>open one of my favorite games ever made>stare at the main menu screen for like 5 minutes>login for like 5 minutes>do nothing>close the gameI know it's probably for the best but it still makes me a little sad that most of my old escapes do absolutely nothing for me anymore. it's not just me growing up and moving on. I'm not even sure I was actually genuinely into these things in the first place. it was literally just pure escapism, all of it, the whole time. so much of my existence was just hiding from abuse and pain and life in a body that was torturing me. all the characters I made and played and spent so much time on. little more than a monument to the repression that would ruin my only life.
>>41494249I'm rooting for you, for what it's worth.
>>41494353>I'm rooting for you, for what it's worth.thank you anon. I have a little hope for ffs at least, even if I'll never really pass with my body. I know it could be worse. maybe someday I can look back and feel like I made up for what was lost. maybe then I'll remember what happiness feels like
>>41494249relatableI spent a lot of my time repressing devoted to that kind of diversion and now I feel a little lost like there's too much extra space in my head to know what to do with it anymore
>>41494543>now I feel a little lost like there's too much extra space in my head to know what to do with it anymoreexactly, none of that stuff really occupies my thoughts anymore, and certainly not my time, and I suppose it's left a bit of a vacuum in my life. it's really, really jarring. I've been filling it with self care and reading and building my aesthetic and making healthier food and things like that but I suppose the prospect and process of self actualization and pursuing material interests in the real world is daunting after avoiding and dreading it for so long.
>>41494249I feel this post so fucking hard.I'm lying in a rented apartment preparing to get bottom surgery. I brought my Nintendo switch and a collection of books I've been meaning to read. I haven't played and of my games since I was a few months on estrogen other than a few times I surgery recovery.I finished the first book on the plane rife here and I think I'm going to just read books while I recover. Games only represent repression escapism and bad choices to me now.
>>41494249What gender is Missingno?
>>41496142trve enby with nvllo
