(hey i'm filling in for the anon who usually makes this thread, they couldn't make it today)(also i'm out of black squares sorry. i hope green will be okay. sorry again.)
>>41505479np bro green is my fave color
i hate being esl and insomniac. i wanted to play portal 2 with a friend who helped me through hard times yet i feel like a failure for bot having neither the capacity to express myself in a spoken way nor personality when speaking in english. now i feel like shes disappointed or like she thinks im weird i want to die
>>41505479hehe green is my fav colorill probably post about this again later when the plan is a bit more solid so sorry if you get tired of hearing about it. right now i plan to bus out about 1hour 30 and then walk about an hour 30 into a forest thats pretty dense. you can buy sleeping pills of doxylamine off of amazon at a very high dosage and alcohol isnt very expensive. my main issues are having my body be found and the pills not being what they are described as. i really dont want a funeral and especially not one where they have my body. the idea originally was to just hope some wolves come and eat me but with sleeping pills ill end up poisoning them :( theres also the issue of like park rangers or random people (this place is pretty dense forest idk about the people) showing up and linking my body back to my family. also doxylamine is an antihistamine and i know people recommend barbiturates but those are (to my knowledge) hard to find. idk if doxylamine will have the same effects as the other sleeping pills or at the same effectiveness. im also scared of just seizing and choking painfully to death. does anyone know any ways i could have my body not be found ? rivers exist in my area but i dont want to drown. also maybe some people more medically knowledgeable than me can inform me on how the pills work im kinda just a retard tbdesuthank you ! and all of this is in minecraft
>>41505479>is this a rare pepe?
>>41505566sui via meds/overdose does sound appealing. but i don't know shit about drugs so i can't advise, sorry. please just make sure you do plenty of research before trying something like that.does alcohol actually make it easier or more effective or whatever? or are you just hoping to feel nice on your way out? any particular alcohol you had in mind?
>>41505798i would never - EVER - post a pepe the frog image.
>>41505818>does alcohol actually make it easier or more effective or whatever?alcohol is a breathing suppressant so it numbs the pain and actually helps stop your breathing. i also like fireball ive barely had it but its nice :3
>>41505566For the pills, if you live in a city there may be harm reduction services that provide free ftir testing, I know they exist all over the US and in canada
