im hooking up with a chaser off this board tomorrow. gonna lose my virginity then kill myself. i’ve had the sodium nitrite ready to do it for months. i’ve been too scared to go through with it but if i have sex that’s like the last of my unfinished business. then i can go on peacefully
wya? you want to try having a bf before you give up?
>>41490048Lol, talk about a painful way to go.
>>41490048you’re really gonna let that be the highlight of your life? it’s like lights out with a whoopee cushion.
>>41490048I hope you at least let him suck your gock.
>>41490048I hope you live anonI love youhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RXqNwcrVq_Q
if I hooked up with someone and they sudoku'd the next day I'd probably off myself too, absolutely diabolical, might as well do a murder suicide
>>41490048i met a guy on soc once and had a terrible time.
>>41490062socal. it would be nice i think. i am so lonely. all i really want is someone to hold me and comfort me and love me. but im a stupid tranny>>41490064>>41490071yeah. it sounds like it rlly sucks when i put it into words. at least i’ll feel good for a little bit before i end my suffering. i just don’t know what else to do. im so lost
>>41490154Every time. I mean it when I say I would really try and if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. Too far away.
>>41490084thank you anon. i love you too.>>41490126i won’t tell him im offing myself cuz i know how horrible that’d make him feel. im not a monster i just want my suffering to end >>41490126i don’t really have high expectations. it’s just to feel what it’s like so im not missing out on anything
>>41490174im probably too young for you anyways. im only 19. it was nice of you to try though.
>>41490282Nona, if you're 19 you genuinely haven't experienced shit yetYou can always kill yourself later, why not try to live a little?
>>41490323i’ve been trying. i have bipolar disorder and i went on meds for it for a few months. i tried going to community college and getting my life together. ive tried doing every fun thing i could imagine. ive had enough rlly. when does it end? i’ve still wanted to die this whole time. i hate living so much. it’s so painful. how long do i have to wait before things get bearable. i just can’t take it.
>>41490465>i went on meds for it for a few monthsWhy'd you stop them? This suicidal ideation can probably be helped by getting properly medicated again
>>41490048not an airport nigga you don't gotta announce your departure
>>41490048why let the magats win?
>>41490536i… didn’t rlly like how i felt on it. it was disturbing. like i wasn’t myself. i was too normal. just like. completely not depressed. i couldn’t live like that. i’d rather die. and anyways the side effects are horrible. antipsychotics are the absolute worst they give you akathisia and nausea and vomiting.
>>41490154Jesus loves you, don’t kill yourself. Or at least please get last rites before you do.
I think if you’re posting this, there’s a part of you that wants to be stopped. In your heart, you know you don’t want to kill yourself.
what if the sex is so good you don’t wanna end it?
>>41490591you posting this means that your heart was changed by the meds, it knows that you don't want to kill yourself
>>41490154>to hold me and comfort me and love me. >but im a stupid tranny.>SoCal.I'm sorry I couldnt be there to treat you like a precious angel and total cuddle-starved girl>Socal chaser
>>41490048I wish I could cuddle you and convince you to stay alive
>>41490868fine i’ll bite. maybe this will make living worth it. my discord is floaster
>>41490071kind of hot to think she's gonna die with traces of his boygoop still in her rectum >>41490048all jokes aside OP please don't actually kill yourself. the world is so big and you can experience love for yourself and from others. there is a younger part of you that has dreams that can still be realized. you need you and we need you and the world can't be what it is without you.
>>41491042I'm sorry beautiful. I dont have discord. You're still precious and I'm proud of you for taking the chance. Besides, I'd probably crush you, because I'm near the size of the last Yokozuna
>>41490591Being normal and completely not depressed is a good thingYou shouldn't attach your sense of self to the feeling of mental unrest, that's not the actual you, it's just what you're used toKinda making me worried about a friend who went off their bipolar meds and ghosted a few months ago nowTalk to a psych and if the specific meds really wig you out at least see about changing them
>>41490323why not do fun things is pretty unhelpful for depressed people as they physically cannot feel good. OP you should at least tell the guy you are struggling with stuff, sex is better when you guys know each other, he can at least give you some free talk therapy if you're letting him put his dick in you.
