He treats me okay and give me money for food.Our relationship is more codependency than anything else and i either feel like a kid or a mom to him.We had sex twice in two years (he stopped midway though) i am always horny btw but he never is and somehow i feel responsible for it.I caught him texting to bottoms and i am honestly starting to think he is gay and i became too feminine for him or something after a few years of hrt.I kept trying to initiate sex and stuff but it becomes awkward very fast feels like flirting with a little brother ;_;
>dead bedroomCan't even laugh cause I had a similar-ish thing (we still fucked but it was clearly not love just me getting off and him obliging, sometimes)You're in denial. It's over. You remain and convince yourself you're just not sure because surely since you go through the motions of a relationship you're still in one.It's already over and someday you'll be pushed to the point, something will happen, maybe you meet someone else and it makes it clear to you what's happening. I hope you wake up before then. It sucks to stick around so much longer and lose time you could be spending with someone that loves you.
>>41460238>We had sex twice in two yearswhathe's not. if that's true then he's definitely not??? why would you marry someone you only have sex with once a year and it isn't even good? was it always this way?
>>41460271>You're in denial. It's over.;_;>you could be spending with someone that loves you.How can you tell?I mean it kinda feel like he loves me in a weird way like how my parents did but with less abuse and more financial support.>>41460293>why would you marry someone you only have sex with once a year and it isn't even good?At first we were ldr for years and he made it sound like he was super into me.I was definitely in survival mode at the time abusive parents, third world country, hiding my meds, trying to not go insane at school etcSo i guess he was that rock and i thought he must really love me to do all that (it's also the argument he uses when i ask him if he does desu)He tried to have sex with me the first time we met but stopped midway.And from then on i was basically the maid, cooking cleaning etc helped him with business stuff too.Then i started living with his parents and i was even more of a maid but i thought if i kept pushing it would eventually turn into a proper marriage i guess? Honestly part of me think my brain is still cooked from all the trauma.But i kept believing when things get better he would be more into me but instead it feels weird like we're some weird family thing.sorry if it doesn't make sense.
well it is not like you need sex for love but it's sus that he texting bottoms
>>41460479It's not the first time he's done it too i reacted badly the first time and he promised to not do it again and that it was just a game for him.But i guess he just lies about it :/
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No problem with this except that he's texting bottoms. Other than that, if you are ok with the relationship it beats fucking but being abused.
>>41460238i got a boyfriend who only nuts for tactical advantage for going to sleep that kinda thing.If this is the case you can work on it, gain his trust that even if he isnt into it he may midway start to like it.good luck.
>>41460583>it beats fucking but being abused.He gets me sweet and stuff so that's nice.Wish he'd let me save money for myself though.>>41460673>gain his trust that even if he isnt into it he may midway start to like it.He barely let me give a blowjob and he doesn't cum he keep saying it's because of stress and family but i kinda got hurt after a while.He said he'll try next time with porn to fuck me but i wonder if he's just not pushing it further.>good luckthanks!
