i lost all my friends again for the 3rd time due to splitting. i wish for peace. this world is rotten and humans fester with the goals of making their own lives fair, yet cannot share the same sentiment for their fellow man. cant a trans girl find some peace? im so beautiful. i regularly dont even post here but im just so great i dont care. i just wish i could find a greatly misanthropic smart trans girl to share this desolate isle with. but i suppose not everyone can have what they desire. what a world…
Don't worry this happens to cis people too. You know those stories about someone in their 50s or 60s dying alone and the neighbors eventually report a smell? That's going to be me. We all imagine old age as being surrounded by loved ones because reality is too unpleasant to think about but as it comes rushing up on you, you come to accept it for what it is. Not everyone gets to win.Look at the bright side least you're not dying of starvation while being hunted like an animal by psychopathic mass murderers in Gaza!
>>41485209>i lost all my friends again for the 3rd time due to splitting.what happened
>>41485223The funny thing is that all of us who will die like that have found eachother online at this point (here, r9k, discords), but we're still so fundamentally broken/retarded that most of us will continue to be alone anyway. No one to blame but ourselves
>>41485224I feel like I could finish this story for them. This happened to me basically every year for the three years before I met my current partner. I started to avoid introducing friends to people I was dating. That way I can keep some when I self-destruct and probably fuck up the relationship. :D
>>41485252Yeah god is a real trickster like that, I've tried making connections as you described and I inevitably fuck it up and I know what I'm doing as I'm doing it, I know it's a mistake, and I can't stop it, it's like I'm watching myself from a third person POV self sabotaging.
>>41485268The fucked up thing is now whenever I introduce a friend they immediately cause trouble because my dumb ass could only keep the nuisance friends across relationships
>>41485209You are too conceited. Just chill out and learn to be humble
>>41485295>just b urselfWow you should be a professional therapist! Why didn't I think of that?
>>41485297not what I said. Like the opposite of what I said
>>41485300Just let people vent, if op or anyone else wants a shitty therapist reciting empty platitudes they can get it from ChatGPT and it will do a better job
Sorry that was unnecessarily belligerent, I'm just tired of trying to fix myself and nothing ever works
>>41485339>Just let people ventwho is stopping you?
>>41485209i like seeing BPDs suffer
hello i am op waking up>>41485268its been so long and honestly i just feel like giving up>>41485223despite this we still basically live in zion XD we’re all FUCKED we need to DIE>>41485224i hate how i burn through friends like cigs in the first place. i hste not being able to get meds for bpd. so i cut em off. better for em to not deal with me>>41485252so true>>41485295i have mental illness retard lol
>>41485868who doesntits almost as if we are the embodyment of the rage and sadness humanity inherently encompasses. and then we are shunned. the irony! haha!
If any of you little bpd dudes want an mtf friend that will talk to you even after you block me for the 100th time you can add me bigdumbloser69
>>41486100no you just always think you're the victim. consider that normal people do not want to be lashed out at constantly. you are not tragic you are abusive by nature.
>>41486147is that not in and of itself tragici cant find medication for my conditioni hate lashing out but i cant stopit isnt nice to be treated like i wanted to be born this way
>>41486082>i have mental illness retard lolWouldn't me being retarded also qualify? Are you not just doing hypocrisy rn by asking for understanding of your illness while maligning others?
>>41486360your treat everyone the way you think they treat you. truth is that BPDs are coddled. every time they berate or beat or rape somebody the victim gets told to be patient and endure. you guys have a prettified word to downplay your abuse, its "splitting". its only tragic for the people that have to come into contact with you.
>>41486406you are denying an entire cluster groups validityi hate the way i ami think about death ofteni dont want to be here ive lost my mom and half my family is suicidalpeople use me for money all the timehow else am i supposed to feelnot angry at the world? just…content?i reject that notion
