I’m 6 months on hrt. I look like a boy girl thing I also have fairly long hair atleast from a male, (nowadays most in my city have buzzcuts or taper fades)I also dress in baggy shirts and sweatpants or baggy jeans, or oversized jackets. I do look somewhat feminine so I think most people are confused. I’ve had 2 women ask me why I do my eyebrows, in a rude way. One told me I’m a guy so why am I doing my eyebrows.Some people once thought I was a trans guy lol. My clothing style has also changed I don’t guy mode as much bc I don’t rlly care, but I’m dressing in baggier clothes. But I swear most people are looking at me weird especially at customer service.No I’m not acting like an autist or dressing like a fetishist or smell bad. I see it in people’s eyes they think I’m a weirdo or smth. Also looking at my face pics I look like a pooner lol.
>>41384275I mean yeh, that's why you get weird stares..but if that's not what you wanted then not sure why you did it like that... question mark???maybe just girl mode and socially transition if it wasn't the goal?
>>41384292Girlmoding? I won’t girlmode until I atleast get ffs and I’m on hrt for like 2yrs and consistently called a woman.
>>41384275Manmode harder ig. I don't really get weird looks because i avoid looking too fem in daily life
>>41384312Manmoding too hard makes me dysphoric. I only man mode at work because I’m scared
>>41384302I mean if you like this that's fine, and that's what happens ig
>>41384365Seems like this is my life for atleast the next 2 years
>>41384275I'm saying this because I'm concerned for you, and I've been there. The stares aren't because people are "confused" in a harmless way. They're staring because you're creating cognitive dissonance. The baggy clothes read as male, but the long hair and eyebrows read as a failed attempt at female. It doesn't read as androgynous, it reads as "something is wrong with that person." People's brains are trying to categorize you and can't, which makes them uncomfortable and hostile. The women asking about your eyebrows weren't just being rude; they were trying to enforce a social boundary you're violating. It's not going to get better until you commit to one side or the other. This middle ground is social hell.
>>41384275honestly the baggy clothes + long hair on a frame that reads male gives off such bad vibes people probably think you're a tweaker or something. it's not a trans thing, it's a safety thing.
>>41384386ok, but then there is no question or 'why' about it, right??
>>41384422I have a small frame for a guy, >>41384410Yea that’s what I’m thinking. As a kid I was gnc so I was bullied for it, then as a teen it tried conforming and the way I got treated was different. I can’t handle the dysphoria anymore, so this is my life for another 2yrs. Could’ve just trooned out at like 15 and be normal now lol!
>>41384494sadly yes. I've accepted it
>>41384275its a "are you a boy or a girl? stare". they have to second check and triple check and it all takes more time than usual, it fucks peoples minds. consider starting to girlmode.
