How do you permanently get rid of tranny thoughts? I've tried stoicism, ive tried spirituality, i've tried to be more masculine, i've tried so hard and yet they do not go away.Lately they have creeped back in full-force and I feel myself about to cave-in again.
>>41498121you cant make it go away, it's a part of yourself as immutable as the colour of your eyes or your skin. im sorry nona
>>41498121if there was a conversion therapy that worked then it would have already been made mandatory in red states + uk
>>41498204>tfw blanchard will never prepare you a hot chicken dinner
>>41498179I have heard this and I fear you may be correct, but also just because I have thoughts of wanting to be a woman doesnt make me one. I wouldnt know the first thing about actually being a girl. >nonaI'm a man even if I have these thoughts, im sure other men have these thoughts too, sometimes they go away and arent very intense, other times they are full -force screaming in my head to take the leap to go through with it. I equate it to a tide, when the tide is high life is rough, and I have to wait until low tide to feel at peace again. I am also autistic as you can probably tell and that does not help the matter because it makes me feel not genuine. I know that autism is correlated with these feelings and so I wonder if its my true feelings or just some trick of my brain chemistry.
>>41498226at some point i accepted that i was a tranny, not a woman. and that trannies are basicaly only happy after trooning. also that being a tranny is close enough to being a woman in a binary society. it is what it is
>>41498226there is nothing more bullshitty about knowing anything about being a girl. no one perceives you as a girl irl so what could you know about being a girl ? that's just a fallacious way to think. also other men do not have these thoughts. sometimes they make think about it and go like "heh lmao, id have tits" and they go back to their day and it does not keep nagging them for months, or years. >full -force screaming in my head to take the leap to go through with it >i equate it to a tide>im also autistic your subconscious is screaming at you, begging to change yourself in a way that doesnt make you miserable. transitioning, to me at least, wasnt something i did to become a woman, i did it to not be a man ; and being a man was so miserable i would have killed myself.
>>41498274taking my focus meds and then ill be able to be smarter about allat give me like 30 minutes
>>41498204The sad thing is you're right but I also feel like I wasnt born this way that I did something to condition myself to be this way. Then I remember my first gay thought was at some Harry Potter movie in the theater and thinking Malfoys actor was hot and feeling so ashamed while I sat there trying to put it out of my head and just watch the movie. Tranny thoughts started early but I cant really place an exact date on them, it sorta just becomes your personality online since I was a huge shut-in as a young teen. I would always escape into the online space where people didnt know I was a male. Its funny because long before pronouns in bios were things people would tell me I talked like a girl even though I really dont think I do, but I would get that response a lot and it always made me happy inside
>>41498288oh sweet thing
>>41498121they stopped for me when i transitioned and became a pretty girl
>>41498121i first seriously considered transition at 14, but stopped myself because i thought the desire would go away after puberty. now here i am early in transition at 24, just left wondering what could've been.
>>41498269That may be what I have to accept as well. Thanks for the advice.>>41498274it has been nagging me for a long time, years and years of high-tide and then low-tide. When the thoughts fade I feel like "I did it, I conquered them finally, I am happy as a man and can live life comfortably like this." But when they return it wipes all that away and I feel like im trapped. its strange because sometimes I can see myself as a man. Autism just makes things hard because we tend to imprint on characters and such so its hard to know if my thoughts of being a woman are genuine or just autistic imprinting gone wrong. Also I am AGP and ive heard bad things about that, like if you are AGP you shouldnt go through with it.
>>41498121Transitioning helpedGot rid of p much all tranny thoughs
>>41498121The only way is to inject estrogen and live as a woman permanently.
>>41498121The only solution is self acceptance and estrogen, I'm truly sorry anon I think most of us wish there was another way. The earlier you start the less regret you will have
>>41498340AGP is a scam. it doesnt exist. you wouldnt be thinking this much about transitioning if you didnt want it at a fundamental level. i bet you know about the button test, where if you had a button that turns you into a woman permanently in front of you, would you press it ? i know you would.
>>41498300Yes?>>41498325well of course they stopped then, id be kind of worried if they continued.>>41498345I tried estrogen injections for a while but I was a loser NEET with no income so it didnt last long. Recently ive graduated college and made a career for myself that I can support myself with and now the thoughts are back full-force
>>41498356Idk but I just jerked off to the idea of having a pussy and never being able to stroke my cock again.t.ranny
>>41498359Thats good that you have a career, that means your insurance may cover tranny drugs and surgery for free
>>41498359>didn't last long What part of permanent did you not understand? Also if you’re tranny thoughts are increasingly strong it’s probably because subconsciously you know you can afford to transition and you’re just excited about it.
