drinking my feelings away probs

or hanging out with my moid friends

What about for Halloween dressing as a feminine man who doesn't take hrt, and then just never taking the costume off?

>>41505684
I will not fall for pink-pill lies
If I actually need to transition, I will
But untill that day comes, I rep

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>>41505702
prob nothing, never really celebrated it
>>41505684
i will be the one who doesn't regret it surely
who's out there surveying non-transition regret rates? how would we even know
>>41505710
kill yourself

>>41505702
I'm multiple years past having anyone to celebrate Halloween with, or even anywhere to go where I would feel welcome or enjoy myself
Starting to wonder if I'll ever make a friend again or if I'm in the early stages of "insane 75 year old hermit"moding

I have hair like this

>>41505702
>What are you doing for Halloween?
Rotting inside and watching horror movies if I'm not too depressed for it.

>>41505802
lucky, i wish i was sad and depressed..

>>41505702
I haven't dressed up since I was 11
I've since had passing fantasies of being a girl for my costume before, though

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i want to be hot halloween anime girl

>>41505743
same here friend
starting 40 years early
i hope you find peace

I finally started watching that Incel to trans pipeline Inside Mari video essay. Big mistake.

>>41505702
>>QOTT: What are you doing for Halloween? What costume will you wear?
Only kids do Halloween where I live so I'll be sitting inside like a grumpy old man ignoring the kids knocking on my door.

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>>41505710
yeah that's one of my fears having a complete breakdown

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I want to be a cute anime girl and cuddle with my cute friend

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I'm going to Japan soon and my one hope is that I can work up the confidence to go into a cuddle cafe. I always feel like I'm just a nuisance though, no one would want to give me a hug even if I paid them. They would hate it the entire time and would be counting the seconds til it was over. I don't want to inflict that on someone else so probably I'll just spend the whole trip miserable and lonely as always.

>>41507253
if you shower beforehand and don't get handsy you're probably already better than the majority of their regulars, so go for it

buying a VR helmet was the best decision I've ever made, it feeds my delusions more than anything real ever could, I can actually be an anime girl, I can look in a mirror and see an anime girl, I can dress however I want, it's heaven

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>>41507277
Sounds comfy. I've considered getting one but I'd need my own place before I get do it while getting fully immersed

>>41507277
I tried it but it was meh for me
doesn't feel real at all

>>41507253
Who cares? You're using them regardless, drop the pretense of consideration because it's just hypocritical

hrt repper gf to enjoy malebrained hobbies in public but then cuddle and crossdress in private

I just nutted to some peak furry cuck porn

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i want to be hot anime girl with glasses i aint asking much God

>>41507643
SPOOKY SCARY SLEEPY WOMEN! MWHAHAHAHAHAH

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>>41507688
I want this but with wilder sex hair

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>want to start hrt again because balding, facial hair growth rate and thickening, male BO, etc
>don't want to be a crybaby crashing out every time something triggers dysphoria and hate entertaining trans shit even as an eternal manmoder
fuck

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BECOME

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Internet tranny culture is kind of neat I like to observe it from a distance

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>Got drunk, flushed my pills in a rage b/c I'll never pass and cancelled next bloodwork appointment
>Too ashamed to ask for an early fill or make a new appointment (I'd be waiting months for one anyway)
Back to repping, I guess
>>41507253
If it makes you feel any better, the employees probably already hate their customers, much like sex workers and strippers

>>41508054
Why would that make me feel better

>>41508073
You shouldn't care and I mean really you don't. It's a transaction. You'll always be a creep to them but to you they're just a hugger too right

i wish I was trans and actually dysphporic

>>41508073
Idk, less shame?
I used to work retail so I know a lot about having to deal with people you hate, putting on a smile and giving obsequious apologies when they yell at you that you're personally trying to rip them off because inflation happened and the price increased
Outside maybe some snobby coffee shops, nobody in retail is there for love of the product/service
It's a job, purely transactional
Just don't nag them or make them feel any more weird than they already do, let them do their job and you're already in the top 25% of customers, maybe even top 10% idk the clientele "cuddle cafes" attract
Chances are if the employees hated the job with all their being they would find another unless it paid really well, so you might as well give them hours by patronizing the place

can't tell if i'm balding on hrt or if my hairline is just naturally this high

>be dysphoric
>take 2 tramadols
>dysphoria goes away

repping is so fucking easy

I should've repped harder.
The tranny life isn't easier.
Heed my warning, fight back the brainworms.

