Hii everyone, I really need some advice. I’ve been feeling very confused and unsure if I’m trutrans or if I’ve just made it up. For the past ~6 months, I’ve been thinking a lot about transitioning (Im thinking about it since like 14 but not that much, Im 19now) . Over the last ~2 months, I’ve been trying to find a sexuologist (required for transitioning in my country). I’ve also been thinking a lot about what I might say to them. Since puberty, I’ve never really liked myself. I dislike my body, body hair, facial hair, my widow’s peak, but in the last ~8 months, I’ve also started hating my height, my Adams apple, and my broad shoulders. At the same time, I wonder if this is just a self-esteem issue and I’m misattributing it to being trans. A year ago, I tried DIY estrogen for 3 months. Recently, I ordered more estrogen and anti-androgens, but I haven’t started taking them yet because I’m afraid of making a mistake. When I dress up, I often pick clothes that could make me be misgendered (I have long hair). I also try to take care of my skin and hair to look kinda feminine, (not working). My friends jokingly call me “the girl of the group” or the “housewife,” which makes me feel kinda good sometimes. I even took a social media detox, hoping it would help, but it didn’t. As a kid, I used to play with a friend pretending she was an evil witch who turned me into a girl. And I remember telling my friend that my mom was raising me as a girl and giving me estrogen pills (I was lying, idk why) because she wanted a girl (true). I also remember an episode of Gravity Falls with a magic carpet that swapped Dippers body with Mabels etc.. I’m just exhausted over thinking about this every day. Thoughts?
the notion of trutrans is bs. all that matters is whether transition improves your life overall. passing is highly correlated with transition improving someone's life, however.height matters less than you might think unless you're well over 6 feet tall. proportions matter a lot more than height. broad shoulders plus narrow hips is a combination for a bad time.
>>41465703more trutrans than me at least, and im transitioning (started late 19). as long as you arent as tall as or taller than me (6' TT) than i would say yeah sure, if youre taller i would reconsider personally. also you being referred to in a girly way by your (presumably male) friends is a rly good sign and if you think youll stay on hrt this time yeah just do it whatever
>>41466002yeah there is no such thing as trutrans, more people transition now because you can buy estrogen online and cosmetic surgery is getting cheaper and society is liberal and nobody gives a fuck anymore.life is just absurd, you can do anything for any reason, it will be fun and it will be painful. its up to you. it doesnt matter anyway
