i’ve objectified myself so much for validation to the point that it has become my only source of self worth. i only feel like my life has purpose when i am someone’s desire. i’ve developed attention seeking behaviors to gain the attention of others whether it be nude photos of myself just to feel something, or general flirty behavior in order to secure attention. outside of being someone’s object of desire, i feel nothing. i don’t really know when this started. i don’t know if anyone else feels this. but it is a cycle that repeatedly leads me to destructive behavior and harms my relationships in pursuit of being someone’s sole focus. what is this? when does it end?
>>41481503>FoidbabbleOK
>no gf who enjoys and needs my daily praise and affection
>>41481617i have a partner, but my partner is super busy with work in some important job. so im left to my own devices most of the week. just feel nothing without someone looking at me intently.
