I finally got my first partner and its been kinda rocky ngl. Up until now I would tell people i was straight (trans girl), but my lesbian best friend of 3 years made a move on me and I just went with it because I've never been in a relationship before. They took me on a really nice picnic date and taught me how to kiss and all sorts of stuff. I even got to wear a pretty dress and I felt pretty good, but now I keep going back and forth on whether or not i should stay. Being with someone who isnt a man is kinda not great. I love their personality (like i said, we were friends for 3yrs), but I dont find them physically attractive at all. And I'm kinda just jealous of them??? they have big boobs and a big butt and their 5 feet tall. they have literally everything i want. I end up feeling like the man whenever we're together now. It's awful. I'm trying so hard to give the relationship time bc i so really like them, but i just don't feel like it's gonna work. I just want a big strong man....also they already bought a collar with my name and their phone number on it so
>I'm trying so hard to give the relationship time bc i so really like themprobably not going to work out if you arent physically attracted to them