>>41498351I would be a late transitioner at this point, not sure how much hope there is for me. Thats part of why Ive been feeling worse this time the tide rolled in. Sometimes I feel like I can be a man, usually when I try imprinting on male characters. I look a lot like Anakin in Revenge of the Sith so thats my latest autistic imprint. I kinda feel like he did too, trapped between two horrible decisions.>>41498356Yes I would press that button in a heartbeat.
>>41498384I transitioned at 27 with HRT only (for free because of insurancr) and I pass now at 28, its not hopeless
>>41498371yeah they do. I wont share too much more out of fear of being doxxed but its a good career. While I was in school for it originally at the start my thoughts were I was doing it to transition afterward, but during school the tide went out and I started feeling comfortable as a man again, then about a month after graduation it all rolled back in.>>41498375This is probably the case, I can afford it now. Im just scared of doing something I may regret, what if I dont like being a woman. Its a fantasy the same way other fantasies are and like what if its not enjoyable once I finish
>>41498356She’s >>41498384 gonna push it
>>41498395HRT only can make you pass that late in life?
>>41498384>Yes I would press that button in a heartbeat.there you have it. the button exists but it takes years for it to take effect. get on hrt nona
>>41498406Yeah it can, it might be harder for some but its still possible.
>>41498121take hrt and get castrated
>>41498384post puberty its RNG depending on your genes and surgery
I wanna kms so bad lel. I hate them sm, trooned just to become a self hating non passing tranny with an awkward body I can't hide anymore and a lonely life. Iwnbaw and only passers will ever feel some sort of relief from this hell.
>>41498417Ok, once I start working I will go back to that Doctor. He was very friendly to me. >>41498425That is somewhat reassuring, im also mostly a shut-in outside of having to work so maybe this is just for my own validation.>>41498449She seems happy, if I could look like her that would be a good ending.Does anyone here want to be my friend? I do not have many friends..
>>41498470Do you think its better to not transition if you could know in advance you wouldnt pass? Do you think its possible to repress healthily?
>>41498398Don’t be scared. I was scared too but the longer you wait to worse it gets. geting diagnosed might help you make an informed decision on medical transition and weigh the outcomes you expect vs the ones medical transition can provide for you. You gotta be chopped and cooked before you can be served and ate. Big hugs
>>41498510I’ll be honest the fantasy part does stop and it becomes impossible to enjoy it. As it is no longer a fantasy but a lived reality. And deep down somewhere you’ll feel on top of what used to be only thoughts in your head. Be free to impress yourself with the unlimited possibilities for you ahead. Let yourself imagine and explore your inner world. You might just be curious enough to become the person you believe you are.
>>41498507What state are you in? Ill be your friend
>>41498510I think there can be a form of repping that can healthy but ultimately it's exceedingly rare and unrealistic for many. Like if you build a life around a career or maybe get really deep into a lifestyle that makes you focus on something else besides yourself. About the passing thing I really can't say. If you have a good support system then sure it can def still be a good thing to do and will come without a lot of the hitches but you will still feel like shit, well I do. If you don't then it's pretty harsh I won't lie. I could barely do this without the few family that still love me. I will never say whether or not someone else should transition or not but I will say it's hard when you don't pass. I've been on hrt for like almost 6 years and I still get "misgendered" a lot. It hurts a bit more now cause I really don't know if it'll get better without tons of surgeries I could never really afford in a reasonable time to still be sorta young and enjoy these years. Life's hard ig. Hope you can figure things out nona
>>41498552Im a bit paranoid of being doxxed, do you have a discord and once I trust you I can tell you that? Or you can add mine, shrinemaidenrei>>41498558Life is hard, im sorry that people havent been kind to you..
>>41498121Have you ever tried just not being a fag?
>>41498580Okay added you
>>41498121The Jesus "cope" is the only actually effective one because it's not actually a "cope". It's true. Pray the rosary, go to OCIA, become Catholic. The tranny thoughts won't necessarily go away, but you'll have the desire to live as a man for Jesus and if you're AGP you can still get married at some point and live a normal life. Then when you die and go to heaven the tranny thoughts will go away.
>>41498580can i also add u nona
>>41499455Ive tried Christianity and it didnt remove the feelings at all even when I prayed
>>41498121I wish they made a drug for it. We have drugs to suppress every single thought and feeling under the sun, but they decided to stop before inventing one for trannies. I could have been happy as a man.
>>41498121wdym you tried stoicism? how did that go?
>>41501091not the op, but I have, and while it made me superficially functional, internally I was still rotting away. don't recommend it as a cope, even if some level of stoicism may be helpful
>>41498121it doesn't quite work like that
>>41500764It won't remove the feelings. But it gives you a purpose to your suffering. You have to pick up your cross.