>>41508099
it's all smiles when you're not? I wish I was just a gooning sissy or something

>listening to The Iceman Cometh
the quintessential repper play

>>41508274
idk what you mean but i feel miserable

>>41508367
why? if you don't have dysphoria then there's no reason to be

i wish i never saw warmfreshpaint transbian sexo 10 years ago

my mental health would be so much better

>>41508385
I’m envious of those who have what I never can
I’m a fake human with no identity and the trans people I met are all better than me for the fact they self actualise
They get to be cute or at least are allowed to do anything
But I’m just a depressed subhuman

Just do 3 pullups, 10 push ups, and 60s planks every time you have a troon thought. This will encourage rewiring the brain in a masculine way.

>>41507222
You know you can express yourself femininely in public without being obscene.

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manifesTTTT

>>41508701
That's nothing lmao

>>41508701
Literally the only thing that motivated me to exercise was to build a more feminine figure with lower body work.

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manmoder pops in to say hello to a dryrepper

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>>41505702
i will do nothing , my repper life dont deserve any type of joy

>>41505702
take your HRT, retards

femininity has nothing to do with hrt

>>41509720
yes. you aren't living your life until you have come tits spread a mile apart on your ribcage
and don't forget female pattern hair loss from stress

>>41508582
sounds like you have no self-identity.
You might actually be possessed by an evil spirit.

>>41509163
the only girls who are actually like this are out of shape and chubby. and probably ugly.

I wish I was a cute twinkhon transbian

do SSRIs work for dysphoria? I don't want to be more of a zombie though

>>41509862
Yes
Somehow this seems true
I hate myself for it
Everything I do is performative
I’m a fake tranny a fake human a fake person
I just leech off others and mirror their personalities
I’m dead and unmotivated

>>41509891
Same
But I’m not dydphoric and too old to be trans

>>41509163
>broke loser
>vtuber with big tits
Life on easy mode, bullshit

>>41509891
reppers wish to be twinkhons,
twinkhons wish to be passoids,
passoids wish to be gigapassoids,
gigapassoids wish to be cis.

there's always something greater to want, and even if you get to the top, actual perfection is always out of reach, leaving you with a void that can never be filled.
-buddha or something idk

>>41510545
Thats why this is a mental illness

stopping hrt gave me dandruff and eczema :( apparently it's common with hormonal changes and stress

>>41505710
the problem is that you're already wearing another costume underneath it and the costume is about to hit twinkdeath

>>41509374
half the people itt are 'hrt reppers'

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>>41509887
I will simply be the hot variant bc hot anime girl
>>41510530
yes

>>41510545
Fuck that I want to be hot anime girl

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I'll never transition, and its not because I wont pass, its because I'll have 0 support. My left leaning friends only want to know me when I have drugs. My conservative friends are great guys to hang out with and always have my back - except on transitioning where they are horrid and cruel. I know people say 'do it for yourself' but whats the use when it ostracizes everyone you know? Maybe I'm not trans enough if these are issues that hinder me , but if so why does this question loom over my head so often, why am I so jealous of trans women why do I enjoy feminine things and want to take on a more feminine role in life?

>>41511540
that's the way literally everything works though.

the irony is i look a lot like my mom but my mom is ugly so it doesnt matter. i probably dont even have dysphoria, i just dont wanna be ugly.

>>41513278
same, though I always thought my mom was closeted trans (grew up with like six brothers, had short hair, came out as lesbian later in life)
I do have a brow ridge but otherwise I'd say I look identical in my face. In my hometown people would always stop and ask me if I'm related

>>41505702
If i can't transition I've decided to just live a diminished male existence, no ambitions, no love, no intimacy, no pornography, nothing. Just a hollow life that feels like nothing. Sad that I don't get to dress up on halloween.

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Being male sucks it's unreal

i wish being an androgynous femboy twink was something you could actually be and not just a fantasy in chinese cartoons

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>>41509163
definitely an adult content creator

>>41509163
>big tits
>female
these instantly make her mog me no matter what i do with my life

want to kill myself but i don't want to inconvenience my family with the trauma. i can't do a single thing i actually want, not even die.

>>41514716
same
it sucks

>>41514427
Yeah and I wish HRT that changed your skeletal structure was real and not the product of chinese independent comic books and canadian erotic electronic games.

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I wish hrt turns me into ahot anime girl

i think life gets easier when you realise that you cant really do anything to change yourself. like when i see a pretty tranny and i feel envy and the urge to troon out to try my luck. i can just remind myself that they basically looked like that pre hrt and its all style and minor alterations. just as when i see someone who is some computer programmer and i get jealous and want to learn that so i can have a 6 figure job like them, i remind myself they were always interested in and good at that and im not going to just magically change and be able to learn things and be useful. i am what i am. and that is unfortunately just a failure with no positive traits of any kind. the sooner you accept what you are and how much on rails your life is the better you will feel. the torture of thinking things could be different will stop.