cozy/cursed evening editionget it off your chest
last thread was goated
>>41505335Just spent six hours masturbating with such a death grip that it feels bruised/injuredI regret nothing
>>41505488what to
>>41505488been there, usually adderall involved
>>41505493Getting raped by twins>>41505504Armodafinil but close enough
I kinda want to move on from my feelings with my best friend, but I want/wanted it so badly to be her, but idk what to do :( I feel so stuck
>>41505488This image is convincing me to throw myself in front of a bus
>>41505335I accidentally came in my pants today and it feels super good too
>>41505488Actually I regret not going for longer because now I’m bored
>>41505335Flirting with like 3 people, might empty my hefty balls into one later idk kinda wish they were readily available.
>>41505649is it viable?
I want her.But she's married.She gave me these feelings I can never do anything with.She has feelings for me, too.But I could never be the kind of person she needs.I hope she fixes her relationship and lives a long happy life. Ill find someone, maybe.Actually maybe not, since Ive settled on being single forever.But man, does it hurt to admit thatJust stream of consciousness ig
>>41505335Genuinely the only thing that keeps me going day to day is daydreaming about having a husband/bf. Everyday I look forward to going home so I can take an edible, hug my pillow and pretend it’s my husband. I like to imagine him saying he’s proud of me. It’s the only thing I want in life at this point. It’s so pathetic, I’m 25 and still never had a bf, only got my first kiss a year ago. I know I could probably get a bf too but I’m too mentally ill and don’t think I deserve one yet. I feel like such a loser. >t.ranny
>>41505335If I killed myself it would genuinely increase the social acceptance and well being of every other troon in society
>>41505335i want to be raped by a transbian
>>41508965good reason to stay alive
>>41505649It's better to kill the feelings in my experience. The chance is slim that she'll change her mind
>>41508730i used to do a similar thing, laying in bed awake for hours dreaming aboit having a bf. but now im happy and have a more active social life and even dated a cute boy for a while. i believe in you nona!
>>41508730you sound sweet, wya?
>>41509186I’m in the American Midwest but I’m not really in a place where I deserve a boyfriend yet, let alone a husband. ive been working really hard this past year to fix that though! I’m definitely a better person than I used to be but I’m not good enough yet. I have faith that once I deserve him I will be able to find him
>>41509288Also these bugs are definitely st4t. Where is my cornifer? :(
>>41509288I'm midwest too, cis M early 30s, spent most of my life with plenty of friends but no romance or intimacy because I had similar thoughts about not deserving someone and being afraid of rejection. Recently been putting myself out there because I don't feel like I deserve to be lonely anymore, and I really regret not doing that sooner. Don't let that mindset keep you lonely for too long anon!
>>41509539> Don't let that mindset keep you lonely for too long anon!I won’t, there’s just a lot wrong with me rn. Not to get too into it but earlier this year I had an attempt and I’m still kinda picking up the pieces. I don’t want to date until I’m a better person than the one who did that. I want to get caught back up with my course work and be more mentally stable and healthier before I can say I deserve love. I know it’s not the healthiest outlook but it’s been a good motivator. When I get overwhelmed i imagine the husband and kids I’ll have once I make myself worthy and it helps me. I’ve picked up new creative hobbies, I’m eating better, I appreciate life more than I used to. Im getting there but I’m just not good enough yet though.
>>41505335I've fallen for a younger man online, but I know it can never work so I'm keeping him at a distance where we still sext and erp, but I've drawn a line so it doesn't go too far. It's so nice though. I've felt so ugly lately, but he makes me feel beautiful and desired. It's been so long since I've felt this way.
The biggest reason im transitioning is because I need to know what having a pussy feels like. Other than my dick giving me pleasure, ive been totally uninterested in it my entire life. Every time I masterbate I try to vividly imagine what having a pussy will feel like. Ive gone through a decade and a half of alternating weed and alcohol accidiction because it lets me imagine this more vividly.
>>41509658whats the gap?I fell for a guy 10 years younger than me, but we kept talking and after long enough he made the first move. And somehow even stuck around after learning how old I was I even gave him every opportunity to backtrack and walk away from it but he was just into me
>>41509823He's 13 years younger, almost 14. If it wasn't online and maybe the gap wasn't so big, I might consider it, but he's on the other side of the world. I've been doing online dating since I was 11, it's never worked well, especially when someone moves across the world. Like I'm closing in on 40. Maybe I still look young for my age now, but that's gonna go soon. I'm just gonna use this opportunity to feel beautiful again and use it as fuel to improve myself. He can have his fun nutting to an older woman and then find someone closer to his age that he can spend his life with.Your situation is really cute though. I love how persistent he sounds. That persistence is so charming. Like "no you don't get it, I'm old and trans you don't want me" and he's like, "Yes I do, you're all I want". Ahhhhh it's so romantic. It breaks down my walls so fast. I'm sure it did for you too.
I had a dream about my first romantic gay relationship I had with my best friend. It only lasted a few weeks and for him was just using me as a rebound but for me was the first time I genuinely accepted myself.It happened more than 10 years ago and he’s married to a woman now and we haven’t spoken in years. I don’t miss him specifically, I just wish it could have worked more and didn’t just give me trust issues instead that make me distance myself from any and all romance.
>>41505335I hate that I watch porn sometimes to cope with my feelings or when im anxious, plus the fact I get envy from from trans people even when you take porn out of the equation, it is fucked if you think about it and I feel like its all pointless in the end when it comes figuring out my "gender" when there's alot reasons in my head that it all a form COPE.
I’m mtf and I can’t cum from sex and anal doesn’t feel good. It’s ruined every relationship because the only thing I can do is give head. Once they try to do things to me I either don’t like it or I crash out from dysphoria.
