I wish I was just a normal gay guy who lived as a gay male. But I can’t because my dysphoria is just too strong. I want a bf who’ll love me. Apart of me is grateful that I have a chance at passing, but at the same time I’ll loose out on being a gay guy, lose my community and loose out on dating gay men. That bond I may have shared with some of them, will be taken away. It’s a weird rant but I’ve been thinking about it
>>41506849be more kind to yourself.you are loved, you're still human, humans make mistakes and that's okay, I'm worried that i'm slowly becoming a neet I don't want that.just keep at it I believe in you and it's never too late just keep striving for what you want.you can still always wear jeans or something if you're dating someone who is embarassed idk you'll make it honey.
>>41506849mtf community increases every day so dw abt it just switch sides
>>41506849I get youI transitioned kind of early but never got to have a public facing relationship with another guy. It was only after I transitioned that men approached and wanted to be seen with me in public. Realising this has really gotten me deep into the detrans rabbit hole, as I feel like I wasted 6 years of my life as a weird "in between thing" instead of living my authentic life as a gay man.hopefully there's a bf out for you anon. I have a fiance of a couple years now who is struggling with me detransitioning but is ultimately supportive.
>>41507783> wasted 6 years of my life as a weird "in between thing" instead of living my authentic life as a gay man.I’m always so embarrassed to admit feeling this way. I feel so sad that I wasted years where I could have been dating other boys. I had guys who were into me but I was too much of a mess back then. Like I dont want to detransition I’m still glad I’m living as a woman but damn sometimes I wonder what it could have been like. I cope by being a fujo
