im almost 5 years off and on hrt. im currently on it and its really really hard to keep doing itevery time i try to do my shot im just reminded that ill never be a woman, and that ill never even resemble a womanit just makes me want to cryi dont think ill ever pass. its been so longpassing is the closest i could get to being a woman and i cant even have thati want to detrans cause itd be easier. but i dont know if i can handle any more facial or body hair than i already havebut those are the only options other than killing myself reallyits either keep boymoding or detrans and repressand all of them seem unsustainable. what do i do? just rope?
idk
>>41482003Quit being so obsessed. Find something more important. You should get an animal that relies on you, it will distract you.
>>41482103i dont have the money or space for something like that even if my apartment allowed animals. and animals have always kind of disgusted me. im a germaphobe
>>41482188Well you need something to throw yourself at. Something that will RELY on you or force you to rely on it. Not only will it help you grow as a person, but will drastically change your perspective, as all your thoughts and feeling are filtered through and for your new responsibility.
>>41482252>Well you need something to throw yourself at. Something that will RELY on you or force you to rely on it.i had that. it was my ex. she was really, really troubled, we met in a psych ward. and i swallowed all my pain and dysphoria to take care of her. i tried so hard for herwe were together for 3 years. i thought she wouldnt care that i was trans. i thought she might actually encourage it. she was bi, she thought she was a lesbian before she met me, she had said she preferred women over men 100 to 1, she liked my gyno and long hair and general femininity there was even more reason why i thought shed be fine with it but itd be sharing too muchwhen i told her she was a tranny she didnt want me as one. she didnt break up but she made it clear she didnt want that. i hrtrepped really hard for her and eventually detransed cause she started sexualizing me for my male traits and not the effects of the hrt. and she wanted kidsshe dumped me and came out as a lesbiani wish i was making this up
>>41482522>i had that. it was my ex.Uh, no. Humans dont fulfill this role. That's why youre in this mess. Im saying you need a job, a dog, an elderly person, a garden, a global event. If you were in a worthwhile society, they would have forced you into military/public service so that instead of spending time focusing on the only issues you have (small and worthless ones), you would instead be dealing with actual real life problems that put your current life into its proper perspective.
