i wonder if im really trans, like yeah it’s been years but i’m still fully boymodingbut yeah, that feeling of putting on a wig and turning on some tiktok filters felt incredible, feeling genuine hope and i put the wig away and looked into the mirror and just want to die, i was never closer to just rope yes i should lose weight and i look stupid as hell
>>41335046if this is you your cracking me up
>>41335046You're just young and you're going to get older. What then why you just look like a 35 year old chubby boy in a wig? A world of difference from being trans and thinking you're a woman.
>>41335091i mean yeah, ive been on hrt for quite a while now, but im still wondering if i’m trans or just mentally ill
>>41335062what why :(
Why a wig? Grow your hair
>>41335046I realized I’m not actually trans but I’m still on e so idk if I can call myself cis either
>>41335541parents don’t allow me to, i mean im an adult but my parents are abusive and i’m kinda stuck rn here because i go to a local university i mean it’s not that they don’t allow me to but he would beat me up if i grow out my hair because im not masculine enough for him
there's no such thing as "the real you", that's a harmful pop psych meme that needs to be discardedif you wanna be a cute girl go for it, just don't lie to men and say you want a relationship if you're just looking to get paid
>>41335046Even with filter you don't pass
>>41335556oh, that’s cool, i guess you enjoy being a more feminine man?>>41335571thank god that wasn’t my plan>>41335594fuck
>>41335046>that feeling of putting on a wig and turned on some tiktok filters felt incredible, feeling genuine hopeit's false light friend. the gender euphoria is a result (ultimately) of autogynephilia. you will not find fulfillment or happiness by going down this path. get out while you still can
>>41335620?? i am and always was asexual
>>41335046You look very pretty!There is always hope, now is not forever. I hope you leave whatever shitty situation you are in. I WILL be praying for you
>>41335668thank you a lot, this means a lot to me, i’ll try my best but idk how i’ll do it, most likely it will end up painful for everyone involved, and im not sure if it’s worth it. my dad ultimately loses his son who he always wanted (not that i was fitting for him anyway) and my sisters will probably be just confused and scared. i love them. but they will see me as a demon (they’re right wing). and my mother would be the one who would support me, but she will be under heavy assault from my dad who just lost his hopes of having a man as his sonurgh it fucking sucks i wish i could just dissapear, get a job in another continent, and just do my thing.
>>41335610>being a more feminine mannot really lol I’m not feminine at all I think I just like having perfect skin and no libido but mostly I just keep procrastinating stopping it’s hard to commit
>>41335626blanchard talks about asexual AGPs.
>>41335046you look fine enough if you ever manage to grow out ur own hair itll look way better :p
>>41335222They're the same thing.
>>41335705Im glad it meant a lot to you! I don’t know how to go on most days either, I wish I had better advice, but turning to god has helped me. It sounds like your dad loves an idea of a son and living trying to please someone who you will inherently never be good enough for will only bring you more misery, because all the things he will like about you will make you hate yourself. If you ever do transition It might take some time for them to come around, but I’m sure your mom and sisters would still love you. Maybe you’ll have to put some distance between you for a little bit, but relationships are important, being depressed and isolated is the worst. Good luck anonette, I wish you the best in life
