>be tranny>in the club >walking to the bathroom>accidentally make eye contact with a guy standing by the bar>smile because I'm a retard who does it reflexively out of politeness >go into bathroom>just about to shut the stall door>guys comes into the bathroom and pushes me into the cubicle and locks the stall behind us>puts his arm against my neck and pins me against the cubicle wall>gets his dick out>starts jerking off>cums on my leg >says 'thanks' and leaves>sit there with cum on my leg wondering what the fuck just happenedI feel like such a retard. Why do I always freeze up in situations like this and let people do things like this to me? It's like my brain just shuts down and I just become incapable of standing up for myself. I feel so gross.
Some type of shit I would do if I went outside. Sorry for you nona.
>>41509859That never happened
>>41509969it genuinely did happen to me, I wouldn't lie about stuff like this
>>41509859I am so fucking sorry that happened to you, and importantly it’s not your fault that a man violated you, no matter how you responded. Standing up to a man can be dangerous, physically or socially, particularly when you’re trans. Freezing up is a really normal response. Do you have people in real life you’re working this through with? I legit cannot think of a less sympathetic or helpful audience than a Chan board
>>41510044Thank you, anon. In truth, this isn't the first time something like this has happened. I've had a few instances of similar things occurring, but I'd been able to avoid it for about a year before last night. I appreciate you saying that freezing up is normal. I haven't told anybody because I'm truthfully ashamed that I didn't fight back, and I feel like people would say I actually asked for it if I didn't object in the moment. I'm talking about it here mostly because it's anonymous, but also because making light of it sort of helps me to deal with it. I think I'm just basically retarded from not having grown up a girl and now having this bizarre fawn response to men which comes from having been a 'weak' boy growing up. I feel girls learn to be more vocally oppositional to men, whereas I just learned to avoid them. I don't know how to deal with male violence, especially not sexual violence.
