For the last 2.5 years, I've been completely isolated and have done absolutely nothing. I have no real friends, not even online. I've finally mostly recovered from my mental issues that completely destroyed my life (I was 18-19 so I've completely missed out on any kind of normal life), and now there's nothing left.My body is absolutely horrendous with next to no hope of ever becoming a girl.I am so socially and touch starved that every millisecond of being alive (even when I'm asleep) hurt so much it makes me nauseous.Why do people still tell me to not kill myself? What would there still be to do for me? I will forever be reminded of how other people (even the extremely depressed and mentally ill ones) live infinitely better lives than me, neverending deeprooted envy that kills me from within every waking second. What the fuck am I supposed to do?
>>41484993>For the last 2.5 years, I've been completely isolated and have done absolutely nothingi did this same shit. ruined my social life and all momentum i had after high school. and then my parents lie to themselves that it didn't happenYou gotta just force yourself and others. This world wants everyone in it to be a rapist in some way. You have to rape people until they can't even care about it. Rape your friends into talking to you again
>>41484993It's always funny to read one of these threads, agree, and then realize I'm 10 years older than the OPIt can get so much worse than you know, end it or fix it while you still can
>>41485029yeah it gets worse with each dayi don't know why suicide still scares me so much, maybe that's just my punishment. can't have an easy way out
>>41484993>I will forever be reminded of how other people (even the extremely depressed and mentally ill ones) live infinitely better lives than methat's just plain wrong, and prove that you've got more to understand about life in order to adapt to it your own way which should bring whatever peace of mind your seeking.stop comparing your current state to others, and figure your shit out because you got yourself there, and no one is really going to help you out better than you.life is worth living, use your brain, rely on yourself, don't fall for the suicide meme.
>>41485029me toooo and fuck it were all going thru the same thing
>>41485029Same, as soon as the mental math comes out to “early 20s” I just roll my eyes.>>41484993Do literally anything. Look up some random community event and go. Or just go to the nearest bar and make conversation with anyone.
>>41486510>life is worth livingnta no it isn't
>>41486652i mean i think it has at least a little worth living unless u think all of the world would be better off not existing. idk personally i think its pretty chill that there are living breathing humans out there so like their lives must be worth living at least
>>41486510>that's just plain wrongwhy ?>>>41486620nothing is worth doing for me, it all makes me feel worse. i can only be social as someone who I'm not.even if i ever were to become a girl i'd just be stuck as a femcel>>41486652agree>>41487623yeah some people's lives are definitely worth it, mine is definitely not
>>41484993go out, get a buzz on cheap drink, start a new life.
>>41486620>as soon as the mental math comes out to “early 20s” I just roll my eyesremember, you were early 20's once too>t. was like this in early 20's now nearly 30 and still like this (it doesn't get better for some of us)
