Did anyone else have over controlling parents as a child that probably led to the myriad of mental illnesses?
I think somehow me being gay triggered this primitive abusive reaction in my parents where they felt they had to gently guide me towards masculinity and heteronormativity, but really they just sort of abandoned trying to take care of me once they figured out I was gay and just took that as a license to get out all their negative emotions on me, knowing I was too weak and powerless to fight back. Truly evil people and I will never forgive them. Seems strange to me to sabotage your offspring for being gay. My sister married a man and they are a lot nicer to her and always were. I feel like when you are gay people don't take you seriously and the idea of me having my own desires was perceived as ME being controlling - my parents called me a control freak at like age 6-7 and forced me into therapy which I hated and begged them to stop but I think they just did it to fuck with my head. And I know its all unusual cuz when I'm around other gay people, they mostly treat me as normal unless they are the very self hating kind.
>>41490980Yeah what is it with the whole gentle guiding hand guise that I hear about and saw so much? Parents, mothers especially, seem to love emotionally manipulating their children into being who they want their children to be to feel better about themselves
>>41490885my mom is extremely off and on. She would just hide in her room for the majority of the day, and only come out to be controlling about something. So I felt emotionally neglected and physically controlled.
>>41491265Btw haii cord :3
>>41491320hiiii! how are you
>>41490980i know this feel, gaynon. i take you seriously and i love you. fuck our parents
>>41491485I’m quite well! How about you?
>>41491555I'm okay! just posting garbage for attentionnnn sitting in my car at the public library. what are you doin?
>>41490885I had a good childhood but my parents were fairly strict. A lot of mental illness is more genetic than environmental. Even with trauma, stable people will recover from it better and get on with their lives while the mentally ill will seek it out. Anyway I think being very fat and unattractive as a kid and receiving basically no female attention until later in life stunted my ability to relate to women romantically and made me into dudes and tranners.
>>41491647Getting ready to leave for work in a few minutes; not much aside that. Posting garbage for attention is relatable though
of course it's canonical
>>41491668Have a good day at work!! I'll monitor ur thread for u o7
>>41490980this post oddly resonates with me although I hadn't come out to my parents until my early 20s (they did tell me they always knew tho)My two brothers are very much more part of the family than I am. The only sorta nice memories I have were when I went shopping with my mom.Apart from that I am reduced to my scholarly/ career achievements. It's really bad and I don't like to think about it. I get a msg from my mom maybe once a month and that's about it.
