Which is why i will manmode forever and not come out, I don’t wanna steal real trans peoples lives by being a sour spot in society. I will prolly kms cause I can’t have a normal life due to being a failure dropout with no future anywayIs this enough? No libido no friends one guy comes every week to my house and fucks me and then I’m alone again only seeing two people come and go from home to work.It’s over. I’m sorry to real trans people that I appropriated your issues and even was delusional enough to think I’m similar in anyway to you and even tricked some of you to be my friends. I’m glad you saw through me and abandoned me like ever Else always does. I’m glad the lie wasn’t deep enough. Nice!
>>41339269Why do you think you're non dysphoricAre you sure?
>>41339269Good tranny. Stay hidden
>>41339325I lived for at least 22 years even more as an ugly male moidEnough proofIf I was trans I’d be slashing my balls before/after pubert for being born with a r*pestickNobody suddenly troons at 25-26 like I did, with barely in signsNo porn doesn’t countNothing makes senseIt’s all fake thoughts
>>41339349I’m not a tranny thoughlbeit
>>41339269you come across as pretty dysphoric
>>41339382Nobody irl told me that they saw me as a hon sissy crossdressing faketroon and this is why they all stopped talking to me.One of them even said it to my face I’m fake.
how you gunna say you're a tranny and only go 50%?posers
>>41339419Yes exactlyI’m not really actually transThat’s my point
I feel the same way except I never transitioned just stuck in a limbo of "am I trans". I'm curious if other cis men don't really like how they look and are just getting on with life. I wonder if the reason I'm depressed is not because I'm in the wrong body but because I'm a useless male. No skills, no higher education, not really smart, no interests in anything, no libido, also watch way too much porn.It feels like I used to like things and now they don't feel like anything.The more I age the more I hate my wrinkles, my thinning hair, male pattern hairline, body hair. But I think this might be a desire to look younger. When I had less body hair, felt smooth and feminine, had nicer hair, softer features.I wish I could just focus on learning and getting good at something and somehow building confidence, but I always quit when things get hard. The only way I get a boost in confidence is by posting nudes posing as a trans woman. I just love the attention, especially when I'm horny.I'm 25 btw, if you wanna chat we could discord
>>41339427so how is it repping then?
>>41339504Different level I just take hrt to pretend I’m something
>>41339373>Nobody suddenly troons at 25-26 like I did, with barely in signsThis is correct
>>41339484This is as social I get. I dont need socialization anymore, I’m way past that atp, I did my time.
>>41339373But those aren't reasonsHow do you really feel? Are you content in the body of a man? Would you rather do mundane things in life as a woman?
>>41339717I dint understand the last questionI’m not content in life in general so there is no answer to the restYes they are reasonsYou can’t become trans if you weren’t already as a child or younger or at the latest during puberty
>>41339813Would you rather go through life as a woman or a man? Right now, that you're doing something random like typing on 4chan would u rather be a woman doing it?Also the signs were probably there, you underestimate how much our brains erase out or the ways we can cope. And even if they werent who gives a shitJust transition and be happyGender isnt real
>>41339717Not op, I feel like I'd prefer a woman's body. Even for mundane every day things. I like how they look in just a hoodie and some sweatpants The problem is in order to look even barely feminine I have to put in so much effort, shaving my face, my body, etc.And I still won't look like a woman because I'm 25, my face changed, my body changed, it'll never look as nice as a woman's body. I can attempt mimicking but what I should do is accept I'll never look like a cis woman, and try to work on becoming a good cis man. Or maybe I need to go the NB route idk
>>41339864Not op: but this feels like you forcing someone to transition.I'm personally to scared to transition until I feel I'm 100% trans. I don't have bottom dysphoria, idk if I want tits. They wouldn't look good on this body anyways because of the large ribcage and shoulders. I've seen so many trans women with boobs that look like tumors or man boobs.What if you regret your transition and don't have enough money to afford a surgery to get rid of your boobs, and also now you'll have scars for the rest of your life
>>41339864I’m unhappyI’m still trooning out but it all feels fakeBecause im fakeI’m drowningI don’t know what you meanI don’t knowI think I do:I’m better of as a manDeep down I know this and yet refuse it
>>41339909i cant even force anyone im a rando on the internet also this is stuff i asked myself when i was questioning that actually helped>>41339891if youre going to rep at least go the nb route. you deserve some freedom of expression . at least partly. i know its tough.>>41340016but why do you refuse it?
>>41340546Because in truth my life is permanently ruined and I can’t fix it because I’m a false human and transitioning was an escape abd nothing more
>>41340546>>41340611I wish I could express myself but there is no self to express and what exists is porn and mimicry