im curious because a lot of trans girls here are autistic. i aint tryna be mean like im just curious but how is it like to have autism? i saw i think an autistic kid with his mom today and he was wearing noise cancelling headphones and was tethered to his mom. usually when i see an autistic person theyre with their supervisor and are just standing there staring blankly. is this how autism is for you?pic not related
>>41465536put your finger in your mouth and feel the top of your mouth and your cheeks. sort of like that.
>>41465536>im just curious but how is it like to have autismYou can't explain this and even then you wouldn't know what it's like
>>41465536I want to fuck an autistic girl who cuts herself
>>41465536eat about 0.5-1.5 gram of psychedelic mushrooms.and imagine 1 or more attributes getting stuck in that zone or never being in that zone.
Autism is a spectrum and you described the lower end of it. The higher you go up the spectrum, the more "social-bly functional" the autistic people get.I'm on the high end, and I fucking hate those people on tiktok who pretend to have ASD and other disorders because it's "cutesy", same thing in media where you're either some genius, or braindead.Like, you're going to have to repeat the same instructions to me 5 different times while I ask you the same questions, just worded differently, and even then I'll probably be afraid of doing it wrong until I've done the thing 200+ times, buuuuttt, I can rant on about some niche game like Foxhole for hours straight because I remember useless things.Day to day life is already draining because I still find it difficult to understand social cues sometimes (it's something I'm still working on) and respond in the most coldhearted way without meaning to because we live in a society that expects you to act a certain way, even if you don't want to, and masking is tiring.And about things like stimming, unless if you're raised by caring parents, you usually get that beaten out of you, so you go from flapping your hands every time you're excited to wriggling your fingers or something less obvious instead.Legit hate being autistic, and also hate being trans, this might or might not be God's fault
>>41465536it sucks idk what to say. i want to be normal and be able to socialize like normal people and not be retarded
>>41465807Mood
>>41465807i think ive told that to people before too
>>41465695I very much bullied myself into "not looking weird" for most of my life, so now I'm in a phase of trying to get out of this hole I have got myself in where i only wear plain clothes, say nothing, and try to make myself invisible as a default.That was essentially what trying to mask my way out of autism did for me.
>>41465584these are the best kind
>>41465978That's valid, I still wear just hoodies and jogging pants because more masculine clothing (especially gendered uniforms) makes me feel dysphoric and I 1000% don't pass (body hair, no HRT, cringe voice etc) so I wouldn't even try to wear a dress. Also try to keep my left arm covered as much as possible because of my SH scars.Learning to re-socialise is also difficult since you need to find actual irl people to talk to daily outside of just work/minor interactions. Personally, I do well enough that I can hold actual conversations with people and interact with them like a normal person (mainly learning what is socially acceptable to say and do) but that doesn't stop me from shutting down when my social battery runs out, right now mine is in the negative and I've just been avoiding contact for most of this week.Hope you get things figured out Anon
